♂?，，

  Chapter 152: The Contradictory Composite Body

  .

  After breakfast, we washed up and then went to school together. When we arrived at the entrance of Beiqi City High School, one turned left and the other turned right, diving into a day of study. Xia Xue was that kind of smart girl who could play and learn, casually studying and ranking top in class; while I was that kind of diligent student who would memorize and recite every day, also managing to stand out in class.

  It's just that I, a student from the ordinary class of Beiqi No. 7 Middle School, can't be compared to Xia Xue who is at the top of her class in the key class of Chenggao High School. In order not to fall too far behind and also to have a chance to attend the same university as Xia Xue in the future, I started studying even harder, even bringing my English book with me after school to memorize vocabulary. Every time this happens, Lu Xiang would shout: "Look! He was like that in junior high school, he didn't know anything except studying, always holding a book and not socializing with others, what a bookworm! What's the use of getting into Chenggao High School? Can't even stand up for himself and had to transfer schools?"

  Under Lu Xiang's tireless defamation, my classmates have always looked at me with disdain. This class has a lot of troublemakers, almost half of the class is like that, it's said that every class in Bei Qi has this scale. Fortunately, there isn't someone like Zou Yang who leads the way, I'm just studying hard and for now, no one has come to bother me. Although not many people pay attention to me, occasionally chatting with Zhou Mo is also a pretty interesting thing. Zhou Mo is indeed a cold beauty, basically doesn't talk to others, only talks to me in a few sentences, probably because she knows my secrets, that's why she looks at me differently.

  As for Lu Xiang, I'm really too lazy to bother with him. Even though he keeps pulling my whiskers, it seems that overall I can still tolerate it. For someone like me who has experienced the great winds and waves of the city, Lu Xiang's little tricks are unable to stir up too much anger in me.

  The case of Xiaoxue's father has not yet been tried in court, so I can continue to live at Xiaoxue's house. To be honest, since transferring to Beiyuan Middle School, except for the first day when I tidied up my bed in the dormitory, I haven't set foot in the dormitory again and don't even know who else lives there. It's not that I'm arrogant or aloof, but firstly, Xiaoxue and I spend most of our time together every day, so we really can't find any spare time to go back to the dormitory; secondly, I have a natural aversion to strangers, and my experiences in the past have taught me that being too friendly with people will only lead to being bullied.

  So I was at peace and went to pick up Xia Xue from Cheng Gao every day after self-study, and then went home to live our happy and sweet life together. Although we did it several times on the first day, later on we restrained ourselves, and even when sleeping, we were not in the same bed, still her in the bedroom, me in the living room, jointly maintaining the "after graduation" agreement.

  But before going to sleep, we always have a lingering moment. Sometimes on the sofa, sometimes in the bedroom. Always stopping at a critical moment, either she sends me back to the sofa or I send her back to the bedroom. One time in her bedroom, after another lingering moment and holding back, I was about to get up and go to the living room. Xia Xue pulled me back and said: "Let's chat for a bit."

  So I lay down, and Xia Xue put her head on my chest, whispering: "I feel so guilty."

  I curiously asked: "What sin? We don't have that."

  "It's not that reason." Xia Xue said: "It's Taohua. When I'm with you, I always feel like I'm wronging Taohua. Sometimes when we kiss, Taohua's image flashes in my mind, and she sees us together, but doesn't say anything, her heart must be aching to death. Wang Hao, Taohua holds a very important place in my heart, I really treat her like a younger sister, and thinking of her crying alone secretly makes my heart ache like it's been stabbed with a knife."

  After listening to Xia Xue's words, I fell silent. In fact, wasn't I the same? When I was with Xia Xue, Momo's face would also flash in my mind. What's even more embarrassing is that sometimes when I'm holding Xia Xue, I occasionally think she's Momo. Of course, it's just a fleeting image, and every time this thought flashes by, I quickly command myself to focus on being with Xia Xue.

  I know I can never thoroughly forget Taozi. That gentle little person is hidden in a corner of my heart, and from time to time she jumps out to declare her existence. Moreover, most of the time, I feel that Taozi is sad. She has always been good at hiding her emotions, and would rather cry quietly in bed than come to me to talk about it.

  The soft and weak willow catkins in the sky can unknowingly occupy every corner, making us retreat without a place to retreat and block without a place to block.

  "Wang Hao." Xia Xue said again, "It's been over a dozen days, and I haven't gone to see Taozi yet. Why don't we go talk to her tomorrow? I always feel that she must be very sad now, and I'm worried about her, but I also don't dare to find her. Now that I'm with the person I am with, I'm afraid that if I appear in front of Taozi, it will make Taozi even more sad."

  I looked at Xia Xue and asked: "Will I be jealous if I go find Taozi?"

  Xia Xue shook her head: "As long as I don't see it, it's fine. Of course, even if I do see it, there's actually nothing to it. I know Taozi won't do anything, she knows he's my boyfriend and absolutely won't do anything improper."

  I nodded, and Xia Xue was indeed very familiar with Taozi. As long as I had a girlfriend, Taozi would never let me touch her hair, not even just to stroke it gently, without thinking about it for a long time first.

  I hesitated and said, "What if Peach is slowly trying to forget me, and I suddenly appear in front of her, making all her efforts in vain? Wouldn't that be a great sin? It's better not to see her then."

  "It won't work," Xia Xue said. "Taohua will never forget. I can see it, her love for him is no less than mine, maybe even more. Taohua is the kind of girl who, once she falls in love with someone, will be devoted to them for life."

  I became even more silent after hearing that, is this considered ruining Peach's life? Xia Xue saw my expression and said sorrowfully: "It's all over, it's all over, my guilt is even heavier. What about Peach after we get married?"

  I suppressed the pain in my heart and said: "Xia Xue, why don't you introduce a good boy to Taozi? Maybe she can change her mind."

  "Are you willing to let go?" Xia Xue asked suddenly.

  I fell silent again. How could I bear to give up? I always felt that Xia Xue was mine, and Taozi was also mine. But this thought can only exist in my mind, I know it's not realistic, nor is it possible to come true.

  Xia Xue also said: "I don't want Peach to follow someone else either. I think that apart from me, no one else can match her."

  "Huh?" I found that Xia Xue was contradictory, and so was I. Perhaps Taozi was also contradictory. The three of us had fallen into a completely contradictory mixed state, entangling each other for the rest of our lives.

  "Do you remember Brick's proposal that day?" Xia Xue said, "He said we should all be together. At the time, I thought it was absurd and impossible. Either be with Taozi or be with me, this is not open to debate. But later I thought, maybe if we both follow him, it can alleviate my heartache and make our three lives less painful..."

  I stared at Xia Xue in astonishment, never expecting her to have such an idea.

  "Ah, ah." Xia Xue pounded her own head: "What am I thinking about? Of course love is one-on-one, how can I bear to share it with others? But sometimes I feel that if it's Taozi, then it's okay..."

  "I must have gone completely mad." I tapped Xiaoxue's head: "What nonsense are you thinking about, how is that possible?"

  "Yes, how is that possible." Xia Xue hugged my neck: "If we lived in ancient times, men could marry another wife. However, if it were really ancient times, and Taohua had already married, they would be considered a real couple."

  I know Xia Xue's idea is only temporary. She feels sorry for Taozi and can't bear to see Taozi sad, so she would say such strange things. We've already said that the three of us are in a contradictory mix.

  "By the way, what's going on with you and Taro getting married?"

  "Hmm..." I hesitated for a moment, then recounted what happened that day in detail.

  "Taizi has a good older brother." Xia Xue said: "This brickhead is really great. In the past when we ate together, he always protected us two, lining up to buy food and whatnot, never letting us chip in. I'm so envious that Taizi has such an older brother."

  "Actually, Brick also regards her as his sister." I said: "There's something else I don't know. That day when I was acquitted, Brick made me make a choice. I chose, and Brick got angry and wanted to hit me with a brick. Ye Zhan asked him, what if I had chosen Peach? Brick said he would still hit me, because Xia Xue is also his sister."

  Xia Xue listened and grabbed her head with both hands: "Ahhhh, what to do? This makes me look so selfish. Brickhead and Taozi are always thinking of me, but I only think of monopolizing them, it's so guilty ahhhhh..."

  I smiled, took Xia Xue's hand down and hugged her in my arms: "Don't think so much, love is originally blind and selfish. Although I also have a sense of guilt, I feel that it can only be like this, there are no perfect things in the world..."

  "No way, no way." Xia Xue said pitifully: "Wang Hao, let's go find Taozi tomorrow, otherwise I'll feel guilty to death.

  Complete works txt download, full text free, e-book, remember 77 reading books