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  Standing in the courtyard, Meng You Tian let out a soft sigh. The successive changes made him feel even more depressed. He was also worried that after this turmoil, Zi Juan's illness would worsen and the hope of recovery would be slim. Thinking about it, he felt as if there was a heavy burden on his body, his hands and feet were tied up, and he couldn't muster the energy to do anything. Who could he blame? Blame Zi Juan for being too weak, blame Xiao Jinyi for causing trouble and scaring people, blame his mother for her feudal superstitions... Alas, he could only blame himself for having bad luck and getting entangled in such troublesome matters.

  What if Ziqian remains like this, what to do? Meng You Tian really didn't want to think about it, but couldn't stop the thought from swirling in his mind. Abandon her? It would be a relief, but the guilt and self-reproach would probably torment him even more! In front of the moon last month, they made vows and promises, embracing each other warmly, although they hadn't crossed the final line, Meng You Tian couldn't bring himself to do it.

  Regardless of wealth or poverty, regardless of health or illness, I will forever love her, care for her, and never abandon her. I haven't made any vows, but that's no excuse to escape or abandon. But can I really do all this, especially when I don't know how long I'll have to wait? Maybe I won't be able to hold on until the end either?

  With a mind full of conflicting thoughts, Meng You Tian felt his heart was in turmoil and his head was throbbing. Conscience is something that can't be seen or touched, but it can restrain a person's actions. Just like how Buddha and God don't exist, but believing in them can make people feel reverence. Tolstoy once said: A person who doesn't believe in God (religion) can do all sorts of bad things. And a person without conscience, in Meng You Tian's eyes, is not even considered human.

  After a good while, the door bolt opened and Ah Xiu called out from inside the door: "Yitian Ge, the medicine is ready, come in!"

  Meng You Tian pushed open the door and entered the house, Zi Juan was half leaning against the bed, still with tears in her eyes. She pouted her mouth and took cold air. The whip wounds were mostly on her arms, which she had randomly raised to defend herself, and there were also two on her back. Fortunately, Meng You Tian returned early, or else she would have ended up covered in scars all over her body.

  "My mother doesn't want me anymore, let me be beaten by others." It seemed like she was talking to herself, yet also sounded sorrowful and resentful. Zǐ Juǎn only raised her head to glance at Mèng Yǒu Tián with a hint of disdain, still muttering to herself in a low voice.

  "My daughter is not at home. That's why that scoundrel took advantage of the situation. Zi Juan is good, Zi Juan is well-behaved, how can mother not want her?" Ah Xiu covered half of her face and explained softly.

  "Good to me, also good to me." Zi Juan raised her head and looked at Meng You Tian, then looked at Ah Xiu, muttering to herself.

  "Daughters are also good, wait for her to come back and make delicious food for her!" Meng You Tian sat on the edge of the kang, his hand stretched out halfway, wanting to touch Zi Juan's hand, but seeing the whip scars that had been medicated, he withdrew it.

  The purple wisteria's eyes blinked slowly, as if she was tired, and also seemed to be thinking about something. The voice in her mouth became smaller, and Meng You Tian couldn't hear what she was saying either.

  "Brother You Tian." Ah Xiu took two steps closer and said softly to Meng You Tian: "Let's go home and take a look, I'll stay with Zi Juan sister, I think...I think it was too violent just now..."

  Meng You Tian lowered his head, earlier hot-blooded and shouting wildly, although it was to save someone's life, but also brought shame to his mother. If outsiders were to talk about it, he would be considered an unfilial son. Now that he has calmed down, he doesn't blame his mother much. Feudal superstition was a common thing at the time, and from the fundamental starting point, his mother also hoped to cure Zijuan's illness as soon as possible. Moreover, after Zijuan fell ill, Meng You Tian's mother didn't dislike her and took good care of her at home.

  "I'm going back now." Meng You Tian smiled wryly, stood up, and found that A Xiu was a bit abnormal. He frowned slightly and asked: "What's wrong with your face? Why are you always covering it?"

  "It's all right, it's all right, hurry home!" Ah Xiu hastily turned around and urged.

  The more Ah Xiu was like this, the more Meng You Tian became suspicious. He reached out and pressed on the girl's shoulder, forcibly turning her body around, and pulled down her hand covering her face. On the left cheek near the corner of her eye were two fresh scratches, clearly marks from fingernails.

  "Has Zi Juan been bullied?" Meng You Tian asked in surprise.

  Axiu slightly turned her head, pursed the corner of her mouth, and smiled casually, saying: "When applying medicine, I accidentally hurt her. My hand slipped, and I unintentionally touched her. It was my carelessness, she didn't scratch me on purpose."

  Meng You Tian turned his head to look at Zi Juan, her silly and foolish appearance seemed as if she was about to fall asleep. He couldn't help but let out a soft sigh, although it was an unintentional mistake, Ah Xiu's magnanimity and kindness moved him, also making him feel a twinge of guilt.

  "I've been wronged." Meng You Tian really didn't know what to say, and felt that his words sounded so hollow, unable to make up for anything.

  "What's the point of being wronged or not?" Ah Xiu gently shook her head and said, "This little thing, don't take it to heart, hurry home!"

  Meng You Tian nodded and turned around to leave. Too many words were useless now, he would think of a way to repay Ah Xiu properly later!

  …………

  The shamaness left, supported by her companions, muttering and cursing as she went, probably not willing to let the matter drop. Her son also left, carrying the injured Zi Juan, huffing and puffing as he walked, without even saying a word to himself. The onlookers dispersed, chattering and gossiping, with all sorts of speculation.

  Youtian's daughter sat weakly on the edge of the kang, looking at the wolf-like appearance in the room, feeling sad, confused, lost, and annoyed... She didn't know how many complex emotions were circulating, nor did she know how many unspeakable feelings surged up to her heart.

  Am I right or wrong? How did it end up like this? Tian's mother felt a sour nose, and she couldn't help but wipe the corner of her eyes.

  Xiao Yan blinked her black eyes and knew that this was not the time to talk, silently cleaned up the house, occasionally stealing glances at You Tian's mother.

  "Mother, I'm back." Meng You Tian had just arrived at the gate of the courtyard and shouted loudly. On one hand, he was telling his mother, on the other hand, he also wanted to let the neighbors know that there was no estrangement between him and his mother.

  Yutaro's mother heard her son's voice and stood up almost without thinking, but her body stiffened there for a moment, then sat back down.

  "Hey, Xiaoyan is working hard, really diligent." Meng You Tian smiled and walked into the house, making small talk.

  Xiao Yan quietly stuck out her tongue and winked at You Tian's mother, meaning to hurry up and coax the mother away.

  Meng You Tian nodded and smiled, walking over to his mother's side. He spoke in a deliberately casual tone, "Mother, what are you thinking about?"

  The mother glared fiercely at her son, still fuming with anger, and lowered her head in silence.

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