Nyx's father to say goodbye to Nyx when she was 7, in a way that only Nyx would know, and run away to an unknown place.

  Her mother and the cops who were looking for her kept asking Nyx what her father said to her, where he went and what kind of things he got, but all Nyx did was stand there.

  She had forbidden herself to cry. She kept saying 'I won't cry, I can't cry, I shouldn't cry'.

  After her father left, her family fell apart and Nyx hadn't had a sincere conversation with anyone for 3 months.

  She had changed, despite being 7 years old, she felt like an adult, even an old person, who had figured out her whole life and understood that death was the end of every beautiful thing.

  She wouldn't eat anything her mother gave her, her brother would beg her to eat two pieces of food. She would go to her brother's bed at a certain time at night and sleep there. She wouldn't talk to her friends, she wouldn't go swimming in pools of blood with them like she used to. She saw in black and white, and it wasn't just because of her father.

  Nyx just understood, you know? That the effort is in vain,

  that there is no purpose,

  that she will never actually understand people,

  that there will always be someone who wishes her evil,

  that trust is the real killer,

  that betrayal is a bloody shirt we put on,

  that all smiles turn into panic attacks of crying,

  that heartbeats are the only real thing that keeps her alive,

  that feelings are easy and can be stepped on and crushed,

  that trusting someone with the hope that they can 'make them better' is a gamble and that we are all in that gamble,

  that hope is a game the brain plays on us,

  that everything is too complicated,

  that justice never actually exists,

  that while someone is crying and their life is ruined someone else finally says they got better,

  that everyone is in a game,

  that their limited Terra* exists in an infinite universe,

  that the eyes on her forehead and chest are not a gift but a curse,

  that her purpose of existence is to kill people and protect her own kind,

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  and that unlike in every other fairy tale,

  there is actually no escape or denial from this, to be frank, life is not actually living.

  Her mother Vera had also changed, she wasn't spending as much time with her children as before, she was practically avoiding the time she could spend with them. She was the one who was the saddest with the family. Her older brother Nolan slowly started yelling at Nyx to sleep in her own bed, almost never leaving his room, his purpose in life was actually becoming a monster and becoming the same person Nyx feared.

  When Nyx was 9 years old, a great war broke out on Terra, between the Cursed Crew* and the Wyrms*, and this war had lasted for a very long time. Her older brother had gone to fight for the Wyrms. All the other monster species were defending the Witches* (except the Seers*) because the Cursed Crew were souls that no one wanted, that they were afraid of, and that they wanted to completely destroy their souls.

  Especially among them, even the Seers were afraid of the soul of Adam Draven and what he did while he was alive.

  Adam Draven was born on May 1st 1927. He had lived for himself all his life, and wanted the evil of the entire universe.

  He had taken hundreds of lives and committed countless crimes. He saw himself as a devil sent to the universe, and he was right.

  His own mother and father were afraid of him and prayed for his death every day. Surprisingly, it wasn't a sad past story that affected Adam.

  Adam was filled with all the sins and evils, and he didn't care what anyone said. He was hated by all the monsters, it was forbidden to talk about him in schools, everyone was scared of him.

  But Adam had never lived a stressful or depressed life.

  On the contrary, he was happy and completely content. He haven’t been found(to go to prison for his crimes) for many years, but on April 28, 1961, Valen and Eris' grandfather Colental Kasen Wells caught Adam in a forest where he constantly took refuge and spent all 24 hours a day, and arrested him. Was it difficult for Adam to escape? Of course not.

  But Adam had done what he had to do with the forest, he didn't care where the world took him anymore.

  But Adam, who always loved living, all his plans fell through when he received the news of his execution on his birthday.

  Terra was devastated on him, time stopped, Adam's heart stopped, he faced himself, he was afraid for the first time. He was executed in Phoenis* on May 1, 1961.

  While everyone was partying to finally getting rid of him, disasters started to happen in Terra. More wars started, monsters started to exclude others according to their power and species. There were those who took Adam as an example and committed murders for him to live.

  Nyx and her mother received the news that her brother died in the war on May 4, 2015. Nyx died once again.

  Before 2 years ago from Nolan’s death, it was understood that Adam Draven had become the spirit of all Terra's lands (and that's why there were disasters) and his heart was still beating in the CCDA forest, where he took refuge and loved as much as his life.

  Of course, this meant that he came back as a ghost in CCDA. Was he the first ghost? Of course not. But ghosts were a very rare type of monster and the monsters that had come back as ghosts so far were good people, at least people who were useful to society.

  That's why everyone believed that a second life as a ghost was only deserved by being a very good person, until Adam.

  *Terra- the world’s name Nyx and the other monsters live in, like how we name our world “earth”

  *Cursed Crew- the team of ghosts that lives in the CCDA, that Adam started and is the heid of

  *Wryms- a type of monster(that Eris is also is) who can control the weather, elements, and as a rare type, people’s perspective. They were always meant to bring peace, that why they were against the Cursed Crew(who wants and works for chaos)

  *Seer- Seers are a strong and old monster type(that Valen, Dolores, Celeste, Nyx’s father Dorius and her brother Nolan are also) that can block other abilities anda ura perception(ability to see the auras or emotional energry of people, allowing them to determine someone’s emotional state, health, or even sometimes their intentions.)

  *Phoenis- a city in the Aknar Continent