On the Brink of Collapse

  The warm and faint light of dawn shines through the apricot-colored gauze curtains, splashing into the room that still retains a pink fragrance.

  The door handle slowly turned clockwise, and then the door was gently pushed open a small gap. Liu Youyou quietly slipped into the room from it.

  Mengmeng is standing on the bird stand sleeping quietly, Leng Xiaoyao is curled up in bed snoring sweetly.

  She withdrew her searching gaze, nodded in satisfaction, carefully picked up a simple silver-gray shoulder bag from the table beside her, and slipped out of the room stealthily.

  Not yet down to the next floor, footsteps paused, and with He Xiaoyun downstairs came a stare, then blinked blinking eyes, greatly shocked.

  "Eh, Yu Yu ah, where's Xiao Cai? Hasn't she come down yet?" He Xiao Yun asked awkwardly.

  Liu Youyou pursed her lips and flicked her bangs, dryly laughing as she slowly walked down, explaining: "She left a long time ago."

  "Has she left? I didn't see her." He Xiao Yun looked around, scanning the entire room but couldn't find Ye Cai's slender figure anywhere, which made her feel a bit desolate.

  Taking a deep breath, she raised her eyes and glanced at the simple sling bag held by Liu Youyou, forcing a smile, and flipped over her hands behind her back, saying: "Youyou, after you leave later, let Xiao Cai drink a bottle of this, huh?"

  Liu Youyou awkwardly stared at the two boxes of papaya milk in Auntie's hand, and then took them with a soft "uh-huh", before nodding obediently to He Xiaoyun.

  She let out a long sigh, He Xiaoyu gazed at the gentle and elegant back of Liu Youyou, who was exuding a feminine charm, and couldn't believe that this was once Ai Ziyu. Shaking her head to dispel the daze, she turned to walk up the stairs, intending to tidy up Ye Cai's room after he had hastily left.

  She pushed open the door, looked up and saw that she was not her daughter, but a quiet and clever sleeping posture, which made her stunned and unable to come back to her senses.

  ……

  ……

  7:00

  Luoshui No. 2 Middle School, Class 22.

  Ye Cai, who hadn't slept a wink all night, was now lying on the table trying to catch up on sleep, but frustratingly found herself unable to fall asleep. Her eyes were wide open and staring blankly at the ceramic floor beneath her feet, with a sense of impending madness and a feeling of unease that lingered, making it impossible for her to calm down.

  Perhaps it was the second time she suffered from molestation and rape last night, and at this moment, her rational thinking had greatly diminished as she tried to empty her mind. She was no longer numb and calm like before, and the psychological shadow that followed afterwards finally emerged from her heart.

  Last night till this morning, a series of thrilling encounters occurred, and at this moment, they were all tangled and rolling in her mind, replaying one by one.

  Firstly, she had disagreements with her beloved "man" Luo Li and even became estranged from him, which made her heart ache like a knife.

  Immediately afterwards, she was ruthlessly betrayed by the other party and even attempted to destroy her "transforming cigarette", which made her disheartened and doubting whether her efforts were meaningful.

  Then, the "man" who deceived himself, with a guilty conscience, personally directed the pink deception, hiding from his opponent to retrieve the transformed cigarette, making her feel uneasy and afraid to face "Luoli" again.

  Then again

  Then, the inside of the advertising fence was molested again. Fortunately, the other party's attempt did not succeed, but the occasional pain from the right breast made her memories of that period entangled in darkness, making her feel uneasy and anxious, with a feeling of being about to burst into her brain at any time.

  Finally, in the internet cafe, she was toyed with and deceived by Su Xiaoqiu, to the point where after turning her opponent into a girl, she stormed off in anger, leaving behind a huge potential threat that could expose her female identity out of hatred, making her extremely anxious.

  In the blink of an eye, numerous misfortunes came pouring in like a tsunami, leaving her numb and apathetic at the time. But now, she couldn't help but be tormented by these dozens of negative emotions, making it hard for her to breathe, gasping for air with a bright red face, staring wide-eyed with an eerie gaze, and opening her small mouth wide like a starving ghost, desperately sucking in air.

  It's as if, after becoming a girl and being driven by the male soul, she had an extreme desire for absolute safety and social identity. At this moment, she was pushed to the edge of a nervous breakdown by various negative experiences and physical instincts, like an old warrior carrying a shield with a terrified heart, waiting for the impact of the tsunami-like force. A mantis trying to stop a chariot, a phrase that fits perfectly.

  Perhaps she has become strong-willed to a desperate extent. And the existence that gives her self-conceit and makes her continue to be strong-willed is that box of magical transformation cigarettes. She tries to use this box of cigarettes to pull down anyone who makes her feel uneasy, just like an avenger with a deep grudge, hanging on the edge of a cliff, as long as someone dares to treat her with ridicule, disgust, or mockery, she will pull all these people into the abyss.

  Yes, she is close to a nervous breakdown.

  And other transformation women, such as Luo Li and Ai Ziyou, either unify their bodies with their souls or have their souls dominate their bodily instincts, but she is different, being disrupted by the powerful external factor of "transformation incense" and unable to properly handle the relationship between her body and mind.

  She urgently needs to vent and express these dozens of negative emotions that can drive people crazy, or she will be driven to desperation.

  Before long, Xiao Xue rushed to the campus and returned to the classroom, only to find her leaning on the desk restlessly.

  Laughing, she carelessly took off the inside-out suit jacket, revealing a pink tank top under her white shirt, and rushed to the playground for morning exercises.

  Standing expressionless in the front row, she found that her classmates under white shirts secretly gazed at her with unusual eyes, which led to whispers and comments like "Ye Cai is a girl" or "Ye Cai is a cross-dressing fake girl".

  She heard the noise and turned around nervously, looking around everywhere. In her eyes, the whole world was shrouded in a layer of gloom, just like last night when she couldn't see anything except for that mouth whispering to her, and it seemed as if everyone had become that migrant worker who intended to rape her, making her eyes wide with fear and her small mouth open, breathing laboriously.

  However, this angle allowed more people to see the pink vest under her white shirt with buttons bitten off, which caused a bigger commotion and made Xiao Xue and Liu Youyou rush out in cold sweat. Unfortunately, they didn't understand the root cause of her dazed and crazy state, and forced by the situation, they could only silently pray for the storm to calm down and things to take a turn for the better.

  Before running, the class teacher Bi Teacher found out that she had rushed to the scene and realized that Ye Cai was crazy in the middle. She tried to turn her body over and scold her.

  When her right hand patted on her shoulder, it brought a violent tremble. Ye Cai let out a sharp cry, under the astonished gaze of her surrounding classmates, she swiftly turned around and pulled out an electric baton from behind her waist, trembling as she opened the safety catch, just about to stab at the face that suddenly transformed into Wang Hao's hysterical one, then into Luo Li's painfully desperate one, and again into Su Xiaoqiu's woodenly eerie one - their class teacher.

  Lao Bi subconsciously glanced at the sparkling electric baton, then his body convulsed violently and he was knocked to the ground by Ye Cai.

  Classmates exclaimed and retreated, three figures hesitated for a moment before rushing towards her while shouting, they were Xiao Xue, Liu Youyou, and Li Wei. However, no one dared to approach her, instead stopping far away and only shouting at her to calm down. She held the electric baton, constantly turning around in circles, on guard against everyone around her.

  Her hooligan-like behavior caused a bigger stir in the whole school, to the point where things got out of control, and everyone surrounded her in a big circle, pointing fingers at her and gossiping about her behind her back.

  Suddenly, several security guards shouted and squeezed out of the crowd, scaring her completely out of her wits. The security guards and she wrestled together in a heap, after two security guards were electrocuted by the electric baton which was then snatched away from her. With her clothes disheveled, she crawled around on the ground trying to escape this place surrounded by onlookers that filled her with endless terror. Finally, she was slapped in the face by an enraged security guard and taken away with a gloomy expression, dragged into the security room.

  The security room quickly contacted the police and her parents. Under the calm situation, she suddenly snatched the electric baton on the security room desk with a swift move, using any underhanded tactics, such as drilling through the crotch. After escaping from the security room, she quickly climbed over the school gate and fled, disappearing into the crowd of people and cars.

  Wearing a white shirt that couldn't cover her up, carrying a box of transforming cigarettes that she thought could destroy the world, and an electric baton, she embarked on a one-sided escape journey in the midst of mental collapse.

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  PS: Received a severe warning, from now on the overly explicit process will be glossed over, however sex is not the theme that color wants to express. Hope this response measure won't affect everyone's mood.

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