My entire life was filled with a bleak atmosphere. Adding my bad memory it really was my entire life. More than half of my age was spent alone, working like a zombie. Then a quarter of it was spent alone, but, without even human contact.

  Now that I have the opportunity to change. It really hasn’t dawned on me yet, that I have so much in me that can make me change. I’m in another world, not carried by my sins. I’m in a body, free from all the weight I gained lazing around. I’m in a world of responsibility as an adult.

  I’ve said it before, but I failed. So, I’ll say it again. I want more, so I’ll change. Maybe I’ll fail again. But I’ll say it again. I’ll keep saying it till my mind is tired of it. I’ll keep thinking about it until my body moves on its own to follow my will.

  This is a chance I’ll never get again. There’s not even any more what if. This is my final chance. If people say the impossible only happens in fantasy, then if I, a human who had no talent in anything, I can only change in this world of fantasy.

  I can only change inside a human’s fantasy.

  Outside of the chamber, into a long corridor, a doctor was waiting for me. While I walked out, I was just wondering how to heal my hand, but it seemed that thought wasn’t necessary.

  “Can you please lend me your hand? Your Highness.”

  While I was reaching my hand out, I fell into a deep realization. I was just going out of the chamber filled with so many thoughts. Then, now that I was outside, there was not a single person in the corridor other than a single man wearing a white robe who looked like a priest. Yet he didn’t wear a single cross or any symbol of faith, so that could just mean he was a healing mage or a doctor. I would like to think he is the latter.

  But that entire thing wasn’t the main problem. The existence of the doctor itself was the problem. Why was he here? Why is there even a doctor waiting for me? I was hiding my left hand the entire time by covering it with my right and always having it pressed on my body. Yet a doctor was here? Just like that?

  I wanted to ask why a doctor was here, but I had a different idea. Suppose I was the crown prince. Suppose I was a man who the king saw like that. A being who he recognizes as the sole heir, then the original body really isn’t some simple.

  “I thought the one monitoring me was far on some mountain, but it seemed it was inside the forest.”

  “You’re hardly mistaken, Your Highness. I just have really good eyes.”

  I raised my eyebrows.

  “Huh.” I scoffed.

  “Well, I’ll be your personal doctor from now on. At the same time, I would be guarding and monitoring you for your entire life unless the King tells me to stop. No harm letting you know.”

  It was shocking to talk to the doctor. Not because of his calm demeanor, but just of how much context clues are being thrown in such a simple exchange. That made me wonder if I could even handle talking like that.

  Thinking about things and speaking in such a way as to not reveal the truth. It was so stupid. I mean, I wouldn’t lie it looks cool on the outside. Well, only for a few seconds until you die of embarrassment.

  However, it might just be because my thoughts inside and how I talked outside are conflicting with my heart. It is completely polar opposite that it’s, well, cringe. But I know that if I don’t talk this way, I will be seen as a complete idiot, someone who lacks the ability to “read” and someone who can’t even realize the intentions of others in just a single look.

  Well, I wasn’t anything like that. But… I was in another world. If the world is like this. Fuck my modern world standards. Why would I care about another world?

  I sighed slowly as mana started to escape his body and engulf my palm. Just as his mana was about to touch my skin, I forgot about the ki that I had placed to stop the bleeding. It was only then that I retracted it.

  “Hahaha! No need to fret. The King already told me. He allowed it, did he not?”

  I was about to reply to what he said, but then he continued to say something I was not expecting.

  “Either way, it seems you’ve also learned how to hide your mana.”

  Hide my mana? I thought. My mana was not hidden. As I felt the inside of my body, it was clearly radiating a ton of mana from my dantian. That sentence just made it clear that storing my mana in my abdomen, not my heart, completely makes mages ignorant.

  I simply didn’t reply, there was not really anything that came to my mind. At the same time, if I were to speak arrogantly like before, I would throw up. However, now that I think about it. Acting cute like a little girl doesn’t sound worse than right now.

  His mana sipped into my entire hand, only stopping at the entrance of my forearm. Then in such a fast pace that I couldn’t see clearly, his mana erupted and dispersed along with the hole inside my hand being completely healed.

  My eyes jumped at such a sight. Sadly the doctor wasn’t looking at me, so I couldn’t gain any more information from his reaction, but is a good thing I don’t have to overly analyze into something so simple again. Well, that’s not so bad, though.

  Once my hand was healed, the doctor, introduced himself. “Oh, I forgot, my name is Orfield, Your Highness” His bright smile became bigger and stayed like a statue. Other than all the other features that I already observed, he also looked quite young despite being much taller than me.

  “Oh.” A thought immediately struck my mind. “Are there any mirrors in my room?”

  Orfield was taken aback. His head bounced and his eyes looked left and right on the empty corridor. “Why do you need a mirror, Your Highness? That.”

  “Just answer the question.” Does every word have to have a meaning to you? What is this guy?

  “Yes.”

  “Then, let’s go, I don’t think Father changed my room by any chance, right?”

  “Yes, why?”

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  Actually, I don’t even know why I said that either. So the only thing I could think of to reply to his question, was simply, ignore it.

  “Lead the way, I don’t like people standing behind me.”

  Orfield chuckled and he went along as I followed. The entire palace, including the outside, was incredibly large. Unlike what I saw outside the city, it was less than a fraction of the size. Just the hall itself took a few minutes to get out from. Then once we reached the backend of the palace where many other mansions lay, it took another few minutes of walking on a path to reach my place.

  Unlike what I know of in other fantasy stories, it seemed every family member of the royal family had their own mansion. They were filled with beautiful gardens and many servants. It was like the suburbs, houses that all looked alike placed evenly with each other. Though, if the suburbs are like a row of houses that feels like a maze, the palace just had such huge mansions that it could pass as the residential homes of giants.

  Then, at the end of the palace, bordering the gates to the city, was my mansion. I was greeted by a long line of workers whose faces were filled with so much sweat that it looked like they just got out of the pool. I walked the laid path and smiled brightly at each one of them. Every stare I gave made their body shiver.

  While the outside people treated me with such respect, the people greeting me now were full of fear in their eyes. Just what did I do to these people? I hurried inside, just ignoring everyone else. Then I followed Orfield as he went to my room, ignoring every line he threw at me.

  “Well, you can go in, I won’t be following you though, the King at least told me I should give you a little privacy.” His huge smile never wavered.

  I entered my room and immediately closed it before even looking inside. The halls in the palace were huge, and the gaps in each door were just as wide. When I was living on earth, my room was a single-bedroom apartment where I only slept and ordered food. Now I was about to look behind me into a room fancier than anything I’ve ever eaten, wider than my parent’s home, and grander than any drawing I’ve seen.

  At the edges of my eyes, I had already witnessed that the room was about 10 meters wide, which was just absurd. Like opening a gift on Christmas, I savored every reveal, so then I looked up. My room was on the first floor of the mansion. Just looking from outside it was at least 3 floors. But as I looked at my ceiling I got why it was so big.

  A whole golden chandelier the size of a bear was on my ceiling. It stretched up to the second floor. My room itself not only extended like a classroom but even to another floor itself. Just what is inside this room?

  I took a deep breath and inhaled slowly. There was no time to wait, I had to look behind me immediately. The tension and expectation can’t keep me waiting. So I did, entering freedom.

  The middle of the room was a spacious place with a small 2-meter-length sofa in front of a tiny circular glass table. At the same time, the table was placed in the middle of a circle detailed with intricate patterns that stretched to walls filled with half-cylindrical pillars. To the right were a few desks and chairs along with cabinets all etched with gold and marble. Finally, to my right was my bed with white bedding and golden silk layered on top with a lot of pillows, while the bed frame was made of gold. Then another small chandelier was placed on top.

  I don’t know if this is soundproof or monitor proof! But I wanna just jump up and down on the bed! As I smiled in the direction of my bed, there was a handsome young child who looked like a model with dashing white hair smiling at me. Wait. That’s me!

  My jaw dropped. If I could rate my past self out of 10, I would rate myself a generous 5/10. 10/10, I definitely would make anyone fall in love with me, what the fuck kid! Why the fuck are you looking so handsome at a time when bathing every day wasn’t even common! Fuck you! Fuck you!

  I hated good-looking people if you couldn’t notice. Well, now that I was a “good-looking” person… I still hate them. For me, people who had good looks and amazing talent were the worst of the bunch of humanity. They were far too blessed while I wasn’t. It was due to blatant envy. I wouldn’t advise people on them, not because I am one, but because. Never hate people who look good and have talent. They don’t have it easy, okay? Take it from me, I have experience.

  Then I slapped my face. After a slap imbued with mana, I thought that that act was definitely noticed by Orfield. It would make him confused about my antics, so that gave me an idea. First I raised my hand, then flipped them off. I don’t care if it meant wanting to have sex in this time, Fuck you!

  I just made sure to do it with both hands and dragging it across all directions then I just have to smirk after a few seconds, so I don’t include it into the wanting to fuck and confuse others that… I… do… I made a grave mistake. That I would happily jump about!

  After a few seconds of deep regression, I jumped happily, spreading my mana in the air and absorbing it after landing just to add more confusion if someone was really watching me. Once I reached the bed, I jumped one last time and buried myself into the soft silky bed of the royal prince.

  “Ahhhh… this is the best shit.” I flipped myself up and looked at the chandelier.

  This is my fifth day in this world, though I’ll consider it four days too, whatever actually, I don’t care. Days? Who the fuck gives a shit, I’ll change. I will. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change. I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  I’ll change.

  The door came knocking on the King's room. He waved his hand and turned the knob as Orfield walks in.

  "Why report this early?"

  "I know it for sure."

  The king stared at him intently, closing the book he held and shutting the door. Then a field of magic surrounded the two in the form a tube, blocking any sound to come in and out.

  "The Crown Prince is dead."

  "I told you to find out who he is, not tell me that."

  "He's not from this world, Luther."

  The king's eyes glowed and the magic barrier shattered. Orfield immediately turned around and left the room.