She gazed at Ruan Jianglin, her eyes somewhat drifting, and her originally cold face looked especially pitiful after a good cry.
Her eyes were dark and sunken, for she had not been sleeping well these days. She would often wake up in the middle of the night, sit up alone until dawn, watching the sky turn white at the horizon, accompanied by recurring lower back pain.
Tears dropped one by one, completely beyond her control.
The heavy snow outside the window is still falling from the sky, and this winter has been very bad for her.
Dragging a sick body and a broken heart, Ruan Jianglin was like the last straw that crushed her, giving her no chance to breathe.
It's New Year's Day, outside is decorated with lanterns and colored streamers, a sea of lights.
She sniffled and said expressionlessly: "Ruan Jianglin, let's end it here."
That was a tone she had never had before, without any emotional expression, like a dead water, not even ripples could be stirred.
She knew her temperament was cold and clear, but she had never shown it in front of him. To him, she was always the most enthusiastic one.
Ruan Jiang had always been in control since he was young, and it was only natural for him to receive the admiration of others.
A feeling is considered started only when he agrees, and it's considered ended only when he nods.
Ruan Jianglin was right, from the beginning, she knew he loved to play, it was herself who didn't hit the wall and turn back.
Now she's hurt herself, she doesn't want to knock herself dead, wants to turn back.
Her collapse over the past few days seemed to have been emptied by that one sentence.
"What's this, Jiang Yan?"
He snorted in laughter, is this supposed to be a threat?
At first when we were together, he made it very clear what he wanted, now what does he mean, is he regretting?
"Ruan Jiang Lin, it seems I overestimated myself and underestimated you. It was my own foolishness to think that you could change your ways. I was stubborn, insisting on a result that would forever be out of reach. I'm stupid, I'm silly, now I've had enough of both the good and the bad. But now, I'm really tired."
Her pair of somewhat hollow eyes stared straight at him, the desperate and heartbreaking eye color was a bit dull, and the tears seemed to have dried up.
Repetitive probing, back-and-forth sawing, she was about to wear herself out.
Ruan Jiang was taken aback for a moment, and roughly this feeling was like the sand in his palm, it had been slowly slipping away.
He didn't say a word, slightly pursing his lips, with an inscrutable expression on his face.
"Ruan Jianglin, you know, on the day of the first snow, I really wanted you to hold my hand. If only you had held my hand then, I would have forgiven you for not wanting to acknowledge me."
"And then there's that button, I almost spent all my money on it, but to you, it's not even worth mentioning."
"Juliet is the same, because it was a gift from you, I poured almost all my thoughts into it, but all I got in return was your one sentence 'it's just a pot of flowers, does it matter', you didn't care at all."
She said to herself, all her bad emotions were digested by one person, he never cared whether she was good or bad.
She bitterly hooked her lip, looking at Ruan Jianglin, he was probably too afraid to remember what she said.
He might be thinking, why can she remember such a small thing for so long.
"Ruan Jianglin, did you know? My mom jumped off a building. I've been burning with anger for an entire week. Where were you? What were you busy with?"
She spoke somewhat aggressively and interrogatively, a tone that Ruan Jianglin probably disliked the most when he heard it from her.
Jiang Yan suddenly remembered, he said he was on a business trip.
Actually no, he is busy chatting and laughing with others, flirting and being romantic, having a great time every night.
He muttered something, trying to move his lips, but ultimately didn't say anything.
Jiang Yan couldn't see through him, every move of this man was tied to her heart.
Her nose suddenly turned sour, and this time she said it bluntly and decisively: "Ruan Jianglin, consider this house as the breakup fee you gave me. You also know I have nowhere to go."
He has always been generous, sending people villas, and now she only asks him for a two-bedroom suite, which is his gain.
The man's eyes fluctuated, rarely having such emotional fluctuations, and finally fell silent without speaking.
He has always been unwilling to make explanations, thinking that it is useless work, and there are no people or things that can make him willing to explain.
Jiang Yan didn't say another word, withdrew her gaze, entered the bedroom and closed the door.
After a long time, a loud sound of closing the door came from outside, and it can be seen that he had a big temper when he left.
Jiang Yan curled up her entire body in the quilt, with her head also buried in the pillow. Just before she was about to suffocate, she stuck her head out and laughed at herself for being self-inflicted.
The snow outside is falling heavily, and Beicheng is really cold this year.
Jiang Yan gazed out of the window, another sleepless night.
She has been performing her solo show with abandon.
It seemed like she had unilaterally declared an end to their relationship, and Ruan Jianglin never contacted her again.
She signed the exchange student agreement letter, Professor Qian was delighted and hoped she would make progress on that side.
The road ahead was uncertain, she once again stood at the crossroads, hesitated for a long time, but still had to move forward.
Jiang Yan planned to sell that house, she didn't have much use for it anyway. She listed it with an agent and soon there were buyers coming to view the property.
Jiangyan packed up her things ahead of time and planned to move into the student dormitory for a while, as her visa wouldn't be processed until after Chinese New Year.
Ruan Jianglin and Gu Qing have been on the hot search list for a whole week, with some people calling them the golden boy and jade girl, a perfect match, while others say it's just Gu's foolish fantasy.
Anyway, the topic has been heated up, Gu Qing's new movie was released after New Year's Day and broke 1.5 billion box office in less than a week, with a continuous upward trend.
It is said that Ruan Jianglin also contributed tens of millions of box office to his ex-girlfriend, and only he, Ruan Jianglin, was so generous.
This has exceeded the expected imagination of both investors and actors.
At the celebration banquet, the director asked Gu Qing to invite Ruan together, and others thought that the two must have a close relationship.
A second-rate director, a second-rate actor, and a second-rate movie can achieve such good results, and it's still on the rise, thanks to Mr. Ruan's help.
Gratitude comes second, invitation is first, probably wants Ruan Jianglin to invest in another film.
Everyone seems to be waiting for Gu Qing to make that call, but Gu Qing has always been a clever person, not greedy for what he can't have.
She has to learn to be content with what she has, and the conditions that Ruan Jianglin previously mentioned are limited to this.
She didn't want to lose face in front of Ruan Jiang either.
She smiled with satisfaction and unknowingly changed the subject with the director, which was equivalent to turning over this page.
(End of chapter)