I was originally planning to wait until it's on the shelves before setting up additional update conditions, but I didn't expect your resentment to be so strong that it kept me awake all night, tossing and turning like a fried egg. In the end, I came to a realization and made a solemn decision: today, I'll add an extra chapter... you guys understand!
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Bai Xi Jing carried Xiao Jingchen upstairs, the anger in his heart was suppressed to the extreme, almost undergoing a qualitative change. However, he still tried his best to control his emotions, because he knew that once he lost his rationality, the first one to be hurt would inevitably be Xiao Jingchen who was closest to him. Although Xiao Jingchen's combat value was high enough to defy the heavens, after all, he was young and slightly inferior compared to Bai Xi Jing.
Bai Xijing's muscles were stiff and tense, with blue veins bulging on the back of his hands and forehead. He mechanically followed the established procedure to put Xiao Jingchen to bed, covering her with a quilt, patting her head, and letting her take a nap. As he watched Xiao Jingchen close her eyes, Bai Xijing left the bedside and sat down in the large recliner in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, lost in thought.
Due to his professional characteristics and fierce personality, Grandpa Bai had made many enemies when he was young. Although Grandma Bai had always been vigilant and prevented any scoundrels with ulterior motives from getting close to her sons, however, even the wisest person can make mistakes, and unfortunately, Baixing became the only child who got entangled in danger due to his father's troubles.
At that time, he was only as big as Xiao Jingchen, and the accident had left an indelible psychological shadow on him. If it weren't for Bai Nainai's relentless efforts to save him from sliding into the abyss of human nature, even going so far as to send him to the isolated Bodhi Temple for purification, Bai Xijing might have already become a world-renowned terrorist, and blowing up the US Pentagon would be a small case for him.
Because of the terrible experiences in his childhood, he paid great attention to Xiaojingchen's safety and education. Xiaojingchen grew up in Bodhi Temple from a young age, surrounded by people who had renounced worldly desires and devoted themselves to Buddhism. It can be said that her ability to resist the evil nature of humanity was much weaker than Bai Xijing, who grew up in the city. At least Bai Xijing knew the difference between good and evil, he had a very clear and popular view of good and evil.
But Xiao Jingchen didn't even know what the stranger uncle who lured little girls with lollipops represented!
Bai Xi Jing was so absorbed in her thoughts that she neglected the faint sounds of quarreling coming from downstairs. Just as Grandma Bai started shouting, Xiao Jing Er woke up. She opened her eyes and lay still under the covers. The little girl's sense of hearing was much sharper than her sight. Not only did she know that Grandma was arguing with Grandpa, but she could also make out what they were saying. Although she couldn't understand some complex sentences or certain words that carried too many emotions or even national slurs that sounded like heavenly script to her, she knew that Grandpa and Grandma were fighting because of her.
Xiao Jing was scared, she knew that her father was angry because of her, and now her grandmother was also quarreling with her grandfather because of her. She had only been down the mountain for less than a month, but she had already made her grandfather, grandmother, and father so angry...
A strange sense of panic rose up in Xiao Jing's young heart, an emotion she had never felt before. It was so unfamiliar that she didn't know how to face it. Although she had always wanted to return to her master's side, she knew this was impossible. She hadn't truly merged with the mortal world yet, and her master wouldn't let her go back so easily. Moreover, she couldn't bear to leave her father behind. What if Father got angry and didn't want her anymore? What if Grandpa and Grandma didn't like her either?
Xiao Jingyun was getting more and more scared, she sat up subconsciously looking at Bai Xijing, her big eyes were full of helplessness and fear, she wanted to get some comfort, warmth and affirmation from her father, but Bai Xijing was sitting in the chair, slightly lowering his head, completely immersed in his own dark and complicated childhood memories, not noticing Xiao Jingyun's abnormal mental state at all.
In the past, every time Xiaojing couldn't sleep and sat up, Bai Xijing would always discover her and appear by her side in no time. But now, she had been sitting for a while, yet Dad still didn't react at all with his head hung low. The speculation in her heart was confirmed - Dad didn't like her anymore, Dad didn't want her anymore!
Panic gripped all her senses at that moment, when fear had built up to a certain point, she must find an outlet, and the only way for a child to vent was - crying!!
When Xiaojingyun suddenly burst into loud wailing, Bai Xijing was startled awake from his reverie. He hastily got up and took a few steps over to sit on the edge of the bed, holding Xiaojingyun and softly comforting her. However, in his heart, he felt somewhat perplexed by Xiaojingyun's sudden crying, thinking that she must have been having a nightmare.
Feeling the warmth in her father's arms, Xiao Jingchen immediately opened his arms and tightly hugged Bai Xijin's waist. The force was so great that it made Bai Xijin unable to help but smile wryly: "Daughter, can you be gentle? Dad's spine is almost broken!"
Xiao Jingchen still felt that her strength was too small, she cried until her voice was hoarse and her heart was racing. "Daddy, I'm wrong! I won't say it again, I won't tell you that someone is staring at me to cause trouble for you. Please don't be angry with me, please don't abandon me. Master has already abandoned me, if even you don't want me, then I can only go find the Buddha."
Go find Buddha = ascend to Western Paradise = kick the bucket!!
Bai Xi's heart skipped a beat, and he immediately pulled open the small curtain, lowered his head, glared at her, and shouted, "What nonsense are you talking about? What going to find Buddha? You're already secular now, not related to Buddha. From now on, don't talk nonsense like this, did you hear?"
Xiao Jingzi looked up at Bai Xijing with a timid expression, her small paws grasping his hem tightly and refusing to let go. She nodded weakly and sobbed pitifully, "Daddy, don't abandon me, I'll be very good and obedient!"
Looking at Xiao Jingdian's teary eyes, as pitiful as an abandoned puppy, Bai Xijing felt a pang of heartache. What childhood psychological trauma, what terrorist suicidal attacks were all more illusory than floating clouds? He hastily picked up Xiao Jingdian and coaxed in a soft voice, "How could Daddy bear to abandon you? Daddy is still waiting for you to grow up, get married and have children! When Daddy gets old, you must push him out the door every day to sunbathe!"
"A sentence 'Master said women are tigers, I don't want to have children with women' was deeply swallowed by Xiaojingchen, she knew that at this moment she shouldn't say such a depressing thing, so as not to disturb the warm and intimate family atmosphere in the room, although she didn't think there was anything wrong with what she said!!"
As soon as Grandma Bai heard the sound of Xiao Jingchen crying, she panicked. She sternly pointed at Grandpa Bai, stomped her foot in annoyance, and quickly ran upstairs. She kicked open the door to find Xiao Jingchen being held by Bai Xijing. The father and daughter were talking about something, with the foolish dad's gaze soft and warm, and the obedient daughter smiling brightly like a flower. However, upon closer inspection, it was still possible to clearly see the remaining tear stains on Xiao Jingchen's cheeks.
As soon as the door opened, Xiao Jingyun subconsciously turned her head, and the water vapor in her big eyes had not completely disappeared, like the finest ink jade, crystal clear. It made Bai Nainai's heart instantly soften into water. She quickly walked over and took Xiao Jingyun from Bai Xijiu's arms, gently wiping away the water stains on the little one's face with her slightly dry fingers, and said pitifully, "What happened?" Then she turned her head to glare at Bai Xijiu, "Did you scold her? I'm warning you, don't follow in your dead father's footsteps. Under the rod, not only are there filial sons, but also perverted killers."
Bai Xi Jing: "......"
Xiao Jingzhen tugged at her grandmother's collar, looking embarrassed and smiling with two small dimples, saying "Daddy didn't scold me, I heard Grandma and Grandpa arguing, so I thought Daddy didn't want me anymore, that's why I cried."
Bai Xi Jing: "......" Ah, girl, can't you be a bit more reserved? You're being so straightforward that it's embarrassing for your grandmother!
As expected, as soon as Xiao Jingchu spoke up, Ba Nainai's expression suddenly became very awkward. She coughed lightly and dryly said, "Oh, I see. No big deal, no big deal. If your dad doesn't want you, Grandma wants you, okay?"
Xiao Jingchen nodded very seriously, as if reciting scriptures in front of a Buddha statue, "I'll be very good and obedient."
White Grandma: "......" Why did she feel that their conversation between grandmother and grandson seemed a bit off?
Is it her grandma's feeling that went wrong or is her little granddaughter's thinking on a different frequency?