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Chapter 61: Silent Depths of Cause and Effect

  The Yu Suo Ge's fragrance and beauty could not stop Xie Xun's determined footsteps from leaving.

  To be honest, losing a child is also heartbreaking for Xie Yun as a man. After all, taking a step back, it's a life, so innocent. From the moment he acknowledged this child, he still hoped that it would be born safely.

  As for Xiangxiang, Xie Yun found it even more troublesome. Originally, he was only entrusted by an old friend to provide protection, but later due to his own improper behavior, he harmed the young lady's family, and now that the young lady has fallen pregnant and injured herself, their relationship is even more complicated. Xie Yun sometimes thought, why did he always feel like Xiangxiang's appearance made him feel trapped, with a sense of powerlessness all over his body? But even though he understood that he had no romantic feelings for her, the current situation was something he could no longer escape from.

  Xie Xuan reluctantly followed Xie Wei to the Chao Lu courtyard, and as soon as they entered the house, they saw their grandmother still in a state of anger.

  "Brother, you... how can I face my sister from the Qin family with this old body of mine? She trusted me and entrusted An Nuan's lifelong happiness to you. Alas... it's all because of your misdeeds, your misdeeds..."

  The old lady had just sat in the house, quietly pondering the events since Qin Miao entered the mansion. These two children are both good kids, one is open and generous, the other is sensible and polite. Originally, the old lady thought that if it weren't for the Rainy Pavilion incident, perhaps these two children would have really gotten together. Many blind marriages have feelings born from mutual companionship, let alone these two good kids. But after today's events, the old lady's thoughts wavered. Perhaps she had really grown old and couldn't understand the thoughts of the younger generation, or perhaps these two children were simply destined to be apart...

  The old lady sighed heavily, pulled herself up with the help of Xiaojie, and beckoned to her grandson: "Go take a look at your wife, she's probably hiding under the quilt crying by herself. Alas, this child... is also stubborn..."

  The old lady had been out for a while and couldn't see Qin Miao, so she put her mind at ease and led the crowd back to Yang Yi's courtyard. Xie Wei stayed behind, now single-mindedly wanting her older brother to apologize to his sister-in-law. Although she was still an unmarried girl, she could empathize with her sister-in-law's current heartache, and nothing was more effective than her brother's gentle words of comfort.

  Mrs. Li also wanted to refuse Xie Yan and Xie Wei, after all Qin Miao had repeatedly instructed her not to see anyone. But she really couldn't withstand Xie Wei's repeated requests and Xie Yan's almost pleading eyes.

  "Madam, the young master and the young lady have arrived! Please open the door." Li Ayi tried knocking on the door, but there was no response inside. She knocked a few more times.

  Xie Wei stuck to the door and listened to the sounds inside. After a long time, perhaps because Li Ayi knocked too frequently, the person inside got up impatiently.

  Qin Miao casually put on a piece of clothing and heard the rustling footsteps and murmurs outside. There must be quite a few people gathered outside.

  "Aiwei, you go back. I'm tired and want to sleep for a while by myself. Tomorrow I'll go to Yangyi Institute to see you, take someone with you now."

  Seeing that there was a response inside, Xie Wei got excited and quickly pulled on Xie Yan's sleeve, hinting at him to express his gratitude.

  Although separated by a door panel, when he heard Qin Miao's voice again, Xie Lin felt very unreal. He was a bit nervous and afraid that if the next words were not spoken well, Qin Miao would not pay attention to him anymore.

  "An Nuan..." He trembled with his voice, finally calling out her name, the second time in his life he had called her by her nickname, the first being outside of the meeting hall. "Are you okay? Can I come in and take a look at you?"

  Everyone held their breath waiting for Qin Miao's response, but after a long time, there was no sound. Just as Xie Yan was about to speak again, the person behind the door reacted.

  "Master Hou, you should go back too. I want some quiet time."

  As soon as these words were spoken, the people outside the door heard the sound of footsteps fading away from inside.

  Xie Wei looked at Xie Yan, whose face didn't look too good, and also let out a sigh of helplessness. "Brother, sister-in-law is really heartbroken this time. Let's go, don't pressure her anymore."

  Xie Xuan didn't fail to understand his sister's meaning, and he didn't refute her. He just lingered at the door for a long time, until he really couldn't wait for a response, before reluctantly leaving with Xie Wei.

  The next day, Qin Miao still kept herself holed up in her room, only allowing people to come in and attend to her for washing and meals, and chasing everyone away at other times. Li Nian and others were worried sick, occasionally guarding the door to persuade Qin Miao. In the end, it was Qin Miao who came out personally, turning around to kindly advise them, asking Li Nian and the others to give her some time to calm down, before they finally shut their mouths.

  Xie Xuan also got off work early that day, and as soon as he entered the door, he didn't even go to the front yard, but ran directly to the Chaoyang Yard. However, when he arrived at the door, he was still refused entry, and the servants repeatedly advised him to leave. Repeatedly regretful, repeatedly rejected, causing him to suffer from insomnia for several nights, with a large bruise appearing under his eyes.

  In the inner room of Chao Lü Yuan, Qin Miao lay on the bed, but she was wide awake. She stared at the ceiling with her eyes open, thinking about something.

  These two days she kept thinking of a question Moon Daughter had asked before: "Anu, do you regret marrying Xie Yun?"

  At that time, Yueliang casually asked about it and didn't take it to heart, also forgetting how she had answered back then. Now, this question has been lingering in her little brain, unable to shake it off.

  Is she regretful?

  To be honest, at first, she had always wanted to marry him, hoping to stand shoulder-to-shoulder with him and sleep together. She indeed had high expectations. This is what every young girl who has just fallen in love hopes for, and Qin Miao was no exception. This was also her simple and straightforward wish from the very beginning.

  As she married into the Hou Mansion, she vaguely knew about Xie Yun's past life experiences. Gradually, she was no longer content with just appearing in the same time and space as him. She wanted to understand him more, get close to him, and even protect him. So no matter how busy she was, she would care about his daily routine, prepare suitable meals for him, and even think of sneaking out to ask Xie Yun's servant, Xiao Zhang, to teach her how to sew clothes that fit him perfectly.

  Of course, she also felt the change in Xie Zhen since getting married. He was no longer stingy with his words and occasionally said a few more sentences to her. Even though he still hadn't consummated their marriage, at least he had shown signs of affection for her twice already, regardless of the reason. These changes may have come slowly, but in Qin Miao's eyes, they were precious.

  Xie Xun's steps were very small, so small that others didn't notice, but Qin Miao saw it and was delighted. So she didn't mind taking bigger strides and walking faster, letting herself get closer to him sooner.

  She thought that with such a disparity in effort, she could persist until their hearts drew closer together. But at this moment, she discovered a fact: Qin Anuan was after all an ordinary person; she had walked too fast, too hastily, and too far, and finally became tired and couldn't move forward anymore.

  As for regret?

  Actually, this matter may not be important at all. Because Qin Anuan has always only wanted to do what she wants to do, there's no room for regret.

  Meeting Xie Yun, and then falling in love with Xie Yun, was something she did wholeheartedly, completely following her own heart's decision. Along the way, every time she fell deeply in love and paid the price, she had no regrets.

  So she can responsibly tell herself: although disappointed, no regrets.

  If time could flow backwards, back to the Moonful Building of old, Qin Miao would still fall deeply in love with the cold-faced Xie Yun at first sight, and be moved by him again at second glance.

  Falling in love with him was her destiny, and she gladly accepted it. Leaving him was also a reconciliation with herself, after all, she had done her best. After doing her best, looking back, there would be no regrets.

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