Insufficient balance

  I kissed her forehead and whispered softly: "Xue Er, wake up."

  Zixue suddenly pushed me, and I let out a cry of surprise. Unprepared, I was at the bedside, and instantly fell to the ground, my injured arm colliding with something, sending a sharp pain through it. Zixue's face turned pale as she stared at me, saying: "You, how did you end up on my bed? Where's sister?"

  I gritted my teeth in pain and replied: "Ziyan is too tired, she went back to rest, I'm here taking care of you."

  Zixue's tears gushed out, "You've done something so outrageous, how can you still sleep with me, you..."

  I hastily sat down beside her and reached out to wipe away the tears on her face, but Zi Xue slapped my hand away and angrily said: "Don't touch me."

  I said softly: "Xue Er, it's all my fault, can you forgive me? I will definitely be ten times, a hundred times better to you in the future, please forgive me."

  Zixue's eyes revealed a painful and hateful expression, she looked at me with some vigilance and angrily said: "Forgive you? How can I forgive you? You're a beast, how could you do such a thing. I will never forgive you." Her excessive anger caused Zixue's body to tremble, the buttons on her chest shook open revealing the pink underwear inside.

  A beastly sentence pierced my heart like a needle, and I turned pale. Taking a deep breath, I thought of what Ziyan had said - to move Zixue with sincerity. I couldn't retreat now. Just then, I saw that Zixue's front was torn open, so I said anxiously: "Your clothes are undone, hurry up and button them, you just got up, be careful not to catch a chill."

  But I didn't know that Zixue was now completely unable to listen to any words, a sentence of concern from me would change in her ears, her face changed greatly, she tightly grasped her own clothes and trembled with rage: "You, you did what to me last night? You this..., are you also..."

  I naturally understand what she wants to say, in her heart, I have actually become a true sex maniac, a rapist, my heart is as if it has been cut open with a bloody steel knife, filled with despair, my eyes are blank, and I muttered: "In your heart, am I really that kind of person?"

  Zi Xue's rapid breathing was accompanied by a hateful tone: "Isn't that right? Otherwise, why would you go and rape that demon princess? Wasn't it because of her beauty? If she were ugly, would you have done the same?" Zi Xue's words hit the mark. Perhaps if the original target hadn't been Mo Yue but an ugly woman instead, I wouldn't have done what I did. It seems I'm truly a beast. In Zi Xue's heart, I no longer had any redeeming qualities, only intense hatred. She said she would never forgive me, and the warmth of last night vanished in an instant. My inner world was devoid of emotions, and everything seemed unrelated to me. I didn't hear anything else Zi Xue said after that. Slumping to the ground, my eyes became eerily empty, and I couldn't muster any strength or motivation to do anything. At this moment, that deadly aura returned, surging from my heart and rapidly spreading through my meridians. This time, its attack was even more ferocious than before. I didn't have the slightest intention of stopping it, letting it roam freely within me. Everything had become meaningless; I no longer had the will to live. Although death was approaching step by step, my consciousness remained clear. Perhaps watching myself die could be a kind of entertainment too.

  Zixue finished speaking, and upon seeing my appearance, she felt extremely distressed in her heart. Tears couldn't help but flow down, and after crying for a while, she discovered that I was completely still, with my eyes wide open, sitting there motionlessly. What made her feel afraid was that my eyes had completely turned into a dull gray color, and my entire body no longer had any signs of life.

  Zi Xue had a bad premonition, jumped off the bed, and gently pushed me. I fell to the ground with a thud, my body stiff and unresponsive. Zi Xue cried out in alarm, lifted up my upper body, and shouted: "Lei Xiang, Lei Xiang, what's wrong? Lei Xiang, say something!" I didn't have the energy to speak, nor even close my eyes. The aura of death was rapidly spreading through my meridians, fueled by despair in my heart. At this point, except for my brain occupied by dark magic and my dantian occupied by the Crazy God's aura, my entire body had been taken over by the aura of death. It was constantly corroding every part of my body. However, I had eaten two pieces of Ink Crystal after all, so my meridians were wide and resilient. I wouldn't die immediately, at least not in a short period of time. What struck me as strange was that apart from having no vital energy throughout my body, I didn't have any other sensations. I wasn't sure if this counted as a peaceful death or not.

  Zixue's heart was filled with fear, if I had closed my eyes, she might have thought I had fainted, but now, in this state, my whole body was filled with a deathly stillness that she couldn't imagine. She kept calling out my name and shaking my body, but I didn't react at all. After a while, Zixue fearfully discovered that my body was slowly turning cold.

  "Knock, knock, knock." The knocking sound came. "Ah Xue, it's sister." Ziyan's voice came through the door.

  Zixue hastily laid me down on the ground, rushed over to open the door and cried out: "Sister, quickly come take a look at him, he seems to be in a bad way."

  Ziyan was shocked by the words, and she hurriedly ran into the room with Zixue. When she saw me lying on the ground without any signs of life, although I couldn't see her, I could still feel her sorrow. Ziyan let out a cry and fell onto my body, "Lei Xiang, what's wrong with you?" She also tried to shake me awake, but this was useless.

  Ziyan calmed herself, her personality was much stronger than Zixue's. At this time, she didn't panic and turned to ask Zixue: "Ah Xue, why is it like this? What happened to him?"

  "Zi Xue cried: 'It's all my fault, this morning when I woke up and found him hugging me, I remembered what he did to the demon princess, so I scolded him and pushed him off the bed, then scolded him two more times. He didn't move after that, and by the time I calmed down a bit and looked at him again, he was like this.'"

  Ziyan held me in her arms and sobbed: "What did you say? Why is he like this?"

  "I, I said..." Zi Xue repeated what I had just said. For the first time in her life, Zi Yan scolded her sister, "You, how could you say that about him? Although he was wrong, he has always deeply loved us. Yesterday, to atone for his sins, he let me kill him, and when I attacked him, he didn't even resist. Look, his arm is broken, but he didn't even cry out in pain once. I forgave him because I know that this lifetime, I will only love one person. Why, why did you have to hurt him like that? He must have been desperate to do something like that. Ah Xue, it was me who asked him to stay behind and take care of you yesterday..."

  Zixue was already crying uncontrollably, "Sister, sister, save him, you have to save him."

  Yi Zhen's spirit concentrated, gathering the light elements at incredible speed to chant out her strongest light system recovery magic. Zi Xue wasn't idle either; her water system recovery magic was almost simultaneously cast with her sister's, and as she used it, the sea-blue stone on her chest emitted a faint glow that enveloped her body, silently increasing her magic's power by a lot.

  Two kinds of energy surged into my body, but the lingering death aura from the forbidden spell was not so easily dispelled. When they had cast their magic halfway, they found that it was impossible to input magical energy into my body.

  Zi Xue's urgent urging of the water element was in vain, Zi Yan stopped her and prevented Zi Xue from continuing. She said sadly: "It's no use, Lei Xiang...Lei Xiang is already..."

  "Zixue cried out: 'No, no, Ah Xiang isn't dead, he hasn't died yet, sister, you can't give up!'"

  Ziyan stood up, wiped away the tears on her face and said: "Ah Xue, you stay here and guard, I'll go find Master, maybe he will have a way." After finishing speaking, she cast a light magic to lift me onto the bed and quickly ran out.

  Zixue stared at me, who was no longer angry, and still couldn't believe that in just over ten minutes, the Leixiang who had spoken softly to her earlier could no longer hold her, could no longer talk to her, and was now nothing but a lifeless body lying there. Zixue grasped my hand, and tears fell onto me in big drops.

  In a short while, Zi Yan led in Vice President and Principal Zhuang who were still half asleep.

  Zi Xue seemed to have grasped a lifesaver and suddenly knelt down, "Deputy Director, Zhuang teacher, you must save Lei Xiang quickly."

  The deputy dean waved his hand, and a light flashed, lifting Zi Xue up. He walked to my side, saw my condition, and was also shocked. He hurriedly checked my breath and put his ear on my chest to listen. Zi Yan anxiously asked: "Teacher, how is it? Can he be saved?"

  The deputy dean sighed and said, "It's strange, he clearly has no vital signs, but there is still a breath, Ziyan, how can this be?"

  "Teacher, don't ask questions first, hurry up and save him!"

  "Right, Deputy Director. Is he beyond saving? He was fine during dinner yesterday, how did it become like this today? Ah, what's wrong with his arm?"

  Ziyan and Zixue exchanged a glance, tears streaming down their faces once again. The deputy principal chanted, "Great light element... release the energy of life." A dense white glow enveloped the deputy principal's body, forcing Ziyan, Zixue, and Principal Zhuang to stumble backward. The deputy principal's body was filled with sacred light as he slowly placed his hand on my chest. A torrent of white light surged forth, instantly enveloping me completely.

  After a long time, the deputy dean's head emitted waves of heat, and his light gradually dimmed. His body shook slightly, and Zi Yan hurriedly went to support him, asking: "Teacher, how are you?"

  The deputy dean shook his head and said, "It's too severe. If I'm not mistaken, this child must have been cursed by a necromancer. His body is filled with death energy, and he himself seems to have no desire to survive. No matter how hard I try, I can't use the light element to drive out that death energy."

  When the deputy dean said that, Zixue almost fainted and trembled with her voice: "So to say, there's no hope for recovery." She suddenly threw herself into my arms, crying out: "Ashang, wake up! Wake up quickly! As long as you can come back to life, I won't mind anything. I love you, I really do. It was my fault, I shouldn't have said those things to you. Forgive me, Ashang, please wake up! Please!" Zixue's voice was like a cuckoo's mournful cry, and Ziyuan hugged her tightly, tears streaming down her face as she stared blankly at me: "Ashang, how can you be so irresponsible? Have you forgotten? Yesterday I said that I would make you spend the rest of your life making it up to us. You just left like this...I will hate you to death."

  The deputy dean looked at Ziyan in surprise and said: "You, you also...?"

  Ziyan raised her head and said, "Yes, teacher, I love Leixiang just like my sister does. It's just that some misunderstandings led to Leixiang being completely misunderstood by us...". The intense sadness made it impossible for her to continue speaking.

  Everything that happened, I knew it all. The despair in my heart was slowly disappearing when I heard Zixue's last words. I understood that what she said earlier was just anger, and she still loved me. This thought suddenly stimulated my desire to survive, but I found out that it was already too late. The breath of death had begun to invade my meridians, and except for being able to think, I couldn't do anything else. Was I really going to die like this? No way, Ziyuan and Zixue were still waiting for me to take care of them for the rest of their lives. I absolutely could not die like this. I concentrated all my thoughts on my dantian, starting to stir up the dormant Crazy God's aura. Even if it was just a little bit, there would be hope for survival.

  The efforts of the past period have not been in vain, and the Crazy God's aura has finally moved under my urging. They burst out from the dantian, starting to drive away the death energy around them. However, they acted too late, and the death energy had become extremely powerful. Although the Crazy God's aura could suppress them, for a while it was unable to rush out to a farther place.

  Ziyan and Zixue were shocked to discover that my abdomen was emitting a faint yellow glow. They quickly stood up, and the deputy dean took a step forward, saying: "Ah, he seems to be healing himself, he has regained his will to live, it must have been your words that moved him earlier, Ziyan, Zixue, each of you hold one of his hands, think about your thoughts and love for him in your heart, perhaps a miracle will happen."

  Ziyan and Zixue didn't dare to slack off, they quickly each grasped one of my hands, their eyes bursting with fervent sparks, they understood that this might be the last chance.

  It was as if I felt their affection, and my connection with the Crazy God's aura grew even stronger. I commanded them to charge left and right, successfully occupying piece after piece of territory. When the Crazy God's aura burst forth from my chest, dispelling the aura of death, Ziyan and the others were shocked to see that the small pouch of mustard seeds that had been hidden in my clothes suddenly flew out, emitting a dazzling golden light in mid-air.

  The deputy dean said in surprise: "What is this? Such a sacred aura."

  The mustard seed bag automatically opened, and a golden light floated out from inside, gradually growing larger. Ziyan and Zixue simultaneously exclaimed: "Huxin Mirror."

  Not bad, it's the Heart Mirror, it doesn't have its previous ugly appearance, the black mineral completely turned into golden light, suddenly, it fell on my chest, as if it had become pure energy, slowly seeping in until it completely disappeared.

  I suddenly felt an incredibly powerful energy coming from my chest, this energy was very familiar and warm, as if it had always been one with my Crazy God's aura. Although it was powerful, it wasn't frantic, and it quickly merged into my body's Crazy God's aura. The originally yellow aura turned into dazzling golden light under its influence. What Ziyan and the others saw was that my entire body began to emit a golden glow from my chest, the glow grew stronger and stronger, shining so brightly that everyone couldn't open their eyes.

  It didn't need me to urge it on, the golden light quickly absorbed the surrounding death energy, dispersing them in an instant. At the last moment, the death energy suddenly disappeared again, its vitality was indeed tenacious, even this unknown energy couldn't destroy it. However, despite this, I believe that in a short time, it won't be able to come out and wreak havoc again. The golden light didn't retreat just yet, it filled my body, repairing the meridians that were corroded by the death energy earlier. My six senses regained their former sharpness under the effect of the golden light, and the pain in my severed arm also eased a lot. My body was slowly recovering bit by bit.

  My meridians are miraculously recovering, and the remaining death energy in my meridians has been completely eliminated. The corroded parts are constantly self-repairing under the effect of the Crazy God's aura. Although my meridians have not fully recovered yet, I clearly know that my life is back on track. After the death energy was eliminated, Jin Mang continued to merge with the Crazy God's aura in my body. Although I didn't feel any signs of enhancement from the Crazy God's aura, it seems to be a bit different from before.

  Ziyan and the others watched as the golden light on my body gradually weakened, slowly merging completely into my body, but the Heart Mirror did not reappear with the disappearance of the golden light.

  I blinked, and the grayness disappeared. My eyes gradually regained their luster, and my vision cleared up. I saw their worried faces one by one.

  Zixue rushed over first, tears streaming down her face, and sobbed: "Ah Xiang, are you okay?"

  I nodded slightly, and since my body had just recovered, I was still unable to speak.

  Ziyan took out a handkerchief from her bosom and gently wiped away the sweat on my forehead.

  The deputy dean placed his hand on my pulse, examining the situation inside my body. He stuttered and said: "Miracle, it's really a miracle! What was that thing that just entered Leixiang's body? He actually drove out those dead energies by himself. It's unthinkable, this is simply a divine sign!"

  My lips moved slightly, and a faint voice echoed from the depths of my throat. Zi Xue pressed her ear against my mouth, "Ah Xiang, what do you want to say."

  I adjusted my vocal cords and a weak voice came out, "Xue Er, can you really forgive me?"

  Zixue hugged me tightly and cried, "Forgive me, I forgive you. It's all my fault for saying such heavy words. Ah Xiang, as long as you get better, I won't hold anything against you anymore. I really love you, really. My sister and I both forgive you. Please get better soon. Never leave us forever."

  I smiled and nodded, feeling a sense of clarity in my heart. The emotional crisis had finally passed, and I could now dispel the dark clouds and see the bright moon. I no longer had to worry about losing the one I loved. A glimmer of hope illuminated my heart.

  The vice president coughed, gave a signal to Teacher Zhuang, who smiled slightly and leaned in close to me, saying: "Lei Xiang, you scared us half to death. Take good care of your injury and get better soon. We're all waiting for your return. Don't forget, you are the hope of our college."

  I smiled and nodded, saying: "Thank you."

  "Take good care of him, I and the deputy dean will go back first. If there's any change, notify us in time."

  "Rest assured, we will take good care of Ah Xiang."

  "Hey silly girl, stop crying, isn't your Ah Xiang already recovering?"

  Ziyan sent the deputy director and Zhuang teacher out of the room, and sat down beside me with Zixue. Looking at their faces changing from sadness to joy, I felt a warmth in my heart. I knew that they would never leave me again, and I would definitely love them well and cherish them.

  …………

  Three days later, under my own care and the meticulous attention of Ziyuan and Zixue, I had basically recovered to normal except for my broken left arm. However, they insisted that I was not allowed out of bed, saying that I must be thoroughly better before I could get up.

  Ziyan was feeding me porridge with a spoon while asking, "Ashang, what really happened that day? Why did you suddenly become like that? The teacher said you were cursed by a vengeful spirit sorcerer, right?"

  I swallowed a mouthful of the loving congee made by Zi Yan herself and sighed, "I've never encountered a vengeful spirit sorcerer before. Do you still remember when I told you that I killed four fallen angels under Mo Yue? It was during that time when one of the fallen angels chose to self-destruct, using a forbidden technique that summoned the power of the underworld. Although we managed to turn the danger into safety through our combined efforts, I also left behind a hidden illness. There's always a lingering aura of death within me, and yesterday was the second time it acted up. Originally, my cultivated internal energy could resist it, but after hearing Xue Er's words that day, I felt extremely desperate and thought about ending it all, letting them run amok inside me, and then I ended up in that state."

  The purple snow beside me leaned on me and said in a low voice: "It's all my fault for speaking too heavily."

  I shook my head, gently stroking her beautiful long hair, and said: "It's not you who is wrong, it's me who is wrong. You didn't say anything wrong that day either. I don't have any intention of blaming you, if anyone should be blamed, it can only be myself. Everything has already passed, you don't need to feel guilty about this anymore. However, being able to come back to life that day was indeed a miracle. Although hearing Zi Xue's words gave me the conviction to survive, the aura of death had already taken control of most of my meridians, and my Dou Qi couldn't break out for the time being. Even if I could recover, it would take an indefinite amount of time. Just at that moment, a familiar and powerful energy surged into my chest, which should be the Hu Xin Jing you guys mentioned. It actually merged with the Dou Qi in my body completely, and under its effect, although the aura of death wasn't eliminated, it probably wouldn't be able to cause harm for a short period of time."

  "Then you're still not fully recovered. I don't want to see that look on your face again, it's terrifying."

  I took another mouthful of porridge, smiling: "With you all by my side, I'm filled with hope, and after merging the Heart Mirror, my Crazy Divine Aura seems to have undergone a qualitative change. As long as I resist with all my might, the aura of death won't be able to do anything to me. Don't worry, I absolutely won't abandon you guys. I still need to take care of you for life."

  Zixue grasped my hand and put it on her face, saying: "It's better to find a way to completely get rid of it, having an underlying problem is always worrisome, I won't be at ease either."

  I sighed and said, "I've tried too, but it's useless. That remaining energy is very cunning, every time I'm about to get rid of it, it slips away quietly. I'm powerless against it, so it all depends on luck now. Maybe one day, it will let its guard down and I'll be able to eliminate it." After finishing speaking, I couldn't help but laugh at myself - can death energy really be eliminated that easily?

  Zi Xue lightly patted me and said, "You're annoying, I'm trying to be serious here. You actually had the foresight to choose that protective glasses, which played a crucial role at the critical moment."

  I nodded in deep agreement: "Yes, I originally chose it because I felt a sense of familiarity with it. Who knew it would take effect so quickly? I didn't expect it to be able to come out of the mustard seed bag on its own. I always feel like it's related to my Crazy God Fighting Aura. It wasn't until after I ran the Crazy God Fighting Aura that it had a reaction. Now, every time I cultivate the Crazy God Fighting Aura, I can feel that there's something more inside, but I couldn't quite put it into words. The power of the aura hasn't increased, it just changed to a golden yellow color."

  Ziyan said, "All I can say is that you're lucky. Didn't you mention before that the Heart Mirror had many embedded slots around it? It should be one piece of a set of armor. Maybe in the future we'll have the chance to find the rest of the armor and figure out what its true purpose is."

  I shook my head and said, "It's not that easy. This heart-protecting mirror has been around for who knows how many years. It doesn't matter to me anymore. I've lost interest in all these things. You can forgive me, but the fact that you're by my side makes everything else unimportant. Even the idea of becoming an unparalleled strongman from when I was a kid has faded a lot."

  "Absolutely not, you must practice hard, my sister and I are counting on you to protect us."

  "Alright, alright, alright, I obey."

  Ziyan stuffed a spoonful of porridge into my mouth and scolded: "Whose husband are you, annoying."

  Looking at the blush on her face, I said vaguely: "Of course you two are together. Hehe."

  Ziyan's face turned even redder, and she suddenly seemed to remember something. She asked: "Ah, right! Ashang, you once told me to tell Father to go to the Beastman Country to pick up some Lingling, and said it was at the Ruiqin Wangfu. What's going on?"

  When she asked about it, I was at a loss for words. "Oh, no, nothing, just a small matter."

  Zixue leaned in close, her hands grasping my head, and said: "Look into my eyes, if you're lying, your gaze will tell me."

  I gave an awkward smile, leaned over and kissed her small mouth, saying: "Knowing too much is not good, I'll tell you next time if there's a chance."

  Zi Xue's face turned red with a hint of shyness as she scolded me, "No way, I want to know right now. You must be hiding something from us. Is there someone new in the Beastman Country? Be honest and you'll be spared, resist and you'll suffer. If you don't tell me..." She glared at me with a threatening gaze. Upon hearing her words, Bai Jian's figure suddenly appeared in my mind, and I was startled. Why did I think of her? No way, I must hold myself back, I absolutely cannot stray again.

  I teased her: "What's wrong with you? Hehe..."

  Zixue was about to say something, but stopped herself. She thought for a moment, and her face suddenly turned red as she said, "I won't sleep with you anymore..." The last few words were spoken extremely softly, and if I didn't have superhuman hearing, I wouldn't have been able to hear them. Hearing her say that, my heart skipped a beat. Ever since the day I woke up, Zixue hasn't left my side for even a moment, afraid that something would happen to me again. At night, she'd snuggle into my arms and sleep, but warned me not to have any bad thoughts. Since my body had just recovered, I was still weak and couldn't possibly have any bad thoughts. But now that I'm almost fully recovered, if we were to sleep together again tonight... My heart began to flutter with romantic notions, and a sly smile spread across my face as I said, "Really? You can bear to part with the warmth of my embrace?"

  Zi Xue's face turned red, indeed, since sleeping with me, she has been able to sleep very sweetly every day, my arms have become her best haven.

  Her eyes dimmed slightly as she said, "Do you want more? I'll get you another bowl."

  I wrapped my arms around her and asked softly: "What's wrong?" Ziyan shook her head and didn't speak.

  I smiled and said: "Do you also want to sleep with me?"

  Unexpectedly, Ziyan's face turned bright red with shyness, but she nodded firmly. I and Zixue were both stunned, and Zixue pulled her arm and laughed: "That's easy to handle, I'll give him half to my sister, how about that."

  Ziyan's eyes flashed with a hint of brilliance as she lowered her head and said, "This isn't good. There are so many people here, they'll gossip. And besides..."

  A cold glint flashed in my eyes, and I said, "Who dares to gossip? From now on, you are all my wives. A husband sleeping with his wife is a matter of course."

  Zi Xue scolded me: "What you said is really unpleasant."

  Ziyan looked at us and said, "But I have that energy inside me, and I can't get close to you. You're just a little better now, or it would hurt you. That energy hasn't weakened, but has grown stronger instead." Unfair! Looking at her expression, she clearly thought that Zi Xue and I had done something already. But I didn't do anything! Without me needing to explain, Zi Xue shook her head and said with a blush, "Sister, what are you thinking? He and I haven't done anything!"

  Ziyan paused for a moment and said, "Is he really so honest?"

  A pang in my heart, I said in a low voice: "It seems that you still take me for..."