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  Chapter 179: Sealed Memories

  The classroom was silent, with everyone watching Qi Siyu and Ye Zhan. Qi Siyu looked at Ye Zhan with pleading eyes, gently tugging on his sleeve, pursing her lips, her eyes red, like a poor child begging parents for a beloved toy. And Ye Zhan, however, closed his eyes, stubbornly, firmly, ruthlessly, slowly shaking his head.

  "Yè Zhǎn......" Qí Sī Yǔ was already in tears: "Why don't you even want to talk to me? Yè Zhǎn, didn't you used to love me? Yè Zhǎn, hold my hand, just like how you used to secretly hold it during class."

  As she spoke, Qi Siyu reached out her hand to Ye Zhan. Ye Zhan still didn't react, so Qi Siyu used her own hand to touch Ye Zhan's hand. Ye Zhan was like he had been electrocuted, suddenly retreating several steps back, his face revealing some painful expressions.

  "Ye Zhan... hurt me again, spoil me again." Qi Siyu's tears fell like heavy rain, but Ye Zhan turned his face to the side, and I had never seen him so heartless before. "Ye Zhan..." Qi Siyu said with a sob, her legs bent, and she actually knelt down, "Touch my face, hold my hand, I promise not to be disobedient again..."

  I was stunned, never, never have I seen anyone love so humbly, for the sake of the one in their heart, they wouldn't even spare their dignity.

  "Are you crazy?!" Zhou Mo rushed over, grabbed Qi Siyu and pulled her up, then glared at Ye Zhan fiercely, dragging Qi Siyu to run out of the classroom. Qi Siyu turned back, urgently calling: "Ye Zhan, Ye Zhan..." but was still forcibly dragged away by Zhou Mo. Ye Zhan's face turned pale, slowly walking back to his seat.

  I also sat in my own seat and turned back to look at him: "Ye Zhan, are you okay?"

  Ye Zhan shook his head, indicating that he didn't want to talk, and then slowly lay down on the table. I had no choice but to turn back around. After reading for a while, I suddenly heard a loud breathing sound coming from behind me, like a wild ox. I turned my head around in surprise, only to see Ye Zhan still lying on the table, and the breathing sound was coming from his throat. At this time, Ye Zhan's head was lowered, and I couldn't see his face. I shook his shoulder urgently and asked, "Ye Zhan, what's wrong?" As I glanced at him again, I saw that there were sweat stains seeping through the back of his shirt. The classroom wasn't even hot, so why was Ye Zhan sweating so much?

  "Yè Zhǎn!" I bellowed, suddenly pulling his head up. Yè Zhǎn's eyes stared blankly at me, his entire forehead covered in dense sweat beads, his throat still emitting a wild buffalo-like gasping sound, looking as if he had just been startled awake from some terrible nightmare in the middle of the night, or as if he had inadvertently fallen into some painful memory.

  "Yè zhǎn, yè zhǎn?" I shook him, trying to wake him up. Seeing him like this made me feel very uneasy.

  "Don't come over, don't come over..." Ye Zhan's body suddenly started shaking, and his eyes revealed a fearful expression.

  I sprang up with a "hiss" and determined that Ye Zhan must have fallen into some kind of terrifying nightmare, firmly grasping his shoulders with both hands and shouting loudly: "Ye Zhan, there's nothing here, wake up for me!"

  At my loud shout, Ye Zhan seemed to wake up a bit, staring wide-eyed and recognizing me in front of him. His body was trembling like a frightened child. "Haozi, I'm scared... Haozi, I'm scared..." he whispered softly.

  "It's okay, it's okay." I patted him gently on the back and comforted him with words: "Nothing happened, we're in the classroom."

  Many classmates in the class looked over, I shook my head at them, and they all lowered their heads, pretending not to see this matter.

  I held Ye Zhan in my arms, as if comforting a frightened child. Ye Zhan's trembling body slowly calmed down, and his breathing also returned to normal. Ye Zhan lightly sighed: "Haozi, I'm fine now."

  "Hmm?" I said: "Why don't we go outside for a walk?"

  "Good." Ye Zhan nodded. The two of us then walked out of the classroom together, went down from the teaching building and strolled around in the campus.

  In the summer, this place is also lush with green grass, and many students like to recite books here. But now it's already deep winter, the small forest is covered in white snow everywhere, and Ye Zhan and I stepped on it, making crunching sounds.

  We found a stone table, swept away the snow and sat on the stone bench. It was very cold outside, and both Ye Zhan and I were shivering a bit. But seeing Ye Zhan almost fully recovered, this chill didn't seem like much anymore. Ye Zhan and I chatted casually, talking about our stories in City High, talking about when we first met on the street, and the atmosphere gradually became more cheerful.

  I asked Ye Zhan to talk about his past. He started talking, saying how he used to be bullied, then slowly gained a group of friends, and later also had a group of brothers, but unfortunately, due to limited personal abilities, they couldn't expand further. I changed the subject and said: "Tell me about your love story. You're so handsome and kind, there must be many people who like you?"

  "Yes." Ye Zhan nodded and said: "There were quite a few, starting from elementary school. I've received many love letters and gifts. However, I prefer gifts that show more thought, like the 999 paper cranes Mu Xiaomu gave me in high school. The paper cranes themselves don't have much meaning, but Mu Xiaomu's sincerity really touched my heart. And in junior high, there was someone named Lanlan who also had a crush on me. Every day, she would greet me with 'good morning' and 'good evening', no matter the weather, which also moved me..."

  Ye Zhan spoke with a happy smile on his face, slowly opening up to me about his past stories.

  "It's all thanks to Su Wan later." Ye Zhan said with a smile; "Haozi, thank you for introducing me to Su Wan. Su Wan is a very kind-hearted girl, although she talks a lot, but I like girls who are straightforward and carefree."

  I found out that Ye Zhan talked about his own love affair and directly ignored Qi Siyu, as if this person had never existed.

  "Leaf stretch..."

  "What?"

  "Didn't you also love Qi Siyu?" I looked at Ye Zhan seriously, on the one hand hoping to hear it, and on the other hand preventing him from falling into that strange nightmare again. I was certain that it must be a painful past for Ye Zhan. I didn't want to uncover Ye Zhan's scars, but I needed to know in order to prescribe the right medicine, so that I could negotiate with Qi Longliu and Liu Feng.

  Fortunately, Ye Zhan still had a very calm expression, smiling and saying: "Qi Siyu? Didn't I say that we loved each other for a short time, but later couldn't stand her arrogance and broke up? There's nothing more to say."

  I gazed at Ye Zhan seriously, or rather, stared at him. I realized that Ye Zhan was using a method similar to "self-defense" to wrap his heart around himself, temporarily sealing the painful memories away. Because in his eyes, I couldn't see any hint of deceit, just as if things were really as simple and easy as he said.

  But I knew that wasn't the case, otherwise the seven dragons and six phoenixes wouldn't have treated him like that, and he wouldn't have fallen into a trance in class. I couldn't wait to know, so I said seriously: "Ye Zhan, I want to know."

  "What?" Ye Zhan asked me with furrowed eyebrows.

  "About Qiziyu's matter." I said word by word: "I want to know what happened between you two."

  "We... we..." Ye Zhan's breathing became somewhat urgent as he fiercely pounded his own head with his fist.

  "What's going on?!" I hastily grabbed Ye Zhan's hand and urged, "Ye Zhan, if you don't want to say it, then don't. I won't force you." I was worried that Ye Zhan would fall into that stupid state again, the incident had such a deep impact on him.

  "No, no." Ye Zhan shook his head: "Haozi, I don't want to deceive you, I want to tell you..."

  "Then say it." I looked at him strangely.

  "But I couldn't remember." Ye Zhan slapped his own head: "I only remembered that I had done something extremely wrong to Qi Siyu, I knew that thing was terribly wrong, outrageously wrong, and viciously wrong. Because of that thing, I locked myself in the house for the entire summer after graduating from junior high; because of that thing, Qilong Liu Feng and I became sworn enemies."

  "How could I have forgotten?" I stared at Ye Zhan in shock, hardly daring to believe that such a thing had happened.

  "I don't know either." Ye Zhan knocked his own head, "I feel like I do know that thing, it's hidden deep in my mind, very clear and vivid, but for some reason, I just can't remember. Sometimes fragments flash by, but still can't be linked together, it's like having amnesia. However, my heart keeps telling me clearly that I did something wrong, I owe an apology to Qi Siyu. But somehow, when I see her, a sense of rejection arises from the bottom of my heart, as if it's an instinctive reaction."

  "What fragments were you referring to earlier?"

  "There were bloodstains on the floor, dirty bed sheets, an old TV set and a creaking fan. Ye Zhan said: 'And Qi Siyu's terrified face. I don't know what happened, but every time these scenes flash through my mind, it feels like my soul is being pulled out, and I'm drenched in sweat for a long time before I can recover.'"

  "Like just now in the classroom?"

  "Right." Ye Zhan nodded: "After Qī Sīyǔ knelt down, my emotions got a bit out of control. After Zhōu Mò pulled Qī Sīyǔ away, I sat back in my seat, but the whole person was a bit off, and it was still pulling me back."

  "What is it that you don't want to come over?" I pressed on.

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