Chapter Sixteen: Desire

  Jin Shen Hong drove away with a face full of sadness and indignation, without even saying goodbye.

  A four-year-old Tuosong is really no match for Su Xiaqing's car today. Because he didn't have to go to school to find Su Yifan, Su Xiaqing drove the BMW today. Jin Shenfeng was so proud that he knew he had just shown off too much.

  Sitting in the air-conditioned car that had just blown warm air, Su Yifan couldn't help but feel a little sentimental: "Qing Jie, do you think that with money, one can have everything?"

  Seeing Jin Zhenhong's performance today, Su Yifan remembered what Chen Xin said that day. Those words were very real and had a kind of unadorned heaviness.

  "Money is just a part of it." Su Xiaoqing patted Su Yifan's hand and said, "But material things are easier to notice. Otherwise, I wouldn't have bought you an Apple laptop, knowing you don't like that sort of thing."

  "No, I think it's not good for me to be like this," Su Yifan said seriously. "I don't want to just be a recipient of what others give me."

  "I'm glad you think so," Su Xiaoqing said. "But you're still in school, we don't need to rush, let's take it slow."

  Su Yifan nodded, and now he can only use this to comfort himself.

  "See, Yang Bingbing will definitely make a deep impression on you." Su Xiaqing patted the young man's shoulder and comforted him, "Yang Bingbing is very interesting, with such strong vigilance against schoolmates, yet daring to come out alone with this neighbor big brother who has a mind full of evil intentions?"

  "I think Yang Bingbing is not as simple as we see."

  Su Yifan recalled Yang Bingbing he had observed earlier and felt that his progress was really not small, as he dared to secretly observe a girl face-to-face.

  Su Xiaoqing revealed a faint smile: "It's okay, you have plenty of opportunities to get to know her slowly."

  "But didn't you just tell me to work hard and pursue Cheng Shuiyan..."

  "Let's chase together." Su Xiao started the car as if nothing had happened.

  If it weren't in the car, Su Yifan would probably really jump up. Can it be even more ridiculous? What Su Xiaqing is saying now is also too shocking, right?

  "Qingjie, don't joke around!" Su Yifan was truly anxious, his voice louder than usual.

  "I'm not kidding," Su Xiaoqing said, putting on her sunglasses to face the sun. "Anyway, these beauties are surrounded by guys with no good intentions, so why don't you rescue them from the fire?"

  Su Yifan fell silent abruptly.

  "What's wrong, unhappy now?" Su Xiaoqing smiled, "What are you thinking? Do you think I've gone crazy?"

  "I don't know..." Su Yifan answered honestly, "It's just that hearing you talk about them like this makes me feel a bit uncomfortable..."

  "You'll get used to it."

  Seeing Su Yifan remain silent, Su Xiaqing said again: "You have to believe me, in the near future one day, you can do everything I say."

  "But..."

  "Don't hesitate." Su Xiaoqing interrupted Su Yifan's words, "If you hesitate, you might miss it. What can be grasped in your hands must be grasped firmly, don't let go of any opportunity for happiness."

  Su Xiaoqing's words were very resolute, making Su Yifan dare not refute her. He could only mutter softly: "But I think there's no hope..."

  "As long as you want it, you can get it." Su Xiao repeated what she had said before, "In this world, there is no such thing as can or cannot, only whether you want to or not."

  Su Yifan fell silent for a moment, carefully pondering Su Xiaqing's words with profound meaning. Then he raised his head and asked: "Qing Jie, do you have any wishes that you want to fulfill?"

  Su Xiaoqing didn't expect to be asked back by Su Yifan, and after being stunned for a moment, she said: "My wish is simple. I hope that one day you can prove yourself to everyone and tell them how excellent you are."

  "I hope you are surrounded by excellent girls and not troubled by choices."

  "My wish is that someday you'll make a lot of money and I can rely on you."

  Su Xiaoqing said these words with sunglasses covering her eyes, and her expression couldn't be seen. But Su Yifan could hear the thick expectation in these words. Although he didn't know how to respond to Su Xiaoqing, the young man felt that he needed to become stronger.

  "Little sister, I will work hard."

  "I believe you." Su Xiaoqing's voice was no longer as heavy as before, and she changed to a relaxed tone of inquiry, "Then have you thought about your own future?"

  "No." Su Yifan replied honestly, "I always feel like I can still read for a long time... I really haven't thought about it carefully."

  "En, can think slowly." Su Xiaoqing said casually, as if she was never in a hurry, "If there's anything you want to do, just tell me directly."

  He didn't go to play Resident Evil 5 again, Su Yifan let Su Xiaqing send himself back home. In the room, looking at the mirror, that timid boy's eyes still had some weakness, Su Yifan really wanted to punch himself a few times.

  Become stronger!

  This is a conviction that has never been had before. In the heart of a young man, it finally becomes not just a sprout, but truly a voice that keeps echoing.

  Whether it was Chen Xin or Jin Shenhong today, the unreservedly aggressive behavior made Su Yifan realize that just wanting to be a good person is not enough.

  Yi Fan did his training alone in the room, doubling what Ou La required of himself. Su Yi Fan took a casual shower and fell asleep as soon as he buried his head under the covers.

  Whether physically or mentally, become stronger...

  The next day on the way to school, Su Yifan still ran all the way to school in one breath. The soreness in his legs had begun to subside, proving that his muscles were starting to get used to their own exercise intensity.

  At the school gate, Su Yifan saw class monitor Li Peiran again.

  Li Peiran saw Su Yifan and surprisingly still managed to flash a smile with great composure: "So early to school again?"

  Su Yifan looked at Li Pei Ran with even more disdain today, especially after this person showed various flattering behaviors in front of Chen Xin.

  "Get up early and exercise a bit, otherwise you won't be able to get out of bed when you see Chen Shaozhi in the future."

  Li Pei Ran's city mansion is good, but after being poked at his sore spot, he immediately gets furious.

  "You..."

  Seeing Li Pei Ran like this, Su Yi Fan unexpectedly felt a faint sense of pleasure in his heart, and couldn't help but feel a little surprised. Was he actually more suited to being a bad person?

  After calming down her emotions, Su Yifan looked at Li Peiran very calmly: "Calm down, if you make a scene in front of the school gate, your reputation will be ruined."

  This sentence was even more powerful, and the ferocity on Li Peiran's face quickly disappeared. Principal Li had never thought that Su Yifan's attitude would change so quickly.

  At this rate, next time when he meets Su Yifan at the school gate again, shouldn't he be beaten up by that kid?

  Su Yifan ignored Li Peiran, who was red in the face from holding back her anger, and walked directly into the school gate once again.

  Still in the bustling school morning, Su Yifan sat alone in the classroom without making a sound, and even when Cheng Shuiyan came, he didn't greet her.

  Cheng Shui Xin thought Su Yi Fan was a bit strange, but she didn't pay attention to it. As a big shot, she was too busy, and just exchanging greetings with her classmates and chatting for a couple of sentences had already taken up all her early morning study time.

  Just as the morning self-study was about to end, Li Peiran suddenly turned around and asked Su Yifan mysteriously: "I heard you had a fight with Chen Xin?"

  When Chen Xin was not around, Li Pei Ran's flattering expression disappeared and he spoke as if mentioning a nameless junior in school. This kind of behavior that became extremely bold when no one was looking made Su Yi Fan even more disdainful, and he didn't bother to respond to Li Pei Ran.

  "It seems to be true." Li Peiran, of course, didn't really want to come and find Su Yifan to verify it. He just wanted to see Su Yifan's reaction. Seeing that Su Yifan still ignored him, he turned around with a slightly malicious smile and continued reading his book.

  It was almost noon when Su Yifan received a text message. The content of the message was very simple, with only a time and a location. The address wasn't anywhere else, but rather Su Yifan's secret base. Su Yifan thought for a moment, feeling that this might be Oula wanting to meet up, as only that woman would like such a concise style.

  Sui Yifan saw Chen Xin and two followers from the school team coming out of the second teaching building on the other side as he picked up his books and went downstairs.

  The two of them locked eyes, Chen Xin glanced at Su Yifan with disdain, made a small thumbs down gesture, and then beckoned to the two followers to walk towards the parking lot outside the school.

  Su Yifan ignored Chen Xin's gaze, continuing to lower his head and ponder the conversation he had with Su Xiaqing yesterday. For a young man who still didn't know what the future held, this topic was indeed a bit too profound.

  When he walked to the school gate, Su Yifan felt that someone had pulled his clothes and turned around to see Zhang Yao standing there, looking at him with a bright red face.

  Zhang Yao still didn't want to speak as usual, wearing a full black down jacket, her slender body shrinking in the clothes, looking at Su Yifan like a small animal.

  Su Yifan suddenly remembered this classmate who lost his wallet in the internet cafe, and couldn't help but smile at Zhang Yao: "Is there something?"

  Zhang Yao nervously pulled out a 100-yuan bill from her pocket and handed it to Su Yifan.

  Not even willing to return the money, what kind of spirit is this? Su Yifan found Zhang Yao too interesting, looking at this girl with a face full of shy expressions, he saw his former self again, and didn't take the money from Zhang Yao's hand.

  "Don't be polite." Su Yifan felt that he was getting bolder and actually wanted to tease Zhang Yao, "As long as you're willing to say a word to me, I won't take this money."

  Su Yifan casually said, Zhang Yao's face immediately turned even redder. The small hands holding the money were trembling, staring at Su Yifan's eyes as if they would cry out at any moment.

  The reaction was too strong, and Su Yifan couldn't help but immediately clarify: "I'm just joking, don't take it seriously."

  Unexpectedly, Zhang Yao stood there clutching the money and staring at Su Yifan. Although she looked like she was about to cry, no tears fell from her eyes.

  The two of them maintained this staring posture in the cold wind for almost half a minute before Zhang Yao finally spoke up.

  "Thank... thank you."

  After finishing speaking, Zhang Yao seemed to have used up all her strength, and with a trembling hand, she held the banknote even higher.

  This Zhang Yao made Su Yifan feel a little moved, he could see that Zhang Yao had almost exhausted himself to say such a sentence to him, and couldn't help but think of his own efforts to change himself.

  Taking Zhang Yao's money, Su Yifan made himself appear slightly more natural: "We're all classmates, no need to be polite."

  Zhang Yao on the opposite side didn't wait for Su Yifan to finish speaking and had already turned around and ran away quickly.

  Looking at the back of Zhang Yaoke who quickly escaped wrapped in a thick coat, Su Yifan shook his head, he was a bit curious what Zhang Yaoke would do when the teacher asked questions in class.

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  Today while typing, I recalled writing rebirth legends in the past without saving drafts and rushing to finish. In the end, I fell asleep on my bed with my laptop... Now thinking about it, was it happiness or suffering?