She is worried that Ruan Jianglin was rejected by her and became afraid, so he doesn't want it anymore.

  Looking at the children of people around her growing up one by one, she is thirty years old this year, and Ruan Jianglin has also passed thirty-seven.

  It's not that she must have one now, it's just that the plan has been put on the agenda, and there is such a plan after all, since she doesn't intend to not have children.

  She still wants it, and Ruan Jianglin's child, she has always been looking forward to.

  She had never discussed this topic with Ruan Jianglin before and didn't know what he thought.

  That day after returning from Ruan's house, Jiang Yan went back to rummage through her trunk.

  It was the suspender Haruki gave her before as a wedding gift.

  At that time she thought it was too bold, holding it in her hand like a hot potato, burning her face with anxiety, so she hid it in the closet.

  After autumn arrived and the seasons changed, it couldn't be found anymore.

  That day she was alone at home, almost turning over the cupboard, and finally found that "garment" with only a few threads of silk.

  Good guy, one look is the type that Ruan Jianglin likes, what's the difference with not wearing it, Jiang Yan couldn't tell for a moment.

  She didn't dare change and stood in front of Ruan Jiang, somewhat flirtatious.

  Besides, it's getting cold in autumn, and she doesn't want to catch a cold either.

  Put it on and lie in bed, wrapped in a quilt.

  There was a moment when Jiang Yan felt like an imperial concubine in ancient times, waiting for the emperor to bestow his favor upon her.

  He worked overtime again tonight, and by the time Ruan Jiang returned, she was already asleep.

  It wasn't until the man's restless hands began to grope her that she woke up, and he had returned.

  He had a careless smile at the corner of his mouth, and a playful look on his face. He gently lifted her chin, "Why are you so enthusiastic today?"

  Jiang Yan lazily said, like a cat, shrinking back as he returned, "How come you're just getting back? I've been waiting so long I almost fell asleep."

  "Next time you have this urge, remember to tell me in advance." He stroked the woman's chin with his hand, as if teasing a cat.

  "But I'm sleepy."

  "Don't bother, I'm already burning with rage, it's gotta be extinguished." He said, his large palm continuously moving downwards.

  Also ignited Jiang Yan's body of fire, she took the initiative to kiss him, passionately responding, without a trace of sleepiness.

  "Ruan Jiang Lin, I want."

  He deliberately teased her, his hands still in motion, and asked in a low voice: "What do you want?"

  "Ruan Jianglin, let's have a child." She hooked her legs around the man's waist.

  Ruan Jianglin didn't say a word, as if he had heard it, yet seemed not to have heard it.

  He kept kissing her, leaving his own mark on her, his movements were not gentle at all, and could even be described as rough.

  He reached out to touch the holster in the drawer, but before he could, Jiang Yan stopped him.

  She pulled back his hand, her eyes staring straight at the man.

  Ruan Jiang let go of her hand, got up, tucked her quilt in for her, afraid she'd catch a chill. "Goodnight, sleep tight."

  Bare-faced perfunctoriness, that's the kind of person he is. When he can't respond, he'll abruptly change the subject.

  He didn't know how stiff his tone was when he changed the subject.

  She wanted a child, he was secretly delighted, but then self-deprecatingly suppressed this idea.

  He considered getting married a selfish act, after waiting for eight years wanting a result, he wanted to marry her.

  But the child, he didn't dare to want one, previously it was because he was afraid of her waist injury, so he never mentioned it again.

  Now he worries about dragging her down, and his body doesn't know how much longer it can hold on, maybe even five years is a problem.

  So he didn't dare to want a divorce, marriage can be divorced, but what about the child? It needs to be raised, and she is alone, he couldn't bear it.

  Ruan Jiang's second regret was that he had treated his own body so cheaply in the past, and as a result, he had fallen ill.

  Day after day of worry, he used to be a carefree person who believed in destiny and enjoyed life to the fullest.

  The fire in his belly seemed to have been suddenly extinguished by a bucket of water.

  Jiang Yan was taken aback, probably didn't expect it would turn out this way, but also figured it out, he indeed had concerns.

  She reached out to grab a blanket beside her and wrapped it around her body, kneeling down and hugging him from behind.

  "Ruan Jianglin, I'm here, don't be afraid." She placed her cheek on the man's back and said slowly.

  After a long time, the man finally responded with a "Hm."

  During that time, Jiang Yan didn't mention this topic in front of him, afraid he would overthink.

  However, as she looked at Jiang Yao's increasingly big belly, her overflowing motherly love was somewhat hard to conceal.

  She still had to put on a brave face in front of Ruan Jiang, somewhat reluctantly. Her every joy and anger was already clear to the man before her.

  After leaving Ruan's house, Ruan Jianglin took her hand in his and held it in the palm of his hand.

  "Jiang Yan, why are you so eager to have a child?" He slowly opened his mouth to ask, unraveling the knot in her heart.

  "I just want to have one with you."

  The man lowered his eyes and smiled, reaching out to gently pat her head.

  "What can I do? Jiang Yan, I really don't want you to be a widow." His eyebrows and eyes were filled with regret and desolation, his emotions tangled and fallen.

  Jiang Yan hugged him tightly, "Ruan Jianglin, trust me, it won't happen, let's just go with the flow."

  She herself didn't have the confidence either, she just wanted to take a gamble once, whether winning or losing was a matter of the future, she only wanted to grasp the present, after all now, Ruan Jianglin was by her side.

  "Alright, I believe you."

  Jiang Yan originally thought it would be fine to just go with the flow and didn't need to deliberately try to get pregnant at a specific time.

  This guy Jiang Lin is really something else, he got it right on the first try.

  Before entering winter, her own body had undergone some subtle changes, which she could feel.

  When she handed the pregnancy test stick to the man, he smiled.

  "Congratulations, you're going to be a dad!" She smiled with curved eyebrows and eyes, her belly was nurturing the continuation of her and Ruan Jianglin's life.

  "You're going to be a mom too."

  He opened his arms wide and Jiangyan rushed into them. She was becoming more and more enamored with this man's embrace.

  At the age of thirty-seven, Ruan Jiang completed many important things in his life and encountered many accidents. He broke his finger, had scars on his back, and he married Jiang Yan and had children.

  It was as if his life had been fulfilled that year, experiencing all the joys and sorrows.

  "Ginger smoke, thank you." He lightly sniffed the woman's hair, the faint fragrance was like her as a person, cold and clear, wrapping around his heart.

  "You're welcome," she smiled.

  She became pregnant and Ruan Jianglin took care of her even more meticulously, down to every meal and drink, every cold and heat, he was extremely meticulous.

  Later in the month, she got a bit bigger and had to be more careful with what she ate. At first it was okay, but later on she started craving more and more.

  She is a light-tasting person who would actually want to eat hot pot, she had to persuade Ruan Jianglin to agree.

  "Yuan Jiang Lin, I heard that if a man is very good to his wife during pregnancy, the child born will especially love their dad."

  "He must be dead in love with me." He handed over a cup of warm water.

  "That night, he will fall in love with you after eating hot pot."

  "Alright, tell the kid for me, don't fall in love with me, it's futile."

  It turns out that I couldn't casually set up a flag, only four chapters were left, and it seemed like I was stuck in this dead end.

  (End of chapter)