‘My breathing finally started to rex, damn that was a bit of overexertion, but nothing too bad.’

  ‘I khat I shouldn’t go into the cil hall, but that was just too much temptation for a single child. I mean, yeah, I have these memories, but that does not ge the fact that I currently have the urges of a thirteen-year-old.’

  ‘What does that mean, you ask?’

  ‘That means that I am more proo act with little thinking. More easily swayed by momentary emotions, I became bored faster, also I have a ton of energy and I ’t stay in one pce for long periods of time. Oh, and my attention span is somewhat bad for things that I don’t enjoy. ‘

  ‘So if I knew all of these things, how is that, that I ’t trol them?’

  ‘Well, you see, it is more of a hormonal and biological thing. Here is a simple example: imagine Revan who smokes cigarettes and also drinks alcohol often, he most likely knows that it is not good for him.’

  ‘Knowing this does not mean that he will stop these activities, or even if he wants to stop them, he may not be able to. Now, looking at my own situation, as a child, I didn’t really like bei alone here, without anything to do.’

  ‘For an actual jedi padawan it wouldn’t be a problem, but for me, who i seven years never was bored for more than half an hour, it was.’

  ‘In our base on Hoth, there were a ton of items, games to py, books to read, paint, watch long recorded holo-movies, learn something iing from master, practice saber forms, or other meneral on use, like bsters and grenades.’

  ‘It was aing life! The training was tough, but I could spend my free time however I wanted, many times even master joined in my childish activities.’

  ‘This was what the jedi missed purposefully, poor sods never even knew what life offer. I already feel that this will be the main reason to run away from this damn pce.’

  ‘Especially now that I knew half of those felonies were straight-out lies, typical jedi humbug. Well, except for the suspi of breaking into the archives, that one sounds pretty damn serious.’

  ‘I bet that it is more than enough to lock me up. That sacred on thingy was only the cherry oop of the cake. Also, withholding information? I don’t think that there is a w that forces you to answer holy to every personal type of question that a jedi asks from you.’

  ‘Although I have to praise the grandmaster, he came very close to the truth about me, so close, but so far. I will have to be extra careful around him. He even noticed my force avatar. Well, probably because I was too weak to support it properly, but still. Nicely done for someoh a mere eight hundred ay-four years of experience.‘

  ‘The doors to my cell suddenly opened, making me instinctively try to grab the hilt of my bde, only to realize I don’t have it anymore. Uanding this was a frustrating process, but I still stubbornly sat up on the bed and looked towards the door. I couldn’t sense anyone ing closer since I ’t use the force without injuring myself right now. Instead, I waited patiently for the guest to e in.’

  ‘She came in just fine, a quite tall blue colored Twi’lek adult woman. She looked at me with a fickle of anger. W-what did I do to earn that gre? She marched to the side of my bed, sat down, then began to check me all over. I was genuinely surprised by her rude as. I was about to start to protest, but her sharp gaze instantly took away my voice. Damn, this woman is scary. ‘

  “In much trouble, you are little miss.” — ‘She said, shortly, then tinued.’ — “I don’t know how you succeeded in making Master Windu personally ask me to check over you, but seeing that you are almost entirely drained of force, I am no longer surprised.“

  ‘Oh, did they realize that I was the one who spied on them? Iing, but it was a calcuted risk, anyway. She suddenly grabbed my with one hand and made me look into her eyes.‘

  “Look at me when I am talking to you, girl.” — ‘She said to me, almost hissing. I immediately nodded, now somewhat scared from this no-nonseype of woman.’

  “Your name?”

  “Nizzal Grey ma’am.”

  “Good. What happeo you to bee like this? Even your life-force is drained somewhat...“

  “Eh, are you a healer?” — ‘I realized with a sense of relief.’

  “What else would I be? I am the current chief healer of the order. My name is Vokara Che. Every youngling from the order knows me. How is it that you don’t?”

  “Well, you just answered it yourself.“

  ‘She looked at me fused for a while, then she realized what I meant.‘

  “Ah, you are not from the se on Corust. Did your master visit here for some reason?” — ‘She asked, intrigued by the prospect.’

  “Eh, not quite. I am not a jedi, actually.”

  ‘She stopped her healing and looked deeply into my eyes, searg for something she clearly didn’t find.’

  ‘Her shoulders rexed again while restarting my treatment. Oh, she must have looked for the yellow eyes of a sith. I am quite lucky that my eyes only turn yellow when I actively el a rge quantity of dark side energies.’

  ‘I have a feeling that I shouldn’t tell her about that faope definitely not. My childish side would love to see her rea, but nope, go away temptation, go away!’

  ‘The ut her hands on my temples. She was very gentle, quite in trast with her personality. I felt a wave of forergy engulfing my mind and body with its peaceful, revitalising co.’

  “Let me feel you up, little one.” — ‘The woman stated with a mask of cheerfulhat doctors around children so often teo use.’

  ‘I felt like shit, to be ho, so I let her treat me without pint. But I was still surprised when she began to speak the diagnosis out loud.’

  “You are quite strong in the force. Your aura is very refined, yet clouded with shadows. I sense much darkness inside you, swirling, powerful… but tained? For how long I wonder… Wait… what is this? Darkhat is banced out by the light... I have never seen such delicate bance before… Its almost harmonious? It reminds me of Master Windu’s aura but less votile… Now I uand why he seemed so ied in you…“

  ‘I stared at the woman. Vokara Che was it… Ah or a sensor, maybe both… A useful skill to have as a healer, an eveer as a jedi. I should not uimate this woman.’

  “By the way… Where you kicked out of the order by any ce, girl?” — ‘She asked in a funny voice, she clearly meant it as a joke to lighteiff atmosphere.’

  ‘Still, it was a logical clusion, although it really bothered my pride, as a master of my own order to be assumed as a dropout.’

  ‘I felt as my haughtiness started to take over my logic. I attempted to trol it with my iron will.’

  ‘She looked at my iruggle for a while, then she made a shocked face, clearly misuanding everything.’

  ‘She covered her shocked and guilty expression with a strained smile. She obviously thought that she actally hit the nail on the head. Then she said patronizingly.‘

  “There is no shame in it. Not everyone is as smart and skilled to bee a jedi.”

  ‘Oh no, you don’t! I won’t get baited that easily, and what the hell!? If I would be a normal child, that would probably make me cry... Oh, from her strained expression she realized it too.’

  “Cute little girls have no p battlefields, anyway.” — ‘She said hastily, and I bli her slowly.’

  ‘I see she robably asked to ruffle my feathers a bit, but it isn’t too suited for her personality type. I watched as she made anrimace. This is getting more and more awkward with every sed… Time to take over the lead in this versation. Maybe I will help her a bit on the way. She healed me, after all. My sense of vertigo was gone before I could notice.’

  “Why do you think that there are only two possible choices?”

  ‘She blinked for a sed. Then she asked.‘

  “In what?”

  “In the force, of course.” — ‘I answered wisely.’

  ‘Now she was holy fused, so I tried to expin it a little. That much couldn’t cause any serious trouble for me. I will have to tell something to the other masters from my in sooner or ter.’

  ‘So this moment is just as good as any. She will obviously report it to them, or maybe they are watg this versation already. I looked into the camera just for a sed, then turned back to the healer dy.‘

  “I meant to say, why do you think that there is only a Jedi Order and a Sith Order. Why couldn’t there be hundreds of other force orders teag their own philosophies and interpretations of the force? We are living in a vast gaxy, after all. I could easily name a handful of such orders, without even trying, you know.”

  ‘She thought about it, then asked.’

  “Ah, you are right. There are smaller and more secretive ones. But they are usually simirly aligo eighter the light or the dark side, effectively making their difference merely a cultural one. One is good the other bad so to say.”

  ‘I frow her clusion. Couldn’t help but tell her my thoughts.’ — “That… is an incredibly oversimplified worldview. I find it hard to believe that you yourself abide by it…”

  “A person as familiar with life ah as you are, wouldn’t call death a bad thing, merely a y… Creation and erosion, birth ah, light and dark are stant things… her one remains for long in the absence of the other… As we exist in a fually cyclical world.”

  ‘There was a solemn silence filling out the small room as we stared into the eyes of one another. As the moment passed, the woman shook out of her stupor… f that fake smile bato her face.’

  “So… so you are from one of those sects, then? I must say, you kids learn iing things these days…“

  ‘I let my momentarily maed presence slip through my fingers. Turning back, at least in the eyes of Master Vokara, to the harmless little sdrel, I was for the rger part of our versation. As I answered her question cheerfully.

  “Maybe.”

  “So what is your rank in your sect?”

  ‘She already healed most of my exhaustion. She is a truly superior healer, I noted in my mind. Hmmm... what should I tell her? I guess it’s time to indulge in my childish self after esg from so many carefully id traps in this brief versation. Jedi rarely asked questions without reason. I will have to be on guard all day from now on. So for my answer, hehe...’

  ‘I suddenly raised up my arms with the unlimited energy of a child and told her, almost screaming. ‘

  “I am a master!”

  ‘That sudden outburst made her very unfortable for a sed. Then she sighed and patted wow, she just patted my head and also my leks. That felt surprisingly good. Oh no, is this the attention seeking nature of a child? Nonono, let it go! No! Damn, calm down... huff, that was close. She pulled her hand away and smiled at me.’

  “Is this a children only sect? She asked pyfully while giving me her st rounds of checkups.“

  ‘I thought about it. Well, practically I am the only living member. There are other masters, but from what I knew of them, they could be children, too. The thought of Darth Revan’s sect being an only childre gave me unbelievable satisfa. I felt as my i smile started to turn into an evil one, but I stopped it forcefully by shouting eically!’

  “Yes!”

  ‘Revan, you are officially out of your ow now. It’s an only children's sect, after all. Hehe. You better deal with it.’

  ‘Also… Don’t fuck with me boy, I will catch your droid too.’

  ‘While I was imagining Revan’s form rolling on the ground before me from pure embarrassment, as every following geion of masters in our order will have my memories too, effectively destroying his mysterious, but terrifying image forever, I felt peace.’

  ‘The healer dy soon excused herself a, advisio sleep and sihere was literally nothing else to do, I slept. Like… DUH!’