??: *confused* ( ah.. wh..what.. this touch.. so familiar.. where am I going.. whose hand is pulling me. *raise his head* it's so bright.. so blindingly bright and yet warm.. that smile.. wh.. who.. Ai..)
Ai: hey.. hey.. *waving her hand in front of his face* What happened?
??: *dazed* na.. nothing..
Ai: Are you sleeping? If we keep this up I will win again.
??: (oh.. yes I was playing catch with Ai)
Ai: hey.. dozing again.. what's happening to you? Don't tell me that you are acting like that to get away from the penalty..
??: no.. I am not.. I was just thinking what will you ask me to do this time..
Ai: don't worry, you just have to make a promise..
??: ok that should not be that hard..
Ai: yes.. it won't be.. can you promise me that you will stay with me forever..
??: *embarrassed* ah.. wha.. what does that mean..
Ai: you just have to be beside me..
??: *embarrassed* but..
Ai: But that was the rule of the game.. if you catch me you will be able to ask me to do anything and if you are not able to catch me then I will get to do so.
??: but.
Ai: no buts.. you agreed to the game.. (making a almost crying face)
??: ok ok.. I promise..
Ai: *joyfully*I am so happy..
??: *embarrassed* Does that mean you and I will be together forever..
Ai: no silly..
??:but..
Ai: you have to make me promise it too..
??: that's not fair..
Ai: if you want me to promise. Then you just have to catch me..
??: yaa.. that's it.. I just have to catch you..
Ai: off i goo..
??: no fair you started early..
Ai: na nana na na.. you will not catch me..
(He ran after her)
??: *smiling*I will catch you
Ai: *laugh*
??: *raising his hand* now I got you *about to catch her*
(She went away a little further)
??: just miss.. but I will catch you..
(She is getting further and further)
??: *panting* no wait.. I don't want to loss you..
(Even further)
??: *panting heavily* please don't go.. I can't… please.. please
(Even further)
??: *try everything to catch her* *raising his hands towards her* no…
(He fell)
(He waked up)
??: no… *panting* *complete lack of emotions* that dream again.. even now.. I should have gotten used to it. So why..
(He got up from hai bed)
??: how many times.. well i have lost count anyways..
(He entered the bathroom and started brushing)
??: (will it ever stop.. I will get the answer today..)
(He is showering)
??: but does it even matter..
(He is getting dressed)
??: it will hurt anyways..
(Walking in the street)
??: (as I am the one…)
(Entering the hospital)
??: (Who made her)
(Opening the door slowly)
??:(this way)
(Ai was sitting on a bed, wearing a patient's outfit, looking out of the window, pale and skinny)
??: How are you.. Ai..
Ai: kii kii…. (Clapping)
??: (trying to call my name.. I myself have forgotten it at this point ) *forcing a smile* you look very happy.. Did you sleep well.. have you taken our breakfast..
Ai: yes… (nodding)
??: have you taken our breakfast..
Ai: no.. (sad face)
??: oh.. you haven't.. that is not good you have to eat well.. tomorrow is a big day for you..
Ai: kii kii..
??: you don't have to force it Ai.. here you go.. I have brought some apples.. let's eat them..
Ai: aapple..aaa..aaple
??: you love apples don't you.. here let me pile them for you..
(After piling)
??: say aaa..
Ai: aa..
??: That's a good girl.. Here's another one..
Nurse A: *entering the room* eating apples are we.. that's good.. as they say an apple a day keeps doctors aways.. if you eat well.. you will get discharged pretty quickly…
??: (will it happen…or is it just a way to give false hope.. regardless I don't have any hope left) is that all Ai..
Ai: Ai.. eat.. no.. more..
??: (she was only able to eat one of them.. her metabolism has gotten worse)
Ai: *laugh* Ai play..
??: Yes why not.. you have been a good girl.. you have earned it..
(They started playing with blocks)
Nurse B: Who is he.. I have been seeing him come to her every day without exception.. regardless of everything..
Nurse C: He came here even when there was a lockdown due to the cyclone..
Nurse A: not only that he is doing coming here 3-4 times every day for every meal and stays at night.. holding her hand till she fell asleep.. for the last 4 years..
Nurse B & C: *shocked*
Nurse A: Do you know.. at first no-one was able to talk to her let alone feed her.. she didn't accept anyone..
Nurse B: *anticipation* but she accepted him..
Nurse A: no.. Not even he was able to get close to her at first.. it wasn't that she was sacred i think she wanted some kind of familiarity..
Nurse C: what happened next..
Nurse A: Well they say love is a language, even understood by hate itself. Well he came every day and tried everything he could.. even if she hit him. Even after getting hated by the one he loved the most.. he endured. Maybe it's the fact that she was his love.. his heart he was able to endure even rejection from her.. And maybe his love got through her.. maybe she found that familiar bond she once forgot..
Nurse B: if you would have said that this is a plot of a movie then I would have easily accepted that but…. it's happening right in front of me…
Nurse A: They both are similar..
Nurse C: What does that mean..
Nurse A: It's not that the girl needs the boy but the boy also needs the girl.. they both are each other's salvation.. each other's reason to live.. the eyes of both of them said the same… “Please stay with me”
(After and hour or so)
??: I have to go now, Ai.. be a good girl till I return..
Ai: kii.. no go..
??: don't worry.. I will come as soon as possible..
Ai: *starting to cry* kii.. noo.. goo.. Ai.. alone..
??: *hugged her* you are always being this way don't you.. *padding her head* I'll come very soon.. Now please let me go...
Ai: ok.. kii.. Come.. fast..
(In doctor’s room)
Doctor: Her condition is getting worse every passing day.. You are the only one who can decide it for her.. she has no family and she only has let you in her world.. but i know i am repeating this again and again.. but if she goes through this operation she will most likely die.. her chances are next to zero.. even if you had decided it sooner it won't have changed a thing.. please rethink it..
??: *devoid of every emotion* I know.. but I can't see her like that , every time I look at her she seems paler than before, Skinner and frailer. It seems like I am losing her bit by bit.. I want to give her as many chances as she can get.. I was weak before I was afraid to lose her.. not that I am stronger now.. on the contrary I am weaker.. now I am not able to see her suffer.. Please, doctor, can we have the operation tomorrow..
Doctor: Yes you have said it already but I just wanted to tell you everything.. There's no going back after the operation..
??: (Yaa I know that.. if she dies I am dying with her) I know.. doctor.. please just promise me to not force her for the operation..
Doctor: if you will be there… there will be no need for force..
??: but if I don't come..
Doctor: why..
??: if i don't.. maybe because I got afraid or I choked out.. please don't force her.
Doctor: if that's your wish.. then ok.. I promise..
??: thank you..
Doctor: people say I am the incarnation of God.. because I save people but what kind of god is not even able to say for certain that he will save a girl’s life.. You don't need to thank me.. you are the one who has done the most for her.. not even one's family don't do this much.. If anyone deserves to be her god then it's you..
??:..
(He left the room)
??: ( I am not her god.. I am the reason for her suffering.. there is no god )
(He left the hospital and went for his job..)
(At noon)
Ai: no..no.. Ai.. no eat.. Ai want... Kii.. (started crying)
Nurse A: (trying to feed her) please eat it Ai.. if you don't how will ever get better..
??: (enters the room) Ai..
Ai: (Her tears washed off) *smiling* kii.. kii.. Return..
Nurse A: she again is not eating anything..
??: Ai.. why are you not eating..
Ai: Ai.. eat.. only.. kii..
??: *forcing a smile* *taking the food from the nurse* will you eat now..
Ai: aa..
??: good girl..
Nurse A: she was always only eating when you were feeding her.. but you can keep this up..
??: (you are wrong.. if it is for her..) I don't have to do it forever.. Tomorrow is the operation..
Nurse A: but..
??: please not in front of…
Nurse A: ok..
(She went outside)
Ai: Ai.. no.. eat.. more..
??: you hardly ate.. one more bite please..
Ai: aaa..
??: well done..
Ai: Ai.. sleep..
??: oh. Are you tired.. then sleep.. I am here.. *holds her hand*
(after she fell asleep)
??: (kisses her forehead) sleep well..
(He left the room)
Nurse A: Hey stop..
??: ..
Nurse A: Why did you insist on the operation.. you know that it one in a million chance that she will survive..
??: what should I do.. even if she doesn't go through the operation.. how much time do you think she has..
Nurse A: less than a month.. even then it’s possible that she..
??: can die within a week..
Nurse A: yes.. but if she goes through the operation.. she will lose whatever time she has left..
??: I don't know what should I do.. but I know I want to give her a chance.. if this she will die for sure but even if it’s one in a million chance… it's worth taking (even if I have not hope left I don't want her to feel like that)
Nurse A: …
(He left the hospital)
(At evening)
??: Ai.. I have returned.. *saw her laying down* Ai.. Ai.. *sacred* Ai..
Ai: kii..
??: She is sleeping.. *sigh* (she has gotten very weak)
(After a few minutes)
Ai: *wakes up* *in a soft voice* kaa..
??: You awake..
Ai: kii… kii.. *hugs him*
??: You are very happy..
Ai: kii.. with Ai.. Ai.. happy..
(He combed her hair and washed her hand and legs with wet cloth)
??: You are a very good girl today.. Ai.. you deserve a reward..
Ai: ai.. good?... *Smiles*.. Reward..
??: Here you go.. *put a bracelet on her hand* (Happy birthday Ai..)
Ai: Ai.. loo.. *hugs him*
??: You love it.. I am grand..
(They started watching Ai's favorite movie)
??: (I don't know why she loves this movie so much…)
(The movie is about a boy who is extremely introverted.. he got this way because he bullied a girl in elementary school who was not able to speak.. but when the parents of the girl complained the boy was blamed even when he was not the only one who bullied her.. after some years he planned to end his life but wasn't able to.. and on that day he met that girl again.. the story continued with both of them meeting each other and he was getting better with people around.. also soon we find out that the girl was in love with the boy and tries to confess but wasn't able to say or you can say she said “I love you” but the boy wasn't able to understand.. the story continues and we find out that the girl was so depressed about her condition that she also tried to end her life.. but the boy saves her at the last moment but gets injured in the process..)
??: you like this scene a lot don't you (she was replaying the scene of the girl trying to confess.. again and again..)
Ai: Ai.. lov. Lov..
??: you love this scene a lot..
Ai: Love..
??: you said it.. very good.. I am proud of you..
Ai: kii..
??: *looks at the clock.. it was 9 o clock* look, it's time to sleep..
Ai: Ai.. play.. kii..
??: We can play tomorrow.. now please sleep, I will be here.. holding your hand till you sleep..
Ai: aa..
??: good girl…
(He made the bed and held her hand till she fall a sleep)
??: Good night Ai.. *tried to get up* *she was holding him tightly* ah.. *tried to get her grip loose* I will not leave you Ai.. not now.. not ever.. But for now, sleep..
(He left the room)
(The next day)
??: (no..no..) no.. *waked up* *sigh*.
(Did the morning routine)
(Walking on the street)
??: (Ai.. sorry to take the little time you have left.. and gamble it on an unwinnable match)
(In hospital)
(Door opens)
Nurse A: you awake..
Ai: kii… kii.. (starts crying)
Nurse A: What happened.. why are you crying..
Ai: kii..
Nurse A: what happened to him… he will be here.. afterall today's a very important day for you.. he will come..
Ai: kii… (even more crying)
Nurse A: please don't do this.. you will hurt yourself.. you are in no condition for doing this..
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Ai: kii..
Nurse A: *shouts* doctor..
(A little while after doctor came and gave her anesthesia)
Doctor: what happened.. Why was she crying so much…
Nurse A: she was crying for him.. yes he is late but she has never cried so much for that..
Doctor: he did say that he may not come today.. maybe he got afraid because of the operation…
Nurse A: but even so.. he could have come and said it to canc…
Nurse B: Doctor.. There's an emergency…
Doctor: what happened…
Nurse B: the boy..
Doctor: what happened to him..
Nurse B: he had an accident… the condition is looking critical..
Doctor: ohh…god.. what are you trying to do with them…
(In the operation theater)
??: (ah.. ah.. what's happening *Doctor: stay with us* oh.. I jumped in to save that girl.. is she ok?.. *Doctor: Nurse give me…* Am I dying…. Sorry Ai.. I wasn't able to keep my promise.. *everything turning white* *Doctor: no.. she only has you..* Doctor please take care of her.. *Doctor: nur……………*
(Everything is black.. a void)
???: Stay with me.. (a faint light) wake up.. (it is getting brighter) please don't die.. (blindingly bright) I don't want to go to jail..
??: (what!!.. didn’t i die.. so why am I hearing things.. Am I in hell.. no it feel way too comfortable to be hell.. and it's familiar..) *shouts* Ai…
Ai: *wiping her tears* You are alive.. fuuu… I don't have to go to jail..
??: (what!! What is going on.. why I am…)
Ai: hello.. hello.. *thumping his head* hello hello mic testing…
??: auch.. why are you hitting me..
Ai: then there is no brain damage… So why are you spacing out like that..
??: you just fell on me, what do you expect…
Ai: you definitely don't have brain damage.. you back to normal now.. *smiles*
??: *enchanted* (that smile.. ) it means the world to me..
Ai: What means the world to you??
??: ( I spoke out loud ) nothing.. it's nothing…
Ai: you big dummy..
??: can I ask you something??
Ai: yaa why not.. and when did you become so formal…
??: never find that.. can you tell me the date
Ai: are you sure you didn't hurt your head… just in the morning you wished me Happy birthday..
??: (then today's her birthday but what years.. she looks like when she was 14.. then..)
Ai: and now you are asking me the date.. hey..hey. you spacing out again..
??: sorry Ai.. I gotta go..
Ai: yaa it's nearly time to go and you are acting weird.. so let's call it a day.. *they started walking home* but make sure to get your head checked up in your way.. bye..
??: *forced a smile* yaaa…
(He reached his house)
??: (this place.. has the memories)
(He entered the house)
??: (that don't even exist)
Mother: you home.. at least say “I am home”
??: (house don't becomes a home till.. )
Mother: you listening to me.. if you will be like that..
(He going passed his mother to his room)
??: (there’s love resides)
Mother: you will get no food tonight…
(This family is one of the richest in the world.. but every single member of the family… if you can even call it a family.. every member is a self-serving.. selfish individuals.. his father wanted an heir to his empire.. mother is only for the luxurious life.. the elder son is only for spending money… and he is only there for a fleeting hope that someday this agreement of a family will actually become a family)
(He entered his room)
??: today's her birthday. That means.. in exactly 45 hours and 34 mins from now.. She get in the reched accident.. in order to save me..
??: I don't want to relive that… and if this is time travel.. from the fact that when she hit me.. I felt the pain.. I may just.. *tears* may just.. be able to save her..
(He started crying while choking his voice in the pillow.. all the emotions that he locked up for the last 4 years exploded)
Mother: it's dinner time.. (entered his room) son.. are you asleep?.. I didn't meant that.. you can have dinner.. (if he sleep without eating.. I will not hear the end of it) hey.. *he wakes up*
(He felt asleep while crying)
??: please.. I don't want to..
Mother: are you sick?.. (don't tell me that he is ill.. if he returns like and see him like this… god know that will happen)
??: I am not.. just don't want to.. please can you leave me alone..
Mother: ok.. as you like.. (at least it will not be my fault)
(She left and he fell asleep again)
(The next day)
??: *wakes up* (no dream today) the ceiling I hated the most.. now I love it.. this means it wasn't a dream..
(He makes his bed)
(Did the daily routine)
??: I should plain ahead of the events.. first I have to remember everything no matter how painful it may be.. second I have to find the cause.. or who pushed me.. third I have to save her no matter what..
Mother: time for breakfast..
??: yaa I am coming..
(They started eating)
??: father???
Mother: he didn't come home yesterday..
??: (I would be surprised he had came)
???: don't be that gloomy all the cheer up..
??: (Iyoku.. he was like this.. acting friendly and cheerful everytime and everywhere.. but this act of his only exists till he has money with him.. he just loves money and nothing less.. in that sense he is the ideal son for him)
Iyoku: hey.. you here..
??: yes.. I have finished..
Mother: but you hardly ate..
??: I am not that hungry..
Iyoku: ah..
??: what happened..
Iyoku: nothing..
(He started reading for school)
Iyoku: you are still going school.. you know you don't have to..
??: and you know that it's bad manner to come inside someone's room without a knock..
Iyoku: it's not that you are a girl..
??: …
(He went and closed the door after pushing Haruto out)
Iyoku: locked in as always.. but.. *sigh* Whatever.. time to go to the arcade..
(He gotten ready and started walking out)
Mother: shouldn't you say.. “I am leaving”
??: yaa.. I should..
(He left)
??: *someone closed his eyes* Ai.. I know it's you..
Ai: how do you get it corrected very time..
??: because you are the only one who does things like this (or maybe because you are the only one who even cares about me.. even then I would never mistook your touch)
Ai: yeah. I guess you are right.. btw are you feeling alright..
??: ya.. you don't have to worry about it..
Ai: I thought you actually did get hurt.. but if you say so…
??: you worry too much.. and it's not like you are that heavy..
Ai: ohh.. I never knew that you observed me that closely..
??: *embarrassed* ah…
Ai: you perv..
??: I am not a perv.. it just.. yaa.. you feel on me and you didn't felt that heavy..
Ai: chill.. I was just teasing you..
??: *embarrassed* ah..a… (why I am getting plastered talking to her..)
Ai: *smiles*
??: (but if I have to be a fool for this I will)
(They reached school)
Ai: catch you during lunch…
??: yaa..
(Their classes are different)
???: how are you..
??: I am good.. how are you Amako?
Amako: I am fine.. thinks for the concern.. I wa..
(The teacher came)
Amako: I will tell you later…
??: ok..
Class rep: everyone stand.. bow..
(Everyone in union Said Good morning)
Teacher: good morning everyone.. sit down.. let's the attendance going..
A student: did you heard.. an..jsubehd..whdhjwns.jd.dhf.sms
Teacher:
??: (I hate this.. if someone is doing their job you should make their job harder)
(The class started)
??: ( what i should do.. I have being regaining a lots of memories.. but i haven't found anyone who hates me that much that they try to kill me.. only if I can get other's opinion about me.. what if I don't interact with Ai tomorrow.. that definitely wouldn't cause that situation.. but if I do so.. it's mostly I will die.. it doesn't matter if I die to me.. but if I die.. she.. no i have to save her without killing myself.. )
Teacher: hey.. what are you thinking about.. if you are that good at thinking then tell me the answer of this que..
??: root 2..
Teacher: *shocked* correct..
(it's easy.. afterall he is actually a high school graduate)
(The period passed)
A lot of girls: how did you do.. the question was so long and you solved it in an instant..
??: *embarrassed* ah.. ah..
Amako: don't choke him like that..
A girl: but we are just..
Amako: …
The girl: ok..
(The girls went away)
Amako: sorry for that.. they just..
??: Amako.. can you.. i want to talk to you about something.. can we talk.. in the lunch..
Amako: *shocked and embarrassed* ok..
??: (did I say something wrong.. ) thanks..
(During lunch)
??: hey.. Amako..
Amako: oh.. yeah.. you said you want to talk about something.. ( is he going to confess) *her chicks are red*
??: yes can be go somewhere private..
Amako: (oh.. yes.. calm yourself ) yes why not..
(They went a private place)
Amako: what you wanna ask me??
??: Amako.. can you.. I mean..
Amako: (yes said it that you want to go out with me)
??: can you tell me what others think about me..
Amako: (ohh.. shit.. and I am here thinking at last I will have him) *visibly disappointed* but why do you want to know that.. I never thought of you as a person who actually cares about others' opinions about them..
??: it's just.. I want to know.. (it doesn't matter if the timelines get completely trash or i have to tell a million lies.. I have to do this)
Amako: you don't act that much to actually give someone some impression of you.. but today is different, you are different..
??: it's nothing I did that question prior..
Amako: that makes sense..
??: one last question: does anyone hate me..
Amako: as I said you don't give that much impression.. so hating you not even a thought..
??: (well that plain failed miserable) *disappointed* thanks
Amako: But did you ask me..
??: you are popular with both girls and boys.. if anyone would have my answer it's you..
Amako: (at least I was some help to him.. he will be in debt to me) oh.. did you heard anything about me..
??: na.. I don't talk to anyone much..
Amako: if we are here, let's have lunch together…
??: oh.. I am ready sorry.. I have to go.. I promised someone to have lunch with them..
Amako: no…it's ok..
(He went away)
Amako: (that b###.. if she wasn't with him.. he would have been mine by this time..)
(He reach to the regular meeting location for them)
Ai: *chicks inflated* you are late..
??: I am sorry.. *grabbing his ears*
Ai: *smiles* you look so cute when you do that..
??: *embarrassed* you and your teasing..
Ai: *laughs* Well, let's start eating.. it's getting late..
??: yes.. why not..
(They started eating)
Ai: Is that baby corn.. I love them..
??: Here take some..
Ai: aaa..
??: *that reminded him of the future Ai* *shocked* *manager to calm down* (it's good that her eyes were closed) here you go..
Ai: delicious.. here have some.. fried shrimp.. say aaa…
??: *embarrassed* you don't have to feed me..
Ai: but you fed me..
??: ah.. ok.. aaaa…
Ai: here you go.. isn't it tasty..
??: (the fact that you fed me makes it a million times more delicious.. I don't know that I even tasted it.. or just imagined the taste) yes it is…
(They finished eating)
??: (i don't know if I could have survived any more for that cuteness..)
Ai: Well it's time.. I gotta go.. I will be waiting for you after school..
??: ok.. Ai.. I will also be waiting…
(He started walking to his class)
Amako: hey..
??: Hello Amako.. what are you doing here..
Amako: no thing.. just walking by *she was spying on him* (that Ai.. how dare she feed him.. )
??: oh.. then let's go to class together..
Amako: ok.. if you said so.
(After a few seconds)
Amako: ah.. Do you like Ai?
??: wha..what.. that all of a sudden..
Amako: answer me.. do you or not..
??: to be honest.. yes I do.. I do love her.. more than anything in the world (i can't lie about that)
Amako: (aaaa… if this keeps up.. my father will kill me..)
(Amako’s family is like his family.. everyone is just for their selfish reasons.. his father wanted a son.. but unfortunately for him Amako was born.. and right after she took birth her mother died.. after some years her father's business was getting bankrupt.. then he saw him in a party with his father.. he tried to befriend his father and with his help he was able to save his business.. but now he wants more.. so he told Amako to make him feel in love with her and he will not just be a friend but family)
Amako: *try to look very disappointed and depressed* well you see… I also love you..
??: *feeling sad for her*
(Flash back)
(During second resis)
A boy: are you and Amako.. couples..
??: *shocked* wh..what.. the hell.. why do you think like that..
The boy: it's just that you two are close..
??: it's just your parents are good friends..
The boy: oh.. that makes sense..
??: it may look like it.. because she is very kind to me..
The boy: (what.. he thinks she is kind.. ) ah..
??: what.. happened you choked all of a sudden..
The boy: Naa.. it's nothing..
??: ok then..
The boy: just a word of advice.. don't get too close to her..
??: But why..
The boy: it's just.. she has made everyone ignore you.. and leave you be.. at first I thought that's you are her boyfriend that's why she is being that possessive or maybe as she knew you don't like talking to people so she made situations that will not distribute you.. but now you are telling me that you are not couple then that..
??: you don't have to say anything more..
(Flash back ended)
??: you don't have to lie to yourself..
Amako: what.. why do you think I am lying..
??: you are forced to do this aren't you..
Amako: ho..how do you know that..
??: even though you tried to pull as much fake love as you can into your confession.. it wasn't even close to a drop of the love I have for her.. you see love can never be forced.. it's natural..
Amako: *starts crying* bu..but if you don't.. love me..
??: your father is not going to do anything..
Amako: *shocked* how did you know that..
??: (I know that because I am from the future.. but can't say that) My father told me to keep an eye on your father and hinted to me about his plans..
Amako: but.. he is going to kill me..
??: *in a calming voice* not worry.. I will not let him do that.. (if I ask my father he will take care of that.. not because he loves me but if he does so then he will have the option of asking me do to something someday.. a businessman though and though..)
Amako: thank you.. but I have done awful things.. i have.
??: I know about the thing you have done.. but it's all water under the bridge now.. don't worry..
Amako: thank you and I truly mean it..
??: well your father's plan was not good to begin with.. he thought that if I were to love you, my father will allow me to marry you.. na.. it's not going to happen even if I had insisted he would just have disowned me.. your father father's plan would have never worked.. because my father is a businessman first and then a father (Naa.. he is not father)
Amako: *shocked* (how can a boy think like this) …
??: are you ok?
Amako: yes.. i am.. though I am very sorry for all the trouble..
??: don't mention it…
(They went to class and she apologized to everyone.. and everyone was shocked.. then the teacher came and the school continued..)
(The school end)
Amako: thank you for everything..
??: now that's what you call.. being true to your feelings.. btw you don't have to thanks me.. after all you are my friend..
Amako: if you keep this up I may truly fall in love.
??: ah…
(They went there ways)
(At the school door)
??: Ai.. sorry I am late..
Ai: don't worry about it.. I just got here..
??: well let's go then..
Ai: you are becoming popular lately..
??: and why do you think that..
Ai: you tamed the wildest thing in the school… or they say so..
??: tame.. l will not use that word.. but I did help her a little..
Ai: tell me about it..
(He told her the entry story.. except that he loves her)
Ai: wow.. you really did that…
??: yaa.. but don't worry about it..
Ai: *smiles*
??: why are you smiling..
Ai: *smile* it's just I am proud of you.. when we met you were so locked up.. never letting anyone come even near you.. you hated everyone.. you stayed away from everyone.. you didn't bother with anyone's affairs.. you looked mature.. but you were just a boy inside.. you cried alone.. you even blocked me off..
??: Then that day.. exactly 2 years, 5 months and 3 days from today.. you came near me when I was crying.. alone in the park.. I had no tears.. when you came near me.. *his voice was like he hated it* I hit you.. you were bleeding.. but you didn't run.. *his voice grow soft* you hugged me.. no matter how many times I shrugged off you.. you came back everytime holding me even stronger... I don't know how.. but I think you show the tears of my heart.. i remember those words you said “Don't be sad.. I know it hurts.. but if you keep locking out others then this pain will never go.. and if you can get anyone in.. I will break your cage and go inside it myself..”
Ai: *embarrassed* you remember that.. that time this line didn't feel that embarrassed but now..
??: *embarrassed seeing her face* ah.. but that line and you saved me from myself..
Ai: na you are just trying to gain extra points..
(She is talking about the point that they give to each other when they do or say something that makes the other happy)
??: yaa… you gatcha…
(They talk the whole way)
Ai: bye.. see you tomorrow…
??: bye..
(Reached his house)
(Said I am home even if forcefully)
(Went to his room)
??: *in angered tune* no clue today.. Amako was a potential suspect but she is not that kinda person who will hurt someone seriously for her own gain.. she may threaten someone but never go through it.. *hits the wall* if I don..
Iyoku: if you don't..
??: *surprised* (when did he came)
Iyoku: if you are thinking when did I came.. then just after you hit the wall.. it make a good amount of noise.. so I have to check..
??: (shit) and why do you want to know about it…
Iyoku: oh.. I just want to know if my brother is having any problems..
??: as if..
Iyoku: you can share you problem with me.. they said sharing pain can make it less painful…
??: you don't engage with anything unless you have some motive behind it… and most of time that motive is money…
Iyoku: you know me very well.. but this time it's not about money.. it's about your relationship as brothers.. or if you want help with something then ask for it.. and if you give me money you know that I will not betray you..
??: (it would be very helpful and if money is in the line he will not betray as much as I know him.. but he can't be trusted) I was just saying that what if I don't pass the incoming exam..
Iyoku: *smug* who do you think you are lying to brother.. you know i the best when it comes to reading people.. and you will not punch the wall if you were just worried about passing…
??: ( this gambling addiction.. well if you are the best at reading people.. then I am the best on controlling my emotions.. bring it on) *with no flustering emotions* yes.. you are right.. I am not like that.. well if can lie to you so might as well use you..
Iyoku: use me??.. my services are not cheap..
??: and I have 1 year of allowance worth of money..
Iyoku: Now you are talking.. well can I get the information for the job..
??: Well, for a few days I have been having the same dream.. everytime in my dream I die because of someone.. sometimes someone pushes me in front of a car.. other times someone stabe me.. and these dream are not just dreams they feels real.. if you don't believe that I have prove in one dream I was kill after i won a lucky draw.. when I wake up a tried to take that lottery with the same number I got it.. that's why I have that much money with me.. (It's just a lie.. the money is just my savings.. I didn't have anything to spend it one)
Iyoku: *shocked* if you have just it as it is.. then it would be very hard to believe.. but that amount of money is not easy to get.. so.. I believe you.. what you want me to do..
??: just find out who is trying to kill me..
Iyoku: ok.. and my advance.. (am i sweating)
??: here you go 30%.. rest after the job.. and want the information before 10 o clock morning..
Iyoku: (as expected.. he is like our father.. an expert businessman..)ok..
(Iyoku went away)
??: (*sigh* will that be enough.. Tomorrow is the day.. the worst day of the entire life.. my birthday and her accident day.. *serious* if he is able to get the information then.. then what.. if I get the identity of that person maybe father can help.. but if I take his help then I most likely have to take over the business.. a world that i never want to go to.. *depressed* what if I become like my father.. These thoughts haunt me.. *relief* doesn't matter for her.. going to hell is nothing..)
(After a while thinking)
??: let's go.. I promised Ai..
(He went to Ai’s orphanage)
??: Ai.. did you forgot
Ai: bhuuu…. *She came from behind*
??: aaa… *surprised* don't scare me like that…
Ai: *laugh* ki### got scared.. ki### got sacred
??: what you said!!??(what.. why I am not able to hear my name..)
Ai: just.. you got scared.. why..
??: not that.. my name..
Ai: your name.. what about it..
??: say it..
Ai: ki###.. you are acting weird..
??: (*shocked* why am I not able to hear my name.. if i think about it I have never heard my name from the very beginning.. I don't remember it.. but why can't I hear it.. )
Ai: *worried* what happened.. why.. did something happen.. please tell me..
??: *realized that he is worrying her* not it's nothing.. i just my ears get numb because of your shouting…
Ai: *relief* you goofball… you scared me..
??: *forced smile* tit for tat..
Ai: *smiles* well let's go.. you got a promise to keep..
??: *seriously* yes..
Ai: hnn..
??: *smiles* I just trying to act cool..
Ai: You are trying too hard to be funny today.. way too much..
??: it's just.. I like your smile..
Ai: *embarrassed* ahh….
(They started walking and talking)
(They played very weird games.. but enjoy every last moment of it.. it was as if time itself has stopped and only those two are present in these moments.. smiles and laughter were like the sweetest melodies… a harmony.. a symphony)
Ai: Today was very fun..
??: *trying very hard to control his emotions* yes.. it was very fun..
Ai: *she noticed but didn't said anything* well tomorrow is your birthday and also Sunday.. let's go out somewhere.. maybe to an amusement park..
??: (things are exactly like that day.. what if I don't go with her.. maybe she will not have that accident but that will mean I will die.. and i think that's more painful to her.. and can't be that selfish and yet I want to be selfish) hey Ai.. I have a question?
Ai: go ahead, ask away..
??: *seriously* it's serious questions please..
Ai: (I never seen him so serious) *seriously* ask..
??: *hesitating* it's just.. just..
Ai: you don't have to hurry.. we have plenty of time..
??: *took a deep breath* let's say you love some and that some also loved you back.. they love each other so much that they can die a million life if they can save the other.. but is it selfish of them to die for the other.. because that will mean the other has to leave without him/her.. or not dying and trying a way to save both of them is selfish even if it's practically impossible..
Ai: *seriously* you asked a very conflicting question.. I would say the first one is more selfish.. because the second is selfish because they want to be with each other and that's should happen in love.. but the first is selfish because you don't want the other to die in front of your see… but you are not considering his/her feelings.. I would say.. if someone close to you is dying remain close to them.. play with them.. have fun as much as and leave them with a goodbye.. you will feel pain.. but die to save that person will hurt them more then your could ever do while living… *serious tone went away* aaahhh.. this question is stupid… you are stupid.. if you are in love with someone be with them till the end doesn't matter how small that time is.. I hate the saying “ If you love them let them go” because if you love them and they love you there should be no words like leave or go.. just be with them until the end.. doesn't matter what you have to do..
(A few seconds of silence)
??: …….. I didn't think you would give that interesting answer.. ( as expected of you Ai.. I knew that you will say that.. now I have a clear goal.. save I have to save us)
Ai: *cocky smile* haa.. I am very intelligent..
??: *laughs*
Ai: *embarrassed and inflating his cheeks* why are you… ahh..
??: sorry..
Ai: it's ok..
??: well bye.. i will come to take to.. at 10:30.. is that ok..
Ai: yes.. bye..
(He reached his house)
??: *forcefully* I am home..
(He entered his room)
Iyoku: Hello bro..
??: *acting surprised* why are you in my room…
Iyoku: to deliver information…
??: *surprised* you actually got the name of the person who wants to kill me..
Iyoku: not quite but.. I have as much information i can give you..
??: better than nothing..
Iyoku: you see.. you are being targeted by a Hitman.. someone has given money to kill you..
??: ha.. that's the reason.. but why is someone trying to kill me..
Iyoku: you are taking it way to easily then I thought… and the answer to that question is.. because they think our father will falter if his Little son died.. as there is very big tender and they want to get it..
??: if they think that will work you don't know father very well… for him our lives doesn't even matter…if we die.. he is just going to make more children or adopt few.. to raise like him..
Iyoku: yaa.. they are idiots…
??: do you know that company's name.. or the person’s name..
Iyoku: no.. it's their policy to not reveal client names.. but if you want I can stop them..
??: how..
Iyoku: it's not your concern.. but I would be needing something from you in exchange..
??: go ahead.. Do you want the next 10 years of my allowance or something else..
Iyoku: na.. but it's appetizing.. all I want is that when you become the owner of the business you will stop me from taking funds from it..
??: ok..
Iyoku: *dump founded* ok???... Just like that.. no negotiation..
??: life is way more important than money.. I can make money if I am alive.. but what makes you this sure that i will inherit the business.. you are the older one..
Iyoku: for father it doesn't matter who has born first.. but rather he is more capable.. and you are more capable than I could ever be.. but now.. seeing you selling the whole empire for your life has shaken that belief..
??: if you even try to waste millions of dollars a day you will not even make a dent on the empire he has created.. (even if he is the worst father.. when it comes to business he is unmatched)
Iyoku: (either today's very hot or he is too scary) *a little terrified* yaa.. I will try my best to stop it.. but no promises cause these kinds of Hitman are not easy to buy witg just money..
??: you better try your best..
(Iyoku went away)
??: (what's to kill me for money.. and the ironic in that they are using money to do that…it's like killing someone to save someone) tomorrow I should keep my guard fully closed..
Mother: it's dinner time..
??: coming…
(They ate)
(He went to his room)
??: I don't know if I can but.. i should sleep (tomorrow I will need as much energy I can get)
(He fall asleep because of the tension)
(The final day)
??: *wakes up* no dream today also.. I need do everything I can today..
(He did all the regular things)
Mother: breakfast time…
??: yes..
(They ate)
(He started to get himself ready for today)
(While preparing)
??: (it's different today.. today it not like only she have to do all the work to survive.. but also I can help her)
Iyoku: Are you ready.. I have tried my best.. but rest.. it's up to luck..
??: ya.. I know.. thanks bro..
Iyoku: (it's the first time he has called me bro) best of luck bro..
(It's 10:00)
??: I am leaving.. gonna come late..
Mother: ok..
(He reached her orphanage)
??: hey ai..
(Ai came)
??: *mesmerized* (she is soo..) cute..
Ai: *embarrassed* cu.. cute.. Yes I am..
??: (I spoke out loud) you look very cute today.. Ai..
Ai: *embarrassed* not teasing me..
??: ah… well let's go then..
Ai: before that.. here you go.. Happy birthday…i know you don't like your birthday but.. if you wouldn't be born.. I will be alone and this is to remind you of that..
??: thank you.. (this necklace a heart split into two one for her and other for me.. I can never forget this gift) *wears a half*
Ai: And not put that on me..
??: I have to do that..
Ai: yes.. ofcourse.. do it quickly we don't have all day..
??: *gently* here we go..
Ai: Now it's done.. It's proof that.. I am incomplete without you..
??: and i without you..
(Both got way to embarrassed)
??: Let's go then
(They held hands and started walking and talking.. and before they know it they reached the park)
Ai: *surprised* oh.. we are here.. that was fast..
??: *checked his watch* it wasn't fast.. we just don't realize it..
Ai: *smiles* talking to you always does that..
??: yaa to you too..
(They entered.. They started taking rides.. eating cotton candy.. playing games in the arcade.. and having fun.. they truly were incomplete without the other.. they neither can laugh or cry without each other.. their emotions are also intertwined with each other)
Ai: aah.. I have never had this much fun..
??: *sadly* Neither do I..
Ai: why sad that we will have many more opportunities to have fun you know.. it's not the end..
??: yaa it's not the end.. (please don't make this the end)
Ai: we haven't gone to the giant wheel..
??: yes…let's go *he crippling inside but he wants to make fun also. Is this selfish??*
(They started riding the giant wheel)
Ai: look.. it's so beautiful.. everything so small..
??: *emotions uncontrollable* yaa..
(A few seconds later)
Ai: *seriously* ki### Do you believe me..
??: *his control is break* yes.. more than myself..
Ai: So why are you not telling me the truth..
??: *his emotions* truth.. what.. truth..
Ai: you were never good at lying to me..
??: *exploded* *tears coming out* Ai.. Ai.. I can hold it in any longer.. *burst into tears on her lap*
Ai: here.. here.. you don't have to hold it in.. let it out..
(Still crying
Ai: you don't have to tell me.. I know my ki## will never do anything that will cause anyone any harm.. or do anything that will cause me to hate him.. cause I know.. he loves me..
??: *crying* Ai.. I am sorry.. I can't tell you.. but.. I assure you that you will never be disappointed at me.. I will try my best to be your best.. i love you
Ai: *tears coming out* ooh.. silly.. you are my best, you don't have to do anything..
(They shed tears in each other arms and they left the giant wheel)
Ai: it's 5:30 already.. if we don't hurry we will be late..
??: yes let's go… (the time of that deliberate accident was 5:35 right after we left the park.. please don't die..)
5:31
(Please don't die)
5:32
(Please don't die)
5:33
(Please don't die)
Ai: what's happening.. you look tension..
??: please believe in me..
Ai: …
5:34
(Please please don't die)
5:35
(Please don't die please don't die)
5:36
(Please please don't die)
5:37
(Please don't die)
(He collapsed on to the ground)
Ai: what happened… ki## please…open your eyes.. please..
??: (did I forgot to breathe.. that's a dumb way to die.. sorry Ai.. I guess I am dead…but at least you are safe..)
Ai: please wake up.. please… open. eye.. open eye.. open. .eye.. Ai crying.. open eye..
??: *panting* this ceiling… *started looking everywhere* where am I… am I back in the present.. did I save Ai.. *shouts* hello anyone here…
Nurse A: *very happy* Doctor…Doctor He is conscious…
(Everyone gathered)
??: what's happening..
Nurse A: you were in a coma for 2 months..
??: *realized* wha…what.. what do you mean.. where is Ai…is she ok…please tell me she is ok..
Nurse A: *extreme sad* she doesn't have much time left..
??: *he is traumatized like as if someone has ripped his chest open and pulled his heart out* *no energy* wh..what.. doo.. you.. means.. by that.. didn't I saved her..
Nurse A: she is the one who saved you.. everyday she insisted to come and met to.. she stayed hours beside you.. holding your hand.. saying.. Open..eye..Ai.. crying…
??: *shout* aaaaaaaa….. *hit the wall** why…why.. she is always the one to save me.. please can I meet her..
Nurse A: yes.. she is waiting for her..
(While going there…)
Nurse A: when she knew about your condition she didn't want to believe.. she cried for hours and fell asleep.. didn't eat anything.. only stayed beside you.. but one day she told us.. “Ai.. live for kii..” then she started eating and tried his best to stay alive for you.. and as if she knew that you will wake up today.. she tried everything to live till today… and against all odds she did... she doesn't have much time.. and she has something to say to you…
(They reached)
Nurse A: goo.. and hear what she wants to say..
(He entered the room.. he was afraid to raise his head.. he didn't wanted to look at her in that state.. but he wanted to grant her last wish.. he will hear what she want to say)
??: *tears in his eyes* Hey Ai..
Ai: *on ventilation.. frail.. weak.. skinny.. * ki.. ki…
??: *crying* you don't have to..
Ai: ki..ki..
??: *he leaned forward closer to her mouth* please you don't have to.. i get to see you it's enough..
Ai: kirai.. Ai loves.. kirai..
Kirai: *crying* you remembered my name.. the name I forgot.. the name I hated the most.. now it's so lovely that I don't stop.. feeling luck that I have the name.. Kirai....
Ai: please.. live.. Ai want.. Kirai.. to live..
Kirai: I will.. the life you have given me.. I will cherish it till the last second...
Ai: promise.. Kirai.. kept..
Kirai: no.. I didn't.. I am not going with you…
Ai: Ai.. no..want .. kirai to..go.. stay.. happy..
Kirai: I will.. I will..
Ai: Ai.. love.. Kirai.. Ai.. *gesture to hug him*
Kirai: *hugs her* Kirai.. loves.. Ai..
Ai: Ai.. want.. gift.. going…away gift.. *gesturing to kiss him*
Kirai: *kisses her* please.. wait for me.. I will come.. and join you.. No more crying.. you thought me to send of loved ones with smile.. *tears in his eyes* I will smile.. *smile the most genuine smile*
Ai: thank..Kirai.. catch..you.. later..
Epilogue
(After days later)
(Kirai visiting Ai grave)
Kirai: hey Ai.. how are you.. i think you are killing the god for doing that to me.. aren't you.. After all this time I finally get why I am not able to hear my name.. because I just wanted to hear it from you.. I know you are lonely there but don't be.. just wait.. I will be there soon.. (thunder) oh.. sorry.. I meant that wait for me.. I will be there, the day I die.. is it ok.. your are controlling the weather now.. I feel bad for those gods.. but they desire it.. Thanks you Ai for everything.. *put the Ai’s half of the necklace on her grave* Take it.. then I reach there I will make sure that it the right one.. *lifting his arms up to show her the other half* *the necklace vanished* you never change Ai.. Bye for today.. Catch you tomorrow..
Love is weird thing. It makes you smile, laugh, sad, cry and gain and loss hope.
It's tragic, it's mesmerize, and worst of all it is damn necessary. It makes you lose a piece, then you try mend yourself without that piece, but you crumbes anyways. When you try to fin
d the piece, you just find that how important that piece was, and then realized you have to live your life without it.
LOVE MAKES THAT GOD DAMN LOST PIECE