"Why?" he asked. Just because he was one step late, unable to save her before Wei Zhe did. So she could hurt him so unscrupulously now?

  "You have no heart." Seeing her silence, Shang Qi opened his mouth again. His tone was deeply hidden and difficult to detect, a sense of desperation.

  Gu Xiyan suddenly met Shang Qi's icy cold face, her heart skipped a beat, feeling a little sour and painful. She knew he didn't love her, but his current indifference still made it hard for her to accept.

  But, Gu Xiyan, isn't this what you wanted? You wanted to diverge from the intersection with this man. You wanted him...to be happy. Instead of wasting his youth by your side. A man as excellent and outstanding as him will have many, many women who love him. What right do you have to delay his path to happiness?

  After reminding herself, Gu Xiyan suddenly felt that the sadness in her heart was nothing. As long as she remembered that she wanted him to be happy, that was enough. Everything else could be forgotten. If she paid too much attention to it, life would become very bitter. And she had only wanted to spend the rest of her life without a care anyway.

  "Give me a reason that can convince me." Chang Yi suddenly let out a light laugh. What was he dissatisfied with? She had never made any promises to him. No matter how much he calculated, it was just his own one-sided wishful thinking.

  "Okay, sorry. From now on, I want to sleep with Yan'er. If you find someone who moves your heart, then let's get a divorce." Gu Xiyan stood up from Shang Yi's arms, brushed the hair beside her ear back, and said softly... Her words were meant to be kind and selfless.

  Gu Xiyan's words made Shang Yiqi furious. "You're so eager to go back to your old lover, huh? What's wrong with me? Am I not good enough for you?" he thundered. Shang Yiqi completely ignored Gu Xiyan's repeated headshakes. "Gu Xiyan, what did you say before? Did you swear that everything between you and Wei Zhe was a lie? Or do you think I, Shang Yiqi, am so inferior that I must have you?"

  Sheng Yu's anger caused him to overturn the table, and the sound of pots, bowls, and basins hitting the ground was exceptionally loud. Gu Xiyan was also startled and took a few steps back.

  "I didn't." Gu Xiyan softly refuted, her head hung low. Shang Zhi directly assumed she was feeling guilty.

  Gu Xiyan didn't feel guilty. She was just sad. She knew he had put his heart into preparing lunch for her, but they hadn't even eaten a quarter of the meal before the rest of the dishes were all fed to the floor. She had easily let down his efforts.

  Can't you just stop being so good to her? She can't take it. It's also unaffordable.

  Shang Yi rarely had intense emotional fluctuations in this life. In most cases, he was always a calm onlooker. He would genuinely and sincerely laugh, but only with a few people. He would also feel distressed, but only in front of specific individuals would he reveal it. And at this moment, in his heart, there was an unspeakable hatred.

  Irrelevant complaints. He has been good to her for so many years. Ben doesn't want her to be grateful to him either. He just hates her. Hates how she can be so indifferent to him. Divorce. She probably didn't have this idea for the first time today, did she?

  He hated himself even more. She had made it clear that she wanted to push him away, but why did he still want to hold on to her? Even if she didn't love him, and loved another man instead, he couldn't bear the thought of letting her go. He hated that he couldn't make a clean break. When had he ever been so indecisive before?

  Afraid, just afraid. Wanting to hold on by oneself. She doesn't care anyway. If there wasn't Yan'er's existence, would she have long since planned to abandon him? That's right. How come he always overlooked the fact that she didn't love him? Now thinking about it, he was foolishly hoping to raise offspring with her. It's just pitiful and laughable.

  Kid. How could he forget? She didn't want his child either. If it were that man who made such a request, wouldn't she have agreed long ago?

  Shang Yi turned around, not wanting to see Gu Xiyan's still beautiful and delicate face again. There were many things he deliberately didn't think about. He just didn't want to add trouble for the two of them. Now that she had already explicitly said she wanted to give up on him, whether he remembered one more thing or forgot one more thing didn't matter. Anyway, she wouldn't care either.

  Shang Yi didn't know. Gu Xiyan's face at this moment was not a bright and beautiful sight, but rather dull and gloomy, with a heart that had lost all hope and enthusiasm. Hmph, the relationship between them was indeed fragile and easily broken.

  Two hands simultaneously reached up to her face. Gu Xiyan wiped away the tears on her cheeks with both hands. A faint smile reappeared at the corner of her mouth. Shang Yi started walking towards the gate, while she gazed after him with warmth, her eyes filled with only blessings.

  Wish you happiness.

  The pain on her back was like being scorched by fire. Gu Xiyan's mouth was bitter. In fact, even without these injuries, they wouldn't be able to stay together forever, would they? The word "child" - this sensitive term - was the chasm between them. Perhaps she had been moved by sentiment before, but after careful consideration, she would realize that reality could never be as perfect as her imagination. Being pregnant with a child by someone who didn't love her... She knew she couldn't do it, no matter how much he spoiled her.

  When Shang Yi walked to the door, Gu Xiyan still didn't make a sound. From the living room to the front door, 78 steps, each step he consciously paused for a moment. Even he himself didn't know what he was expecting. Was he expecting her to come to her senses and tell him she shouldn't have said those words? Or was he expecting her to say she loved him?

  Stop deceiving yourself. The beginning of the transaction was somewhat sad. But it's true that he still wanted to turn his head and take a look at her. He wants to use her joyful appearance to remind himself of her cruelty to him.

  The moment Shang Yi turned around, Gu Xiyan also happened to turn her head and bend down to pick up the mess on the ground. He could only see her movements, not a hint of panic, calm and composed.

  It turns out that his deep-seated hatred and resentment were just a fleeting cloud in her eyes.

  "There's no me, you'll live well, even better, right?" Something icy and elastic was stuck to Gu Xiyan's earlobe. Gu Xiyan's hand trembled. The glass shards in her hand fell to the ground. 'Clang' sound. The fragments were divided into even finer pieces.

  "Tell me." Xie Qi stood up, pulling her with him. There was a hint of inexplicable sadness in his tone.

  Gu Xiyan looked like a child who had done something wrong and didn't dare move.

  Will live better. Gu Xiyan suddenly realized. She seemed... to have never thought about what a day without him would be like. All these years, she had long been accustomed to his existence.

  If one day, he no longer holds her in his arms like he does now; if one day, when they meet, he whispers sweet nothings to another woman; if one day, from his eyes, she can no longer see the warmth and affection he once had for her, but only sees his cold indifference; if one day, he really tells her, "I've fallen in love with another woman. I love her so much. Let's get a divorce"; if one day, his world no longer needs her presence...

  Is this really what she wants?

  Her legs went weak and Gu Xiyan was about to slide down. Her heart, which had calmed down, was stirred up again at this moment. Why did it have to remind her of the future? She didn't want to think about the future; a future without him and Yan'er; a future where she would be left alone; a future where they would become strangers.

  A misty haze shrouded her eyes. Gu Xiyan's pearly whites bit down on the tip of her tongue, until blood seeped out from above. The tears swirling in her eye sockets were forced back and then surged forth again. Plump, round teardrops fell one by one, carrying a hint of warmth, rolling down her powdered cheeks, flowing into her snowy neck, and disappearing without a trace.

  The suppressed sobs could no longer be held back, and Gu Xiyan burst into loud wailing. She needed to vent her emotions thoroughly, even if it meant being seen as unreasonable.

  Later, Gu Xiyan cried. Crying and crying, she laughed again. That laughter was filled with sorrow, piled up with despair, and stacked with inch-by-inch loneliness. She thought that if she were smart enough, she should grab the man beside her and follow him closely, making him discover his own goodness. Or, she could return to Wei Zhe's side. Even if his family didn't allow her existence, under his protection, she would still be able to live a good life.

  It's just about feelings. She was never smart enough. So, she wants to find another good person and also wants to break off her relationship with Wei Zhe. Is she stupid? Gu Xiyan smiled slightly. Maybe.

  Shang Yi blamed himself for being too soft-hearted. Why did she just shed a few tears and he immediately felt heartache? He quickly hugged the person in front of him into his arms, letting her cry and throw a tantrum as much as she wanted, but he refused to let go. Silly girl, he sighed.

  I'm exhausted from crying. I'm exhausted from shouting. Gu Xiyan stared straight ahead, her eyes wandering. Thinking of the person who held her, Gu Xiyan hid her own sorrow. "I'm fine. I just suddenly wanted to cry a lot. You can go."

  There was still a hint of trembling in Gu Xiyan's words. She warned herself, weakness, just this once. From now on, no matter how sad and heartbroken she was, the wound would only be licked by her alone.

  The hem of Shang Yi's clothes was stained with her tears. He found that her emotions had calmed down a bit. Just as he was about to let out a sigh of relief, she said ruthlessly, "You can go now."

  "Alright, alright." Shang Yu suppressed his anger and forced a smile. He had been too sensitive. He shouldn't have come back. He loosened his grip on Gu Xiyan's hand. From now on, he would never again offer his pride to her for her to trample.

  "Don't bother cleaning the floor, I'll get someone to do it. From now on, you can do whatever you want. If you want to find that man, go ahead. Just remember one thing: as long as our marriage hasn't ended, don't let him touch you. As you wish. I'll find a woman who can move my heart, just like you said." With these cold words, Shang Qiu turned around and left without any lingering attachment.

  You want to be with that man. I'll let you have your way. Just go ahead then.

  Gu Xiyan's hand was still suspended in mid-air, subconsciously wanting to grab onto Shang Qi's clothes. Shang Qi didn't turn back around. She collapsed to the ground, her right hand pressing down on a shard of glass.

  Sensual blood threads. Clinging to the glass. Flowing out quietly.

  He finally didn't want her either. Gu Xiyan sobbed quietly, and in that instant, it seemed as if all the warmth of the world had left her far behind.

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