All I need is me

  Yeah

  In the end

  It's all just me.

  Words repeating in my head

  Trying to be a belief

  Against that voice that whispers

  They are here and near.

  All I need is me

  Yeah

  With all those scars

  I can't have more than me.

  Even if they hurt

  Even if they bleed.

  Tears running down my pillow

  Another night of no sleep

  Spent in the harrow

  Of killing the only thing I need.

  I know all I need is me

  I have to know

  I have to believe

  Because others are not near

  Not a mile

  Not a street.

  So I walk down the road

  Soaked from head to toe

  Wondering if at the end

  Is anything worth fighting for.

  It seems weird

  Having all you need

  Yet aching for everything in between

  Hollow middle

  Hollow being

  A hole where your heart should be.

  Because it's probably not that you are all you need

  But that you are all what you have

  No matter what scene

  Misery is it or serene.

  Hey you

  You are all you need

  Tomorrow, today and yesterday

  You are all you will ever need.

  So, please

  Please

  Forget about being complete.

  Because for people like us

  Dreams end with tears

  Tears in your eyes

  Tears on your hands

  It always just ends up with a tear.

  I walk down the road

  The rain is loud and strong

  It washes the wish of before

  Of having someone to call my own

  Of having someone that is not buried in my bones.

  With the rain comes the blood

  Like washing dirty mud

  It soaks the streets and the sky above

  And the world turns on its axis and runs.

  So much blood

  So many scars

  Just

  What am I fighting for?

  What is at the end of the road

  What was at the start

  What made me ever think

  I can move on

  In this bloody world, I call my own?

  So much blood yet people go

  Come and go and come and go

  Maybe I'm silent maybe I'm mute

  Even though I can feel the sorrow tearing my throat

  Maybe I'm water maybe I'm clear

  Like a mirror maybe they don't see.

  Come and go and come and go

  Always like a ticking clock

  They go and row

  Down the streams of my blood, they row

  Leaving and forgetting with a boat full of laughs

  I watch their fading backs

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  Watching my blood leading their way back

  And I think that it's how it is

  It is how it should be.

  Because all I need is me

  Even if my blood sings and streams

  All I need

  Is me.

  The time moves around my feet

  I'm standing somewhere

  Probably from fear

  Frozen with the reality of who I have to be.

  Reality was always so severe

  The heartache and the screams

  Always so severe.

  The time moves and I mimic its ticks

  Tick tock, I sing.

  Balancing on a thin thread with no wings

  I sway with the wind and sing.

  Tick tock tick

  How much more til I leave?

  Tick tock tick

  How much more is left of me?

  I open the windows to the sun

  Letting it chase out the dark

  Not needing darkness to be aware

  That night is always there.

  I open the windows and wave

  At the birds flying on their way

  To a home they always change

  And marvel at their brave

  With a heart that's still weeping in its first home

  I marvel at their brave.

  They sing in the vast skies and I laugh

  Because who other than birds can make leaving not so sad?

  I laugh and hold my battered soul

  Hearing it open the door and peak

  At a scene it never really knows.

  Always leaving

  Always in joy

  How?

  It wonders, torn.

  I stay silent because I don't know

  Because I who broke down on every road

  Can't possibly know the joy of the birds and their soars.

  Stumbling on words

  It became a hobby, a chore

  Always struggling to explain

  Why is it I'm so far away

  Always struggling in my struggles

  Because circles have always empowered

  The mind of a ten-year-old

  That thought of them as endless worlds

  And she grew up and knew

  Endless she was right

  But worlds is far away from their sight.

  They are endless and they end

  More than you can understand

  More than she did.

  They ended a child

  Ended a life

  Created a monster

  That doesn't stop circling itself

  Like a predator with no prey

  The only prey it found

  Was the fragile star inside.

  It flickered in the day

  Flickered in the night

  Never finding the right time

  And if the predator ever won

  No court would welcome it in

  Because if there is ever a win

  The only name it would be called

  Is a being that killed itself.

  Nobody can save you nobody can

  Nobody is coming nobody will.

  It's written in the rules with all your blood

  All you need is you

  No

  You are grown enough

  To know the truth and know what it is.

  You are grown enough

  And it was written in the rules

  That you, the ten-year-old child

  Will always

  Have just you

  And that it has to be enough.