What? I looked at her, making sure she was talking to me. After that, my back started sweating, but who am I? I've been through life and death, so why would I capsize in this gutter? I tried to keep a straight face and said to her: "Nothing, just a paper towel."

  It was clear that this female invigilator was in her menopausal years, and she completely ignored my words, continuing to say: "Hand it over quickly, or I'll expel you from the examination room."

  Won't this time really capsize in the gutter? At this time, I didn't dare to resist her either, so I had to hand over the "paper" in my hand. She unfolded it and took a look, and it was just an ordinary yellow paper. On the spot, she wrote more than ten "" characters with a brush. Since it wasn't the answer, she didn't say anything. I thought to myself, you've seen it, now return it to me, damn girl! Who knew that after giving me a very pretentious look, she said: "Are you thinking of passing notes? Confiscated! If discovered again, it will be considered cheating and you'll be kicked out of the exam room!" After finishing speaking, she didn't give me any chance to explain and turned around with her butt back to the front of the lecture hall.

  It doesn't matter that she didn't collect this sentence, I almost peed my pants. Done, the boat capsized in the ditch as expected. Staring blankly at the first question on the exam paper:

  "What is the set of pre-images of 1 under the mapping f, where f: M → N, and f(x) = lg(1 + x^2), with M and N being subsets of the real numbers R?"

  How the hell would I know?! What is this?! Decoding secret codes?! I've been sleeping through math classes since sophomore year. Now that I'm a senior, looking at these things is like reading alien scripts.

  What a thrill! I had the urge to cry again. My brain was blank, and I sat there until the exam was almost over. I thought I should do something, so I picked up my pen and chose all the answers 'C' in the multiple-choice section of this test paper. After all, it's not for nothing that I've been at the bottom of the class for years. It's basically a psychological suggestion that those stupid Xs who make questions love to put the correct answer on 'C'. I looked up at the two invigilators and filled in two 'B's in the last two blank spaces. I dedicate the answers to these two middle-aged women.

  This is the experience of brothers for many years. If you're lucky, you can get 23 or 24 points out of 30 for multiple-choice questions. However, the total score of the entire exam paper will only be around 23 or 24 points.

  After the math exam, it's English. Now my mood has reached its worst point, the listening questions at the beginning of the exam, no matter how I listened, they sounded like chanting scriptures. Fortunately, there are more multiple-choice questions in the English exam, and with multiple-choice questions, I have a chance to grab points. As I was writing 'C' in the brackets, I suddenly remembered what Old Zhang said to me this morning: "You're really hopeless!"

  I cried, Old Zhang, you really guessed it right.

  English is the language, this is relatively simple for a Chinese person, as long as you have a bit of brains, you can get more than 40 points. To know that my composition was written quite fluently. Finished with tears in my eyes and handed in the paper.

  All the exams are over, and the college entrance examination has come to an end. I don't know how I walked out of the exam room, from the teaching building, the sunlight was so TM dazzling, the sky was so TM blue, and I had a kind of feeling like being in a different world again.

  At noon when we were having lunch, those guys in the painting room started chattering, saying something like they had finally made it after messing around for three years. Something like this time's topic is pretty simple too. Only I hung my head low, as if their words all carried knives, stabbing me with every sentence.

  Du Fei Yu looked at me like this, and she also knew roughly. She was originally very relaxed after the exam, but her mood now seems not so good either. I don't know why, is she worried about me? Or did she also fail the exam?

  We took the five o'clock train back to Heilongjiang, after dinner, I packed my things at the hotel and started daydreaming. Is this really the end of my future? No way, no way. With the professional course scores added, I should still be able to get into Harbin University. I must be able to. As I listened to the sounds of those guys in the other room playing wildly without restraint because they were relieved, I spaced out for an entire afternoon.

  5:20, the train departed. Sitting on the train, I suddenly realized that my mood was vastly different from when I came and when I returned. The train chugged along at a moderate pace, while the guys around me took out cards and started playing poker. Du Feiyu found it too noisy and went to the adjacent seat to meditate with his eyes closed. After a while, I also felt it was too loud, and suddenly wanted some quiet, so I got up and found an empty seat by the window to sit down.

  Looking out of the car window at the ever-changing scenery, the sun had just set, and the sunset cast a pink glow over the lush green trees and lawn, making me feel extremely comfortable. In this atmosphere, I started to hate myself for having thoughts of shouting at the sky but not having the courage to do so. Although I have experienced life and death and know what the world is like after death, in this real society, I was just a small kid back then. I couldn't change anything, and I understood that human power can never change fate. Just like this time, it was supposed to be a sure thing, but it still went wrong due to some minor mistake. What does this show? Is it the so-called destiny? How will things go in the future? What should I do in the future?

  As I was spacing out, a very soft and pleasant voice suddenly sounded in my ear, "Why are you sitting here by yourself?"

  "This voice sounds so familiar! I remembered, I heard this voice when I was back to my soul, it's Guan Yu! Wait a minute, what's going on? Why would Guan Yu come over and talk to me? Could it be... damn, am I still on the road of returning to my soul?!!"

  Maybe I was scared, I didn't dare turn back, I just nodded and trembled, saying: "Yeah, I'm a bit uncomfortable."

  A beautiful figure sat down beside me, it was indeed Guan Yu. I let out a sigh of relief, looks like my mind was too messy and I thought too much, after all, I've been back for a year and a half already.

  Guan Yu is still so good-looking, it's true. Especially her eyes, big and slightly upturned at the corners, giving off a captivating aura. She thought I was sighing and asked me: "Didn't do well on the exam?"

  I nodded, it seems that her boyfriend was not in the same carriage as her. What is she doing here? Is she here to comfort me? She saw me staring blankly at her and smiled, saying softly: "Cui Zuofei, we were in the same class for three years in high school, I always thought you were a pretty interesting person. Always so optimistic, but how come now that something's happened, you've changed?"

  I fell silent, yes, she made me fall silent. I didn't know what to say, she looked at me, smiled and patted my shoulder, saying: "Work hard, as long as you can still breathe, there will definitely be hope."

  "This shouldn't be my line, right? How did she know too? But hearing her say that really lifted my mood. I smiled wryly and asked her: 'How come you're sitting here with me, aren't you afraid your boyfriend will get jealous?'"

  Guān Yǔ was adjusting his shirt collar while saying to me: "Him? I don't know which train car he's in, hitting on some young girl. What are you thinking?"

  It's probably because the carriage was stuffy, she unbuttoned one of the buttons under her collar. From my angle, I could clearly see her clavicle. Watching this small movement, I couldn't help but think of that sultry scene on the way back to the soul. I swallowed a mouthful of saliva and jokingly said to her: "I'm afraid your boyfriend will beat me up."

  She smiled and stared at me, which can also be said to be a flying glance, or the legendary communication between eyebrows. Or what I don't know how to describe. The conversation started, and it seemed that the distance between us was also shortened. We chatted on and off.

  I temporarily forgot about this unfortunate event, but I didn't forget about Du Feiyu who fell asleep in the front row. I know that some things are up to me to do and some things aren't, so when chatting with Guan Yu, I basically didn't have any improper thoughts.

  All he said was some boring words, and in the end, I actually fell asleep. When I opened my eyes, there were still half an hour before arriving home. I wanted to stretch my arms and arch my back. But I found that my left shoulder felt a bit wrong.