Da Han Yan Hua 22 An Si [Pink Ticket]

  Perhaps because Zhang Yan was still too young, when she put on a serious face, it didn't make people feel stern, but instead made her look even more innocent and lovely. Liu Ying slowly smiled for a while, then cast his gaze into the distance. "I don't know what you're unhappy about either. I originally thought that you were just unhappy because suddenly there was an extra little brother and you didn't know how to interact with him. But over these past two days, I've gradually discovered that it's not just that. You seem... unable to feel safe, like you can't find a place to settle down."

  Zhang Yan's whole body trembled.

  "Ah Yan," Liu Ying continued with a bitter tone, "does your father's situation this time really leave you so at a loss?"

  "No." Zhang Yan murmured.

  I'm not at a loss because of Father's downfall and exile.

  I'm just, I'm just——

  I indeed am——

  Can't find a place to settle down.

  "Ah Yan," Liu Ying lowered his eyelids, gazing at her again. His eyes were calm and introspective, with a soothing power that comforted the heart. "I once told you that the love I give you will not be worn away by anyone else. Today, I want to tell you another thing: you must first learn to love others before you can receive love in return."

  "Really?" Zhang Yan asked softly after a long time.

  "Yes." Liu Ying smiled and suddenly asked, "Have you seen Ruyi?"

  Zhang Yan shook her head, "Never seen it."

  "Ru Yi Ta——" Liu Ying thought for a moment and said slowly, "is a very good child."

  "I inexplicably gained a younger brother, and at first, I didn't know how to treat him. After Mother returned, she was furious with him. But I thought, no matter what, he is still my younger brother after all. Occasionally running into him in the Chang Le Palace, he was somewhat arrogant and willful, but ultimately a very good child. So whether it's right or wrong, I always had a place for this younger brother in my heart, so later when he grew up, we were still close, no matter what others said, he is my younger brother, this point will never change."

  "So," in the dark, his bright and quiet eyes gently covered Zhang Yan's body, "do you understand what I mean?"

  "Uh-huh." Zhang Yan nodded lightly. If someone else had said something like this to her, she would have suspected their sincerity. But Liu Xian was different. She knew that historically he had been extremely protective of his younger brother, and in order to prevent his mother from harming him, he had even invited him to stay by his side at all times, sharing the same bed and food, never leaving each other's side for months on end. Who else would be willing to go to such lengths if they didn't truly care about their younger brother?

  Then who is in my heart?

  Zhang Yan's mind suddenly drifted far away, and she thought of a song she had heard in her previous life. She hummed a sentence with her mouth closed, "Empty festival atmosphere, want to find someone..."

  "What?" The night was quiet and Liu Ying hadn't heard clearly, so she asked suspiciously, "What are you saying?"

  "No." Zhang Yan smiled and raised her head.

  Empty and hollow, I want to find someone to pour out my emotions to.

  She just wants to find someone to let go of her emotions.

  A person, from the moment she is born into this world, is not just herself; she is a child of her mother, a member of a family, a master or servant to others, or simply a solitary figure. Only when she finds her place in this vast universe can she feel at peace and stop drifting.

  And she was reborn in this era, like a floating duckweed on the surface of the river, without roots or ties, so she was always drifting and restless, so she was always anxious and reckless. She didn't know whether to stay or leave, and if she stayed, how would she find her place? People living in this world need someone to love them, and they also need to love others, only then can they settle their confusion and walk forward without losing direction. Just like a tree that has taken root, with a vine stretching out to grab onto the trunk tightly. Just like in her past life, she and Xiang'er were each other's support. Because she was determined that she would never be abandoned, she could laugh wholeheartedly and not fear danger. But fate suddenly cut off her connection with Xiang'er, forcing her to learn how to leave Xiang'er behind and survive on her own. Her emotions lost their anchor, and she held onto them, wanting to find someone to entrust them to, but she carefully examined them, afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being betrayed. She would unconsciously think that Lü Zhi loved his granddaughter dearly, but Lü Zhi's thoughts were resolute, and it was hard to guarantee that he wouldn't abandon her in the future for political reasons; Ruyuan loved his daughter, but Ruyuan's nature was pure and simple, and he also had a son, making it hard to guarantee that he wouldn't divide his attention and become distant from her; Zhang Ao loved his own daughter, but he harbored resentment towards Emperor Gaozu, and he also had many concubines and children, so how much did she really weigh in his heart...

  These Liu Ying will not understand.

  A fourteen-year-old boy wouldn't know the complex stories and thoughts of a girl, he just keenly sensed his own anxious emotions and bewildered thoughts, relying on his own speculation and experience to make an interpretation, then clumsily found ways to comfort her.

  But he still comforted her and guided her confusion.

  That Zhang Yan who lost her smile, is extremely lonely in this world. This loneliness urgently drives her to find a substitute for her lost love to hold onto her emotions. These emotions don't have to be romantic love, nor sibling affection, or motherly love. She simply wants someone who can love and be loved back.

  But Liu Ying said that you can't always just think about getting, getting loyalty, getting pampering, getting dedication. Before you get, you have to learn how to give first.

  Did he ever think that he would get hurt and be betrayed when he decided to love her back then?

  Nothing.

  You want to be loved, you have to learn to love first. Rather than hiding in your own fortress, carefully examining which person is safe for you and who is worth loving.

  Love is not like that.

  You must first work hard to love others sincerely, in order to receive the sincere love of others. When you go and love your mother, you will naturally be a daughter loved by her mother; when you go and love your grandmother, you will naturally be a granddaughter loved by her grandmother.

  Furthermore

  She looked up at the young man who was close to her, he wasn't tall or majestic, but he had a pair of warm eyes and a reassuring soul.

  You will love your uncle and you will naturally be the niece loved by your uncle.

  People think alike.

  Zhang Yan swallowed a drop of tears in her heart, you want to love Gu Er, only then will you be the Yan Ran loved by Gu Er. Even if not seen or heard, love in the heart will never fade.

  This is actually a very simple and plain truth, but many people have not figured it out in their lifetime. They are born as babies and grow up to love their family and friends instinctively, and then instinctively integrate into the society around them. They don't need to figure it out because they are already proving it in a simple way through practice.

  But Zhang Yan was different, she was unexpectedly thrown into this strange era by fate, an outsider who couldn't naturally love the people around her, yet she yearned to be loved. Her emotional instincts and desires collided, making her feel anxious and at a loss, until one day Liu Ying enlightened her. And when she understood this point, her restless heart slowly returned to its rightful place.

  At this moment, she truly blended into this era.

  From now on, I will work harder to play the role of Zhang Yan, growing up slowly with those I love and who love me. I don't have too many ambitions, just wanting to live safely and without setbacks in this era. I will still miss Yu'er in my dreams, but when I wake up, I will seriously be Zhang Yan.

  I don't want to be a hero who takes the world's fate as my own and laughs at the winds of change, nor do I want to live an ordinary life. The former is too exhausting, the latter too dull. All I wish for is that in this small patch of sky and earth before me, everyone can live in peace and happiness together, they like me, but not to the point where they can't leave me.

  I just want to be a slightly better person than ordinary people, occasionally giving others a little surprise, that's the life I want.

  Do you know?

  Zhang Yan burst out laughing, "Uncle," she scolded, her eyes shining brightly, "you think so much every day, you'll get old, can't you just smile happily and purely? I don't want my uncle to become an old man."

  Liu Ying gazed at her for a while, confirming that the girl in front of her was indeed smiling genuinely this time, and only then did she feel relieved, saying, "I don't have an unhappy smile."

  Maybe it's just forgotten to be unhappy.

  Zhang Yan covered her mouth and yawned.

  "It's really late," Liu looked up at the stars in the sky and smiled, "Let's go back."

  "Uh-huh." Zhang Yan nodded and looked at Liu Ying's back with ill intentions, then said in a spoiled tone, "Uncle, carry me on your back."

  "You have legs, why do you need others to carry you?" The young man scolded with a straight face, but then softened his heart after seeing the girl's distressed expression, and stepped forward slightly bending his knees, saying "Get on."

  Zhang Yan smelled the long-familiar scent of pine on him, closed her eyes in relief, and felt the gentle rocking motion beneath her. The warm glow of the candlelight cast a comforting circle around the young man's feet, gradually fading from the center to the edges. Zhang Yan murmured, "Uncle..."

  "Uh-huh." The young man replied lightly, without stopping his pace.

  "You are a very gentle good person."

  Liu Ying was taken aback, and smiled wryly, "Don't talk to boys about gentleness, gentleness is not a good thing for boys." Especially for the crown prince of the country, it's even more undesirable.

  "Okay." She replied.

  But I will always believe this and keep it in mind, because you are such a person, with a warm heart that is willing to trust others with the best intentions.

  "Uncle,"

  "Huh?"

  "You like Luoyang more than Chang'an."

  Because of Luyi, it is your other hometown. Everyone has a gentle hometown in their heart, and its name may be called hometown.

  It's a very gentle chapter.

  Gently asking for pink votes.

  Let's cheer up with pink tickets!