She didn't drink much wine last night, but her head hurt badly in the morning. She was afraid that Yu Nian would feel lonely if she couldn't see her mother, so she got dressed and had someone bring him over quickly.

  Yuemei told Yuelan that Yuankui woke up early, had milk and fell asleep again. Looking at her complexion, she was afraid of catching a cold, so she should rest well. Meili refused to listen until Yuemei advised her that if she really got sick, she would infect the child, then she lay back in bed quietly, lost in thought, and didn't even eat breakfast.

  More people came to congratulate than last night, fortunately there were no more continuous firecrackers.

  In the afternoon, Yu An aunt came to visit again. Mei Li had already started to develop a low-grade fever and was drowsily lying in bed after taking medicine. Yu An aunt held her hand and looked at her with tears of sympathy. "The old ancestor is afraid that you will be like this, princess. You must let go, you still have Yun Ke!"

  Does it matter what she thinks? Mei Li smiled wryly.

  "Listen to Yu An's words, there are still many days ahead. Although he can't become the heir, with the support of his ancestors, Yun Ke will have no problem standing out in the future."

  "Shizé......" Meri murmured repeatedly.

  Yu An frowned, "The Emperor has already decreed that Su Ying's son, Yun Jue, be made the Crown Prince of Qing. More and faster chapters are available at [website]. Gigi, in life, there are many things that can't be forced. If you can't force fate, then cherish your blessings. Many children born into poverty have parents who are unable to raise them and even abandon or give them away. To say something that shouldn't be said, not every one of the Emperor's sons has had a life of ease and contentment."

  Struggle for life... cherish blessings.

  Meili lowered her eyes and smiled again, her silent smile growing more bitter by the second.

  She never fought for her life... so she is a secondary wife, and her son is an illegitimate child. Yunkai... can't fight for his life either? SuYan's son was born as the heir, what about Yunkai, in the long years to come, what will he do?

  After Yu An left, the house was unusually quiet, and the maids all knew she was in a bad mood and were being extra cautious.

  The warm sunlight of a spring afternoon was so lazy, and Meri gazed blankly at the sunbeam on her bedside, suddenly bursting into tears.

  "What's wrong?" Jingxuan, who had just come in from outside, furrowed his brow and quickly walked to the bedside, sitting down and letting her lean against his chest. She cried so hard that her whole body shook, her hands trembling as she tightly grasped his arm. Her tears fell onto his sleeve, wetting his heart. Leaning into his embrace, she suppressed her sobs, silently crying even more painfully for him. He sighed, holding her tight, knowing why she was crying.

  She has never been so heartbroken for herself... all because of Yun Qiao.

  Crouched in his arms, she was still at a loss, this feeling of mental exhaustion made her lonely and fragile, even him, she suddenly wanted to rely on, also wanted to seek help! Who can help her? Who can help her child?

  She also hugged him, and in fact, she couldn't tell who he was anymore. The high and mighty, cold and ruthless King Qing? The one who killed Yonghe? Her husband? The handsome older brother she had liked since childhood? As long as her hands could hug a real person, her body could feel the beating heart, she was powerless to distinguish whether the person in front of her was a loved one or an enemy.

  "Jingxuan brother..." She suddenly felt that she was still the little girl who had lost both parents, her strength was so weak, she just wanted to find someone who could hold her in his arms, someone who would listen to her pour out her heart. Now there really is such a person, no matter who he is.

  This sound was like a thunderclap that pierced his heart, he felt as if the blood would congeal because of it. In this life, he could still hear her call him like that once more, and let her rely on him so much.

  "Jingxuan brother... I'm so tired... I'm really so tired..." She transferred all her weight to him. "I'm so tired of living." She closed her eyes, and tears soaked her eyelashes.

  "Meili." He felt his own voice trembling. "You still have me." He steadied himself.

  "Is it you?" She smiled as tears fell more frequently, "If only there was no you, no Yonghe, no Yunkai, that would be better." The sigh seemed to come from the depths of her soul.

  "Meili..." His mouth also tasted bitter, he understood her words. Sometimes, he too thought that if his life didn't have her, it would be better, never to have met, never to have been heartbroken.

  "Don't say anything!" She interrupted him, burying her small face deeper into his chest and wrapping her arms tighter around his waist. "Don't say anything! Just hold me like this."

  She wants to hold onto this moment before he becomes her husband, King Wang again.

  He sighed and obeyed her words. Just as she was his source of pain, he was hers too.

  She fell into a deep sleep in his arms, unaware of how long she had cried.

  He looked at her, even in his dreams, silently shedding tears on her lovely face. No matter how unwilling, no matter how resentful, who else in this world could help her... Only him!

  Fell asleep crying, woke up feeling especially miserable. Mei Li felt a tightness in her chest and her head was splitting. She had already gotten used to waking up alone with no idea where he went.

  "Master, Master!" Yu Jing's laughter echoed in the courtyard from afar, and by the time she ran into the room, Yue Mo also followed her in, rarely with a look of extreme joy on his face.

  "Congratulations, Master! Congratulations, Master!"

  Everyone below burst into laughter and flooded into the room, with Mei Li looking at them in some confusion.

  "His Majesty just sent someone to deliver an imperial edict, conferring the title of Beile on Young Master Yongke! Master, Yongke is now a junior prince!"

  Meili is still staring with her eyes wide open, as if she didn't understand, Belle?

  Among the cheers of the crowd, Jingxuan walked into the house, still wearing his court attire after returning from the palace. The servants also congratulated him and tactfully retreated one by one.

  Meili looked at him with a puzzled gaze, he didn't seem happy, his handsome face seemed somewhat gloomy, but when he walked over and hugged her, it was still that inexplicable tenderness she couldn't describe.

  "Although it's not suitable for me to be the crown prince...” He paused, regretting his own explanation. “As the eldest son, being granted a Beile title isn't too excessive. With the support and blessing of our ancestors at the first opportunity, this matter is still relatively smooth.”

  She looked at him, unsure of what to say or do.

  He looked at her for a while, sighed, feeling helpless towards her and himself. He raised his hand to stroke her hair. "Mei Li, I...". He furrowed his brow, "I'll help you."

  Her whole body shook violently.

  He... will help her?

  This simple sentence moved her more than all the passionate words he had ever said to her.

  She was actually grateful to him!

  He helped Yun Ke, and he also helped her... He was always the one who pushed her into the water to drown, this time, he pulled her up.

  "Yue Mo, bring Yong Kui over." He pursed his lips and ordered loudly.

  When he held Yu Rong in his arms, Yue Mo was shocked and stared wide-eyed, even Mei Li couldn't speak unexpectedly.

  He pulled out a small red satin pouch from his bosom, opened it, and took out the small golden bangle inside. He clumsily put it on Yunkai's wrist, which was waving about wildly. Yunkai wasn't very cooperative and was pinched by him until she cried, causing his court attire to become wrinkled.

  Meili bit her lip but didn't stop.

  He awkwardly stuffed the crying infant into Mei Li's arms, "Originally wanted to give it to him on the hundredth day, Su Ying gave birth to a child, I didn't have time to come."

  He immediately stood up, he was really embarrassed, in order to make her not cry again, not live so hard, he wanted to be good to her and another man's child, even if he felt awkward, there was no way!

  He was walking very quickly and just as he was about to leave the door, she suddenly ran over from the bed and grabbed him around the waist from behind.

  He froze, and what she was holding onto wasn't his body, but his heart.

  This is the first time she has detained him after marrying him, and it's also the first time she has put down Yu Nian to run to him!

  "Thank you." Her face was pressed against his back, and she really thanked him for what he had done for her, for allowing her to do so.

  He gave her a glimmer of hope.

  His heart turned to mush.

  Still silly, still awkward...... but he suddenly felt willing.

  As long as she holds him like this, leans against him... she is willing.