I like you just the way you are now

  "I... have offended a very powerful person." Although the tension had dissipated somewhat, Ye Shanshan still didn't dare raise her voice, since she was admitting fault, she should look like it.

  "How big? Bigger than the central leader I just sent off?" Rarely, at this time Gu Bei Chen still had the mood to make a joke.

  "That's not the case, however... isn't there a common saying? A local official is more powerful than a central government leader. The emperor is far away and the mountains are high, even if you want to offend someone, it's hard to get in trouble with them. What's scary is offending the local leaders." As they got closer to the truth, Ye Shanshan's voice became softer and softer.

  "Local leader? You mean... that person is from our military district?" Gu Bei Chen thought the person she offended would be some wealthy and influential big shot, but didn't expect that even when buying New Year's goods, she could run into someone from the military district.

  Ye Shanshan didn't dare speak up and nodded cautiously.

  "You've offended the military commander and can still return unscathed, so the situation shouldn't be too severe." Gu Bei Chen's tone remained relaxed, because he knew that the military commander wasn't someone you could see just by wanting to, there must be some other hidden reason.

  "It's not that I've offended him personally, it's just that he's the son of Vice Commander Jiang from your military district. Fang Wei also said... his father is the mayor of City B." After finally saying the most important thing, Ye Shanshan felt a slight relief in her tense heart, anyway she had already confessed obediently, and now it was up to him whether to kill or behead her.

  "Now that you mention it, I've also met the second generation of the Jiang family. He's basically a chaotic demon king. Deputy Commander Jiang intentionally sent him to the troops for training, but in the end, no one dared to take him." Gu Bei Chen had already roughly guessed what was going on, but there was one thing he couldn't understand: she hadn't done anything wrong and hadn't hurt herself, so why was she so tense and worried? "You didn't hit him, did you?"

  Ye Shanshan hastily waved her hand in denial, "No no, I remember your warnings at all times and dare not act rashly."

  Gu Beichen couldn't help but smile wryly and reached out to gently stroke her forehead, "If you had really listened to me, you wouldn't be meddling in other people's business."

  "That second-generation ancestor drove a military vehicle in violation of the rules, reversing and hitting someone, but he didn't care at all, as if nothing had happened. I...I really can't stand it." Still the same words, although he took the leader's instructions as a mere whisper in his ear, Ye Shanshan did not regret his decision one bit.

  "You also want to stand up for the injured person, it's a good thing, why are you so afraid?" Although Gu Bei Chen scolded people in a fierce manner, he was actually just a paper tiger. He was intentionally trying to intimidate her, and even if she had really done something wrong, he would at most just say a few harsh words and that's all. He believed that she also knew this in her heart, so her tension and worry seemed especially strange.

  "This thing Vice Commander Jiang will also know about." Indeed, Ye Shanshan was not afraid of being scolded at all. Even if she had to write another thousand-word self-criticism, it would be fine. What she worried about most was that it might implicate him.

  "So?" Gu Bei Chen was momentarily stunned and hadn't reacted yet.

  "If he knew about our relationship, you would definitely be implicated by me." As soon as the words were spoken, Ye Shanshan's emotions quickly returned to the tension and unease she had when she first came in. Although she was sitting shoulder to shoulder with him, she didn't dare to look up at him.

  "Fool, how can you have such an inexplicable worry." After calculating and thinking about it, Gu Bei Chen actually missed this point. He should be dead, he should have thought of it earlier, his little wife always thinks of others first and only considers herself later, she is so tense and worried because of him.

  "It's not an unfounded worry, Fang Wei told me that your transfer application will eventually need to be approved by Deputy Commander Jiang, what if he..."

  Gu Beichen gently stretched out his hand and pressed his index finger against her lips. "Your worries won't come true, Deputy Commander Jiang isn't that kind of person."

  "How do you know it won't? His grandson will be criminally detained, all because of my stubborn persistence. He definitely won't let it go as if nothing happened." Ye Shanshan didn't want to think so pessimistically either, but the world was just too realistic. People with power and influence sometimes don't follow reason, and if they wanted revenge, those in a weaker position couldn't defend themselves no matter what.

  "You're wrong, his grandson will be detained because he broke the law and did something wrong. You just did what many people didn't dare to do." Although she ignored his reminder at a critical moment, at this point, Gu Bei Chen had no resentment towards her in his heart. On the contrary, he would genuinely feel proud and honored for what she had done. "Don't worry, have some food first. I'll contact Vice General Jiang first. If he's home, I'll take you to visit him. Whatever it is, we can clarify it face-to-face."

  "You want to take me to see him?" Unbeknownst to her, due to excessive nervousness or not expecting him to bring it up himself, Ye Shanshan's reaction was slightly stunned.

  "After seeing him with your own eyes, you won't have any more wild thoughts." Gu Bei Chen smiled and tapped her upturned nose, helping her bring the pastries and milk tea in front of her. "These pastries were bought after I lined up for a long time, try some, if you like them, we can buy a few more boxes on our way back."

  Since marrying him, Ye Shanshan's tear point has dropped rapidly, and she would be moved to tears by his thoughtfulness at the slightest carelessness. "Don't be so good to me, I'll feel guilty." Before coming, Ye Shanshan had already prepared herself for a scolding, but unexpectedly he didn't say a single harsh word, not only did he think of a way out for her, but also specially lined up to buy her snacks, wasn't this intentionally trying to move her to tears?

  "It's not that serious, it's just a few pieces of dim sum. Anyway, I had time and was passing by, so I went to buy some. I went to the main store, there were many windows, and I didn't have to wait for long." As he watched her eyes well up with tears again, Gu Bei Chen hastily handed her a tissue and carefully helped her dab at the corners of her eyes, preventing the tears from falling.

  "I didn't say that." Ye Shanshan sniffled and tried to hold back her tears, "I won't listen to you, whenever I see someone bullying others, I just can't help but stand up for them, you should scold..."

  Gu Beichen had already guessed what she wanted to say, and smiled calmly, interrupting her: "No matter how fiercely I scold you, next time if we encounter this kind of situation again, you will still stand out and speak up for justice without hesitation, won't you?"

  Ye Shanshan didn't dare say otherwise, and lowered her head with an awkward expression.

  "If you can really do it without seeing, then it's not Ye Shanshan." After today's events, Gu Beichen also opened up, her chivalrous and kind heart was brought from her mother's womb, if she had to force her to change, she would inevitably lose herself. Just let her go, as long as she feels happy, that's fine.

  "I can help you with that, try changing..."

  "No need!" Gu Bei Chen simply took a piece of pastry and stuffed it into her mouth, "I like you just the way you are now."

  Her mouth was stuffed with a big piece of food, Ye Shanshan couldn't speak, she could only stare blankly at him as he walked to the corner to make a phone call.

  The phone was answered quickly, but since they were far apart, it was impossible to hear what he was saying. However, judging from his expression, the atmosphere should be quite harmonious, and this trip to Jiang's house seemed unavoidable.

  As expected, after finishing the phone call and coming back, Gu Bei Chen reported to her about the next schedule at the first opportunity. "Deputy Commander Jiang has an activity to attend tonight, we need to set off early."

  "So... uh... simple, right? " While eating, Ye Shanshan had been watching his expression, and couldn't help but feel a little distracted. Suddenly, he started hiccuping, with a small, adorable and pitiful look on his face.

  Gu Beichen hastily sat down beside her to help pat her back and relieve her gas, "The old chief has already heard about the second ancestor of the Jiang family being criminally detained, he's furious, but no one dares to tell him the truth, you're going at just the right time."

  "So that's it... He didn't get angry at all?" This was something Ye Shanshan hadn't expected, and she was so startled that she stopped hiccuping.

  "He's grateful you're still here, how could he be angry!" The words were somewhat exaggerated, but to make her feel at ease while eating, Gu Bei Chen could only say this.

  After hearing this, Ye Shanshan felt much more at ease and only now did she taste the special flavor of the pastry. "What's the name of this pastry?"

  "Is the caramel mille-feuille delicious?" Someone ate with a look of satisfaction, still savoring the aftertaste on their face. It was worth it for someone to line up for nearly twenty minutes to buy it.

  "The leader's purchase will still be correct." Ye Shanshan nodded while reminiscing, and accidentally touched a certain leader's taboo again.

  However, she can call him like that, which also proves that her tension in her heart is gradually dissipating, and Gu Bei Chen doesn't bother to argue with her.

  Outside the tea house, in the open-air teahouse, Xiao was also praising the new and strange dim sum she had tasted for the first time, and was urging Fang Wei to go buy more for her.

  Caramel paired with jam is absolutely a sweet-to-the-bottom combination. If it were in the past, Ye Shanshan would definitely strongly object. However, wait a minute, she and Gu Moulong have more important things to take care of, let Fang Wei bring her to line up once, it's not impossible, "If you like it, then let Uncle Fang bring you to buy some, Mommy likes it too, buy more and bring it back home to eat slowly."

  "Dad and Mom, are you busy with something?" The little girl's intuition was really not ordinary, the two adults had already disguised themselves well enough, but she still noticed something unusual.

  Ye Shanshan didn't know how to respond and immediately sent a pleading gaze to her superior.

  The principal received the help, smiled and took over the topic, "Dad is going to take Mommy to see a friend, probably back in an hour, we will meet here at that time, you listen to Uncle Fang's words, don't run around, do you know?" However, the little girl had too many thoughts, he didn't dare to tell the truth.

  Smiling and nodding, she knew that some things children shouldn't ask too much about. She was happy to pretend to be silly, "Got it, Daddy and Mommy can rest assured."

  "Gu thought that the head of the household would take his wife somewhere, and in his heart, he had a plan. However, these things were not for him to ask about, what he needed to do was to wholeheartedly help them take care of the little princess. "That store is not far from here, shall we walk there?"

  "Okay, I'm full, just in time for digestion." Xiao Xiao obediently walked forward and held Uncle Fang's hand, smiling and bidding farewell to her dad and mom, "Dad and Mom, goodbye."

  With this little elf around, the atmosphere is always easy to relax. About to set off to Jiang's house, Ye Shanshan didn't show any special tension either.

  However, as the car gradually entered a special section of road, Ye Shanshan's face still showed a few threads of restless unease.

  "Don't be afraid, Deputy Commander Jiang is not more serious than Dad." This section of the road had no traffic, so Gu Bei Chen could drive with one hand and use the other to comfort her.

  "Dad is not strict, he just doesn't like to talk." Towards Director Gu, Ye Shanshan only had respect, never fear.

  "You can think of it this way, then I'll just say it like this: Deputy Commander Jiang is more talkative than our dad."

  "Whether he is serious or talkative, anyway, when others ask me something, I just answer truthfully."

  Under Gu Beichen's patient comfort, Ye Shanshan's expression seemed to calm down a lot. However, when she and Gu Beichen appeared shoulder to shoulder in front of Deputy Commander Jiang, the old commander was still startled, "Little Gu, this... little girl is your wife?"

  "Yes, didn't you personally see my marriage certificate? It's written there how old she is." Even facing the military district's old leader, Gu Bei Chen remained calm and composed.

  Upon hearing Gu Beichen's reminder, Lao Shou Zhang quickly reacted, "I remember now, she is not of age yet, you applied for special approval."

  "Hello, I'm Ye Shanshan." The old captain was so friendly and smiling that Ye Shanshan plucked up the courage to take the initiative to greet him.

  "Was it you who got that rascal from our family thrown into jail?" Deputy Commander Jiang's face always wore a warm smile, without the slightest hint of being a high-ranking military officer.

  "Yes." Since she had come here, Ye Shanshan had already steeled herself for this. This was just one word, and she answered with unusual succinctness.

  The old chief ordered the servant to serve tea while beckoning the first tough guy of the Seventh Division and his wife to sit in the small living room, "Tell me about what happened."

  "Is it that as long as what's being said is the truth, anything goes?" Before opening her mouth to report on the situation, Ye Shanshan felt it was very necessary to understand Old Chief's temperament clearly.

  "Alright, anything goes." With these words from Old Chief, Ye Shanshan was essentially given a get-out-of-jail-free card.

  "This matter must be traced back to its origin, and you can't shirk your responsibility." As soon as Ye Shanshan spoke, not only did Old Chief Jiang jump in fright, but also Gu Beichen sitting beside her was startled. She had been asked to report the situation at that time, how could she drag the old chief into this?

  The old chief was indeed very interested, "Oh, what did I do wrong?"

  "How can you let him drive the military vehicle so recklessly?" Ye Shanshan was the type of girl who became bolder and more daring when she got excited, and once she got into a state, the energy that burst out was beyond her own control.

  Lao Shou Zhang was about to speak when Ye Shan added another sentence, "I also heard that the car is your personal vehicle."

  Gu Beichen didn't expect her to be so bold, and seeing the old captain's expression was somewhat strange, he also didn't know how to respond.

  Everyone was silent, and Ye Shanshan also felt a bit awkward, "Did... did I say something wrong?"

  "No, you're absolutely right. If we're going to investigate this matter thoroughly, I'm the one who's ultimately responsible. It's my fault for not teaching her properly!" The old chief, who had been looking serious just a moment before, suddenly burst out laughing, with a warm and joyful smile spreading across his face. "Little Guo, your little girl has some spirit."

  Gu Beichen smiled humbly and said, "The old captain is overpraising me, she's young and speaks without measure, please don't mind."

  "What she said is all true, why should I blame her? In this world, there are many people who speak eloquently, but it's hard to find those who dare to tell the truth." The old chief's smile came quickly and went away just as fast. With a grandson like that at home, laughing so heartily seemed somewhat out of place. "Little girl, continue."

  "Ah... you'd better still call me Shanshan, we're already married, it's not quite suitable to call me little girl anymore." Director Gu was sitting right next to them, properly and upright, so Ye Shanshan had to consider his face a bit. If the old director kept calling her "little girl", he must be feeling unhappy about it.

  "Go on, tell me in detail what happened and how that rascal from our family reacted." The conversation finally got back on track, and the old chief's expression turned serious.

  The orderly happened to bring in tea, and Ye Shanshan deliberately took a sip of tea before starting the formal report.

  The story wasn't complicated, she just picked out the key points to say. However, what she didn't expect was that the old boss was most concerned about the last sentence she said, "What did that little rascal say to you before he left?"

  "He told me to be more careful when walking in the future." Ye Shanshan could only repeat this sentence again.

  "This kid really thinks he's someone! The old chief was so angry that his eyebrows were furrowed, and he immediately had someone call the police station. With charges of drunk driving and hit-and-run added together, he'll have to lock him up for at least a month to teach this mixed-up kid a lesson!"

  "Now you can rest assured, he will be locked up in the detention center during your stay in B city, even if he has three heads and six arms, he won't dare to bother you."

  The old leader was indeed swift and decisive, and with just a few words, he dispelled Ye Shanshan's worries about her family.

  But he didn't know that Ye Shanshan was most worried about wasn't this, and what she wanted to talk about didn't know how to bring up with the old chief. Can't just bluntly ask 'Have you seen Director Gu's transfer application? Do you have any opinions?'

  She had this thought in mind, and Gu Bei Chen saw it all. Although it wasn't quite his style, he decided to probe indirectly into the old captain's intentions. "Colonel He mentioned his plans to change careers to me yesterday, and today he came to you, so I'll help him ask: has his application been submitted to you?"

  "It should still be with your superior, and even if it's fast, it will be after the New Year." The old captain did not deliberately avoid this topic, but for him, an old and cunning person, it was not difficult to guess the true intention behind Gu Beichen's question. "Why don't you ask your own?"

  "I'm not in a hurry, Commander He's leg injury isn't looking good, emotionally and logically we should prioritize his needs first." Although his thoughts were seen through by the old captain, Gu Bei Chen was still able to respond with ease.

  The old chief smiled ambiguously and said, "You're not in a hurry, but I can ensure that your family's Shanshan is."

  Ye Shanshan instinctively wanted to say "I'm not in a hurry either", but the words reached her lips and still didn't come out. If it's not from the heart, others won't believe it even if she says it.

  After a moment of silence, Ye Shanshan still said calmly, "There's no use rushing, this matter is not something that can be controlled by me and him."

  "Really is a honest kid." The old captain intentionally brought up the topic of Shanshan to see her reaction. Although her response sounded a bit naive, it was very consistent with her age and also very genuine. So, he didn't look disappointed at all, his face still had a smile on it, "However, since you've become a military wife, you should do well in waiting..."

  Ye Shanshan somewhat rudely interrupted the old village chief's kind reminder, "I know, no matter how long I will wait."

  "With you saying that, I can rest assured. The Seventh Division cannot do without your family's Director Gu now. Next year's spring joint military exercise will depend entirely on him. If he does well, it is completely possible for him to be promoted another level in three to five years." Old Director was not polite at all, someone else's child said how long they would wait, and he simply set a deadline for them.

  Three to five years?! Ye Shanshan was shocked, and secretly kicked Gu Shou Zhang's leg under the table. Wuuu, quickly tell Old Shou Zhang that you don't plan on rising up anymore! Although they say they'll wait as long as it takes, three to five years is a bit... too long.

  The leader smiled and took over the conversation, "I don't plan to continue climbing up, my parents are old and need someone to take care of them, Shanshan is still studying, and at home there's a younger one who needs her to take care of, I'm afraid it won't be possible to take care of both. To be honest, I should hurry up."

  "Is that the kid from the Qi family?" The old chief had a great memory, and although it was several years ago, he still remembered it vividly.

  "Yes, Shanshan and the child live alone outside." After finishing speaking, Gu Bei Chen unapologetically held his wife's hand in front of Lao Shou Zhang, "During the day, she has to attend classes, at night, she has to do household chores, and on weekends, she also has to work part-time jobs to earn money. She works much harder than I do."

  "If you want to study, why don't you live with your parents?" The old village chief asked Ye Shanshan.

  "We've all become a family, so we have to learn to be independent and can't always rely on our parents." When it comes to her own concerns, Ye Shanshan's tone also becomes cautious.

  The old man sighed lightly for no reason, "If that rascal in our family had a bit of sense like you have on one finger, I'd laugh out loud even in my dreams."

  "That... living environment is different, can't be compared." Ye Shanshan's expression looked a bit awkward, with a grandson like this who doesn't let people worry at home, the old chief must not feel good in his heart either.

  "Indeed." The old chief nodded in agreement, recalling the hardships of this little girl living alone with a small child outside, and his heart was still somewhat moved. "Don't worry about the job transfer, we will follow the procedure, as long as the work here can be handed over, G city has a suitable vacancy, it should be approved by next year."

  The old leader personally made such a promise, and Ye Shanshan couldn't control his emotions for a moment, excitedly standing up, "Really?"

  "Don't get excited, both conditions must be met at the same time, and only then will the application possibly be approved." The old chief reminded cautiously.

  "It's good to have a deadline." Ye Shanshan was still so easily satisfied, although there was no exact promise, but for her, one year was a completely acceptable deadline.

  Ye Shanshan had already guessed what he wanted to say, and hastily interrupted him, "The second condition is not worth worrying about, Dad has always been helping you pay attention. You're so capable, are you afraid that no one will want you? Now you just need to complete the task here quickly and cultivate a trustworthy successor."

  Gu Bei Chen was rendered speechless by her comrade's words, "You really took the old captain's words to heart? The troops are full of talent, and it wouldn't make a difference if anyone were missing."

  "That's true, but someone as experienced and capable as you must be wanted by the higher-ups to stay here." The others in the unit had their own strengths that Ye Shanshan didn't know about, but in her heart, Director Gu was the most formidable, and sometimes she even thought he was irreplaceable!

  The principal was delighted by this unconscious praise, and the smile on his face grew wider. "Are you indirectly flattering yourself?" Little silly girl, she really can talk, and has both courage and strategy.

  Ye Shanshan's face didn't show any embarrassment at all. "What I said is the truth, in my heart, you are the best, no one can compare to your awesomeness."

  "That's it, you know my strength best." Cough cough, a certain leader is really getting more and more...not harmonious!

  "You..." Ye Shanshan was so angry she wanted to jump out the window, her good mood ruined just like that. This person really, how can they casually bring up that matter again, it's really a waste of all those years of strict military training, how can their thoughts be so impure!

  Everyone is so angry that they are about to blow their top, but a certain leader still deliberately pretends to be stupid, "I'm talking about work ability, where did your impure brain go?"

  Ye Shanshan intentionally put on a cool expression, coldly glanced at him, "Believe you? You must be kidding, with that sly smile on your face, you're definitely up to no good!" Hmph, full of evil thoughts in his head, and yet he dared to say she wasn't pure.

  The car soon drove into the normal road section, and Gu Beichen's expression turned serious. "Remember what Deputy Commander Jiang said earlier, don't tell Xiaoxiao and your parents, lest they worry, it's not a sure thing, the fewer people who know, the better."

  "Got it." Even if he didn't remind her, Ye Shanshan wasn't planning to mention anything to anyone. The variables in the troops were too great, and until the last moment, no one knew what would happen. However, this trip to the Jiang family did make her think of what her mother said to her before she left for France. At that time, she didn't take it seriously and hadn't thought about meeting a high-ranking official who spoke with weight. She hadn't made any plans either. Unexpectedly, all of this really happened. Moreover, she hadn't deliberately sought anything out, and they had also considered the actual needs of their family.

  It seems that people should do more good deeds, God is watching, as long as they are kind-hearted and do good things, they will eventually be rewarded.

  When the couple arrived at the meeting point, Fang Yi happened to be leading Xiao Xiao back. Good guy, they didn't waste the hard-won opportunity at all, and almost every flavor was bought in two boxes. Poor Fang Yi, his hands were full of shopping bags, and he walked a bit awkwardly.

  "Can you finish eating so much?" The pastries are freshly made, and they won't taste good if left for too long. Ye Shanshan was worried that Xiao Xiao only focused on eating them and didn't want to eat dinner.

  "It's not just for me to eat, the strawberry and pineapple flavors are for Mommy to buy, and there's also Daddy's favorite sweet orange flavor. Uncle Fang helped line up for so long, we should at least get him two boxes." It turns out that this little devil had already made arrangements, and even considered Uncle Fang who wasn't a family member.

  "I won't have any, you can just leave it for her to eat." The opportunity to accompany Little Princess in line to buy mille-feuille isn't something everyone gets to experience, Comrade Fang doesn't dare ask for compensation.

  However, what he didn't expect was that Director Gu's family's reward for him had only just begun.

  "Don't be polite, being called to drive during the holidays is also tiring. Just accept our good intentions. If you're not uncomfortable, come over to our place for dinner later, after all, Chinese New Year is about reunion and a lively atmosphere with more people. Smiling has learned from her mother, she knows how to repay kindness."

  His wife and children were so enthusiastic that Gu Bei Chen couldn't say anything. Fang Yi rarely took a break, but he was pulled over to busy himself with this and that, and he should show some appreciation for them.

  After returning, Gu Bei Chen still had to busy himself with sorting out the special task report from this morning, so the heavy responsibility of cooking could only be handed over to Ye Shanshan.

  Xiao Fang enthusiastically came forward to offer help, but was politely declined by Ye Shanshan, "You'd better go play games with Xiaoxiao, I can handle these dishes."

  Watching the director's wife skillfully marinating chicken, Fang Wei couldn't help but feel a sense of admiration: It's really unexpected, at such a young age, she has such great culinary skills. Director Gu is truly blessed, making people feel all sorts of envy and jealousy.

  Thinking of this, Fang Wei suddenly had a 'bad idea', "The day after tomorrow night, the new recruits' company is going to have a party with performances and games, do you want to bring Xiao Xiao along to join in the fun?"

  "It sounds like it's going to be quite interesting, and Xiao Xiao must be eager to go. However, this matter still needs to be approved by the leader first." This kind of activity is something that Ye Shanshan would really like to participate in. Most of these new recruits are spending their first New Year away from their parents, which isn't easy at all. Being able to personally experience their homesickness on the scene is also a rare experience.

  "It's not just the director's wife's words, I've figured it out, at home, Director Gu is absolutely obedient to you." Comrade Xiaofang's eloquence was in no way inferior to Pei Yun's, and when it came to flattering people, he was not vague at all.

  This tall hat is not easy to wear, busy turning around, nervously reminding Fang Yi to keep his voice down, "Shh... this must not be said casually, in our family whoever is right, whoever is right will listen."

  But unexpectedly, this scene was caught by Gu Shou Zhang who had just finished his work and came out to check on the progress of dinner. "What are you whispering about?" Even though they were separated by a distance of nearly five meters, he could still smell the strong sour smell.

  Ye Shanshan also smelled it naturally, but she chose to ignore it directly, "How can you finish so quickly?"

  "Hurry up and finish quickly, so I can come out and supervise you." The director still had a very dissatisfied tone.

  "Suit yourself!" Ye Shanshan said, taking off her apron and putting it on the principal's body. "Mom sent me another set of teaching materials, I'll go take a look. Call me when dinner is ready."

  "Hmph, you want to supervise? Fine, I'll just hand it over to you then. I'd rather be idle anyway..."