Hello!

  I'd like to mention that English is not my first nguage. Therefore I want to apologize for any mistakes I might make and if you see them, you can let me know, so I can edit ;)

  This is my second Twilight fanfic. Some of you may already know, but for those who are new, I'll be happy if you'd take your time to check out my other story involving Cullens called Annabell.

  A little warning and a discimer

  My story uses only a small part of the original plot, and characters from the original work that are mentioned in this are themselves, as per cast from the movies. However, don't expect the story to follow the original books or movies because it doesn't. Elizabeth and any seemingly random character is my creation. Other than them and my plot, all rights to the characters belong to their respective author S. Meyer.

  Enjoy ?

  *Carlisle’s POV

  I still can’t believe she killed herself… If only I found her earlier… Or I should have not let her go in the first pce.

  “Carlisle, what’s done is done. You can’t keep bming yourself.” Spoke up Edward. I felt bad because he heard my thoughts. However, I couldn’t help it. I mourned the death of my first love. We spoke only briefly when I treated her broken leg at the clinic I was currently helping at. But I am a vampire and everything is heightened for us. Even emotions.

  I fell in love with the gentle brunette but she had a life to live and our ways parted again. A few years ter I found her at the bottom of a cliff. But I was too te. “She lost a child, Carlisle. I don’t think that eternal existence would make her happy even if you did save her.”

  Edward was alone like me since I saved him from death according to his mother’s dying wish and because after a century of traveling alone I was looking for a companion. When I found Rosalie, I thought I was helping her. But she didn’t like Edward like I hoped she would and even hated our existence. She’d prefer to die that day. “Maybe you’re right.” But it still doesn’t change my feeling of loss.

  “I know.” With a sympathetic look, he left me alone with my thoughts. He never felt anything simir to love and so he didn’t understand why I couldn’t let go. All he knew was that I kept returning to her in my thoughts.

  Decades ter, Rosalie found half dead Emmett, after a bear did a number on him. I was proud of her. No matter how much he was bleeding, she controlled herself. Once he woke up, it was clear that he and Rose were mates and I was happy for her. However, I was once more reminded of my loss, thinking that Esme might have been my mate and I’d stay alone forever.

  The only comfort I had were my ‘kids’. Even though I was troubled at Edward’s episodes of viginte hunting. Shortly after I saved him, he got upset that I kept him from human blood. He spent about a decade hunting so-called bad humans, to excuse it.

  Once he returned, I let it go. His talent had its cons and I couldn’t imagine what it must have been like to hear all the evil thoughts of those he chose to kill.

  Another episode was just recently, after Rosalie found Emmett. I couldn’t bme him for wanting to be away from their thoughts. For quite a while they were hard to be around even without the gift of telepathy.

  *

  “Hello Carlisle. I’m Alice and this is Jasper.” One day, a small, dark haired pixie girl with a blond, soldier-like looking guy showed up at our doorstep. They were both vampires and as they both embraced our way of living, I welcomed them.

  Alice could see the future and since Jasper could feel emotions of those around him, she helped him to accustom to the vegetarian lifestyle even prior to their appearance at our house and they wanted to join us. Alice already knew I would welcome them, in fact. It wasn’t easy for Jasper but he was trying and I was happy that our family grew.

  Of course, Jasper could feel my pain of loss and when I told them about the girl, Alice cimed that she couldn’t have been my mate because the one for me wasn’t born yet. It gave me hope and I was excited for the day I’d meet her.

  *Edward’s POV

  It’s been over a century since Alice and Jasper came to our family. Alice gave Carlisle a hope that he’d find his mate sometime in the future. She tried to see mine too, I knew she did. But she was good at hiding her thoughts from me. And just like she wouldn’t let me see Carlisle’s mate, she wouldn’t let me know anything about mine. If there ever even was to be one.

  “No cheating.” She would say and dance off to somewhere. Whatever. When she comes, she comes. If she comes. I thought. I wasn’t particurly interested in finding her anyway. She was bound to be just another person around me that couldn’t stay ‘quiet’.

  We were back in Forks. About two years already. We finally stopped being the new and interesting thing everyone must know about. Although, we always attracted some attention. No matter how ‘common’ we became for humans around us. Because our unusual and to humans beautiful visage was supposed to attract them to us. Their predators.

  There was a different new and interesting thing everyone talked about now. The daughter of the chief of police, Isabel Swan, was moving in with her father and transferring to the Forks High. I was bored of seeing her face long before I met her personally. I saw it from all angles in the minds of all the guys at the school already. She was absolutely average. Yet some guys were imagining her madly in love with them without ever even talking to her. It was pathetic.

  Then I met her for the first time. Just what were those idiots looking at? The images from the minds around her did not come even close to what I saw before me now. It was a slim brunette with dark brown eyes and a lovely face. What struck me the most was that I couldn’t ‘hear’ her.

  The tone of one’s ‘voice’ was simir to their physical one. But I could not hear hers. It was like the seat she occupied was empty when I closed my eyes and only listened to all the thoughts around me. Could it be her? If my mate had a silent mind, I wasn’t opposed to having one.

  At least I thought so, until I caught her scent and nearly killed the whole css along with her. She was silent. She was beautiful. But she smelled so delicious, I almost pounced her artery the second her scent hit my nose. With her, I’d have to kill the rest of the css because I couldn’t leave witnesses.

  Somehow I managed to st through the lesson while mulling over the best way to do it and once I got to fresh air, it wasn’t so hard to resist her. After taking some time away from all humans, I tried to get close to her. As if fate was mocking me, she’d die if I didn’t pretty much expose myself to her.

  Surprisingly, she didn’t tell anyone, but it didn’t take her long to figure out what I am as well as my family. Rosalie wanted to kill her for knowing our secret. I wouldn’t allow anyone to touch her. She was mine. Since she knew our secret, I didn’t have to keep acting all ‘human’ around her and took her to meet the rest of the family.

  Alice loved her and even though I didn’t find anything in her mind that would confirm to me that Bel was my mate, there was nothing that would say the opposite either. Maybe I should have kept her to myself though, because when I brought Bel along to py baseball with my family, a tracker caught her scent. He had the same reaction as me the first time I smelled her but his little group couldn’t take us on and he knew it.

  Just like I knew, that he wouldn’t stop hunting her until we killed him. My pn to get him away from Bel failed. It failed so miserably, that he got to her and before we ended him, she got bitten. I didn’t want her to become a vampire. I liked her as a weak human that needed me. So, I tried to suck the venom out. Her blood was the most delicious thing I had ever tasted. Carlisle attempted to stop me. I couldn’t stop. I kept gulping her sweet blood until her heart became as silent as her mind.

  Now I understood the time when Carlisle mourned the death of some girl named Esme. I missed the nights I’d watch Bel sleep in her room. I longed to have her by my side not having to listen to her thoughts she didn’t want to share. Only to her heartbeat, which would quicken when we’d make out.

  *

  Carlisle made sure it looked like she died by some stupid accident when we tried to convince her to come back to Forks. He wasn’t happy about it. But he did it anyway to protect the family. I used to be his favorite. Even though he wanted to love us all equally, I knew he favoured his ‘first son’. Since Isabel’s death though, he became more reserved towards me.

  It’s been a year since it happened. I didn’t give a fuck about humans anymore. The only thoughts I cared to listen to were those involving our family. Therefore I didn’t know, there was a new student as of today. “Oh, oops. Sorry, my bad. I wasn’t paying attention to where I’m going.” A female voice came from behind me after she bumped into me and the few papers she had in her hands scattered around the floor.

  I heard her talk but couldn’t hear her mind. “Bel?” Wide eyed, I turned towards her as she collected her things from the floor.

  “Ermm, no. Sorry my name is Elizabeth. It’s my first day here.” She said once she straightened up to look at me and I heard her heartbeat speed up a bit. She didn’t look anything like Bel but her mind was just as silent. Did I get a second chance? I took a careful breath. No, she doesn’t smell like her either. Although her scent was almost just as alluring to me as Bel’s used to be.

  “Nice to meet you Beth, my name is Edward.” I smiled at her, assuming that she wouldn’t like to be called by her full name, just like Isabel didn’t.

  She frowned a little. “Really? That’s what you got from my name? …Fine Eddie, since we’re talking… Would you happen to know where this css is?” She asked, pointing to her schedule. She was looking for the css I was just heading to.

  “Eddie?” I lifted an eyebrow.

  “If you’re gonna call me Beth, I’m going to call you Eddie.” She folded her arms while her unusually copper coloured eyes studied my face and her cheeks turned a light shade of pink. Her hair had an unusual color too. It was dark red. Not like an average redhead. As if dipped in blood, red. However there was no sign that it wasn’t her natural hair color.

  “Actually, I do happen to know where that is. I have English with Mr. Barns too now. Want me to show you the way?” I could almost feel the warmth of her blush in the air between us and unconsciously raised my hand to touch one of those rosy cheeks with my fingertips, causing a soft gasp to escape her lips as she moved away.

  “Umm.. That would be great. Thanks.” Her full lips finally turned into a small smile too. She was unusual but really beautiful.