Self-deception; swallowing pain

  Luoshui No. 2 Middle School

  Assigning the task of reciting words, with a gloomy face, Xiang Pei wandered in the corridor. Classmates were discussing Ye Cai's nervous breakdown that morning, with sighs, regrets, ridicule and contempt, all very lively, the classroom was noisy, but Xiang Pei didn't have the heart to care.

  Looking at the empty seat beside her, Xiao Xue furrowed her brow in deep concern. After their brief encounter last time, she had gained some understanding of Ye Cai. Ye Cai was a very taciturn person who was good at hiding his emotions, and he usually dealt with things using rational thinking. However, when negative emotions were hidden too deeply for too long, once emotional thinking began to sort out those feelings, it would cause tremendous psychological trauma.

  She understood that Ye Cai suddenly lost his sanity for a reason, probably because he was forced to be like this, but what exactly it was, she had no idea at all, so she became even more anxious.

  While Li Wei was also anxious and worried, she could only feel anxious. However, another person who was worried about Ye Cai's transformation, Liu Yuyou, had some suspicions. She guessed that it might have something to do with Leng Xiaofang, also known as "Luo Li". But she didn't know more than that, after all, the events of last night were too secretive and it would be difficult to get any information in a short period of time.

  The only desk in the right lower corner of the classroom, Su Xiaoqiu fell asleep on the desk, and had long since entered the land of dreams. She didn't even participate in the morning exercise, and her class teacher, Old Bi, had already given up on her, so from the moment she returned to campus, everything was calm and peaceful, and she knew nothing about what happened to Ye Cai.

  At this time, a middle-aged man wearing a police uniform walked out from the entrance, beckoned to Peipei and shouted after talking for a while: "Liu Youyou? Who is Liu Youyou? Someone is looking for her."

  Under the stunned gaze of all her classmates, Liu Youyou stood up with a puzzled expression. When she saw that the person outside the door was Ye Cai's father, Ye Changhu, she couldn't help but widen her eyes in surprise. She lowered her face and swallowed hard, then smoothed out her bangs and tried to calm down before quickly running over. As she passed by Xiang Peipei, she whispered: "Just go along with it, it's about Ye Cai, okay?"

  Liu Youyou pursed her lips and nodded solemnly, facing the figure of Ye Changhu outside the door.

  The girl with a cramped and tense posture behind Ye Changhu's back made Liu Youyou feel slightly surprised, it was actually Leng Xiaoyao.

  She gazed at Ye Changhu with a bold and fearless gaze, while secretly observing the cold and timid little girl behind him who was too afraid to show her face. Occasionally, she would raise her eyes to give Ye Changhu a shy yet elegant smile.

  "Are you... Liu Youyou? Liu Shanshan's son?" Ye Changhu asked.

  Liu Youyou nodded obediently, without explaining anything further.

  Ye Changhu narrowed his eyes, a hint of solemnity and contemplation on his face. After a moment's thought, he said, "How much do you know about Ye Cai?"

  "Huh?" Liu Youyou was stunned and then shook her head with a bitter smile: "I, I don't know anything."

  Ye Chang Hu's eyes narrowed slightly as he glanced at her with a hint of suspicion, then nodded towards the back and said, "She says you're clear about this matter."

  Leng Xiao Yao heard this and was taken aback, wanting to make excuses, she slightly lifted her head, but ultimately still pinched the corner of her clothes and lowered her head timidly.

  Liu Youyou was greatly flustered and deeply lowered her head under Ye Changhu's scrutiny, her slender body trembling slightly as she couldn't utter a word.

  Ye Changhu said in a low voice: "Where is Ye Cai now?"

  Liu Youyou nervously lifted her face, then pursed her lips and innocently shook her head. Seeing Ye Changhu's expression change slightly, she hastily explained: "I really don't know, I really don't know. All I remember is that at the time, she was taken away by security, and she had an electric baton in her hand... I was scared..."

  Ye Changhu slightly lowered his eyes, thinking to himself for a moment, then raised them and said: "Then tell me what you know."

  Liu Youyou took a deep breath, pursed her lips and said: "She, she that, a week ago, became a girl... it's true, really, really became a girl, all of them have breasts now, Ah, Auntie also knows, and her sister also knows, her sister also knows..."

  He rubbed his teeth thoughtfully, narrowed his eyes so that his thoughts couldn't be seen, and was silent for a moment before suddenly shaking his head and saying, "Let's go, come with me to take a look around."

  Liu Youyou nodded slightly and followed Ye Changhu's back, who was walking ahead with big strides. At this time, another transformed woman, Leng Xiaoyao, who was walking alongside her, cast a apologetic glance at her, then quickly nodded to signal her to calm down.

  Liu Youyou thought for a moment and nodded, guessing that Ye Changhu was probably still unaware of the existence of "Transforming Cigarettes", which was absolutely not to be revealed, otherwise Ye Cai, who would bring heavy psychological blows to several transforming women and their families, would face her father's righteous and just anger.

  ……

  ……

  In a small alley deep in the street, Ye Caihuan held an electric baton and crouched beside a drain pipe, his face dazed and confused, his mind a complete blank, only knowing he had to avoid people's sight and hide.

  In the residential building behind, a quarrel similar to a mother scolding her child suddenly broke out, frightening Ye Cai to hastily hide and run to sit down by the drain pipe on the opposite side, panting heavily.

  It seems that He Xiao Yun's icy inquiry has appeared before me once again: Are you taking estrogen? How long have you been taking it? You're a transvestite, aren't you?

  Then, that icy face became even more vivid, as if He Xiaoyu was standing in front of her, bending down and tilting her neck to stare at her with wide eyes, constantly questioning: "You're perverted, right? You're perverted, right? You're perverted, right?……

  She clutched her head and shook it repeatedly, looking terrified and fearful. Then she recalled how her father had once confronted her, his face filled with anger and disappointment as he slapped his chest and accused: "You are the embodiment of all my negative emotions after work! Ah, you are completely a social outcast! In the most just place, the most despicable creature was born - it's you, this outcast!"

  She muttered to herself, her pale lips moving as if she wanted to explain something, but seemed to be trapped in a dark place. Her sister lowered her head and hid in the shadows, only revealing a pair of dim eyes, whispering: Brother, I like you.

  "Ahhhhh!!!!!!"

  She let out a sharp cry, raised her head, gasped heavily, and with tears in her eyes, she murmured pitifully: "I'm not Ye Cai, don't come looking for me, I'm just... I'm just... I'm just a girl..."

  Suddenly, she was stunned, time seemed to have stopped, and even the sparkling tears were frozen at the bottom of her eyes. After a while, she stood up numbly, the electric baton in her arms fell to the ground, she lost her soul and walked a few steps to the left, staring blankly at the glass of a window that was open, falling into a daze.

  In the glass, a faintly visible girl with medium-length hair and red eyes could be seen, but in her eyes, she suddenly twisted and transformed into a boy with a cold face and a mouth that was slightly raised in disdain. The boy looked at Ye Cai, who had red eyes, and his mouth suddenly opened to reveal a cold smile as he asked: "Cry? What's the use of crying? Ah? Can crying solve problems? Do you think you're in a position to be pitied? Do you think you're a victim? Don't be ridiculous! Rape, molestation, and that sort of thing are all just accidents, accidents! You're the mastermind, huh? Mastermind! Are you trying to show how weak you are? Are you scared? Have you forgotten? Your 'paradise'!"

  The two words "paradise" made Ye Cai's whole body tremble, and he blinked his eyes, suddenly raised his head, looked at the sky, and opened his mouth with a mixture of tears and laughter.

  He raised his right hand, wiping from his forehead to his chin with force, as if trying to suppress all the negative emotions. He maintained that stiff posture, shaking his head and twisting his neck as if adjusting his state. He let out a long sigh, curling up the corners of his mouth in a self-mocking smile, muttering: "What's going on? Making such a big fuss... Ugh, so troublesome..."

  She turned around, picked up the electric baton, tapped it a few times on her palm, and couldn't help but laugh. She tucked the baton into her waist, adjusted her collar, and smoothed out her clothes. It was as if she had just transformed from a monster hiding in the city, stretched her muscles, and was now facing the world with her best and most natural state.

  Perhaps extremely rational people are more terrifying when they go crazy.

  Walked out of the alley, casually threw the electric baton into the sewer, then limped and staggered into a pedestrian street, looked up at the signboard of a certain clothing store, twisted his neck, expressionless, and strode in.

  When he came out, he was still wearing a shirt, but it was no longer pure white, and the new white and yellow striped one was striking. On the outside, there was also a black and gray suit with a design similar to that of a boys' school uniform in secondary school. With his back to the door, he tidied up his appearance, lifted his wrist to take a look at himself, neat and clean, nodded in satisfaction.

  Walked out of the pedestrian street, came to the main road, hailed a taxi, reported the destination Luoshui Second Middle School, and sat quietly in the seat with an indifferent expression.

  She is going to face all the turmoil and changes she has caused, perhaps not brave, but numb. She once again suppressed those negative emotions in her heart, using the newly picked up coldness and loneliness to suppress, and restored to a completely rational state of mind.

  The taxi drove around for a while and finally arrived at the gate of Luoshui Middle School.

  After paying for the taxi fare, Ye Cai shrugged her shoulders, put her hands in her pockets, looked straight ahead and walked towards the school gate.

  Several security guards stood by in shock and amazement, watching him leave. One of the guards was the first to come back to his senses and hastily chased after him, asking: "You, you, how did you come back?"

  She raised an eyebrow and glanced at him with a hint of disdain, saying: "What else can you do besides studying?"

  "Oh, oh, oh......" The security guard thought carefully and it seemed to be true, he was speechless and could only stare blankly as Ye Cai's figure disappeared into the distance.

  He walked back to the classroom door, under the astonished gaze of his classmates, nodded at the teacher, and calmly returned to his seat.

  Xiao Xue was about to ask when Ye Cai raised her left hand, shook her head slightly and said, "It's all in the past, I've adjusted already."

  His expression weakened, Xiao Xue murmured to herself, and after careful consideration, she found herself speechless. She sat up straight, gazing at Ye Cai with a slanted glance, only to see her already deeply engrossed in reading the textbook, staring intently at the blackboard. This couldn't help but make her feel puzzled and distressed - was it really so difficult for someone who was used to bearing everything alone and facing things silently to get along with others?

  （……）

  P.S: Color suddenly found that it's impossible to extract energy to write a quick novel, okay, let me be naughty, come and give me a kiss.

  Cough, this article has reached the small climax of the previous period. Ye Cai's mental state will change, and the terrible impact that extreme thoughts and memories had on her will also be dealt with in this volume. The price is that her IQ and EQ will never return, and she will become a complete airhead. Well, let's look forward to her psychological changes. I believe that after this volume, the writing style will be filled with healing and warmth. Oh, finally, let's scold that extreme "Ye Shen" together.