Do I want Serenity

  Why must serenity be

  The peacefulness said to be a breeze through trees

  Yet without its opposers, can we ever be free?

  What is it to be human without anxiety,

  I'm not anything without that pressure and disruption

  Why the point in peace, when reaching it means you failed

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  Missing it means you've gained something

  A permanent rest

  No more tests

  Ultimately serenity is failure

  For if I achieve it I will be nothing.

  Agitation is the need for air

  Growling in my head like a hunger

  For humans hunger, life hungers

  What am I if not a ravenous animal

  What are we worth, what can we do

  For not being hungry means you are full

  Means you are done.

  I don't want to be done

  I want to cause a disruption

  Weeping is the dragon with no more gold to collect

  No one wants to be that dragon.

  I don't want my fire to dim, so bright like the heart of that dragon

  I want more, forever and ever, which means my need for serenity is wrong, isn't it?

  Maybe all I am is a monster, feasting on others and myself

  Perhaps that's what it means to be human

  To want something we don't truly desire

  Have a hunger that cant ever be satiated

  For as soon as we are done we are nothing, and being nothing is something that can't be.

  Fuck serenity, it's nothing.

  I want to be something