Chapter 168: It's Hard to Explain Emotional Matters

  I took a glance at this small room, the room only had one bedroom, and also the living room dining room combined small room we are in now. 81 Chinese net √ ． ★ 1 √ √ ．

  I knew what Ying'er meant, so I nodded: "I'll practice here tonight... I've also been trying to cultivate the fourth layer of heart method, but there's been no progress at all. Hopefully, I'll have a breakthrough tonight."

  Ying'er smiled slightly, and her smile contained something different: "If you practice tonight, I'll protect you. I don't dare say anything else, but when you enter a state of frenzy, I'll help you in time."

  I forced a smile: "Actually, you don't have to be so direct..."

  Ying'er let out a soft sigh: "You and I are also... old acquaintances, no need to be so estranged. Jin Cang, I know the person you love is not me, I also know our marriage is just a typical political alliance. Maybe tomorrow after the war victory you will leave me, maybe tomorrow you will choose to marry someone else... these things I all understand and can accept. However, you... can't you not treat me like a stranger? At least, we are nominal husband and wife!"

  I furrowed my brow and couldn't utter a word for quite some time.

  Ying'er saw that I wasn't speaking, so she said to herself: "If I'm not mistaken, if I marry you, then for this lifetime, I'll be yours. Even if the war is won and you marry someone else... I... I still can't marry anyone else..."

  My heart skipped a beat as I suddenly thought of a terrible fact. That is, even if Yinger and I were to part ways in the future, no one would marry her. This isn't because she's been married before or anything like that, but rather because with my current public identity, my ex-wife probably wouldn't be wanted by anyone.

  To know that I am now a world-renowned figure, and it's because of the war that I became famous, there are not many women who would dare to marry me. Moreover, those who have the guts to marry me will probably not be left unmarried while waiting for me.

  Ying'er's words make sense. This time I accepted Old Chen's order and married Ying'er, it might be true that I didn't think it through and ruined her whole life.

  I was speechless and could only look at Ying with a deep sense of guilt.

  Ying'er saw my expression, smiled bitterly and said: "This is not your fault, I know you are also acting on orders! Jin Cang, we have been husband and wife for a lifetime... no matter what happens in the future, I will always remember this experience."

  I looked at Ying'er, and my heart wanted to hug her and comfort her, but reason told me that I couldn't do so now, otherwise not only would Chen Jing and the others not forgive me, but I myself wouldn't be able to get past this either.

  So I quietly watched Ying'er, and could only watch Ying'er.

  Ying seemed a bit angry, suddenly stood up: "I may have had too much to drink... goodnight!"

  She strode into her bedroom, leaving me alone in the living room staring at a big pile of unwashed plates and bowls.

  I don't know if it's right for me to accept Old Man Chen's order this time, even though my decision might save tens of thousands of Huaxia soldiers and civilians.

  I don't know what step I and Ying Er will take next? Will we become friends, or strangers? Or even sworn enemies!

  I couldn't help but take a glance at Jing'er's bedroom, she hadn't closed the door, and with one look I could see Jing'er lying on the bed in her clothes.

  I almost immediately saw that Jing'er was also looking at me, her eyes were very bright, so bright that I almost subconsciously turned my head away. I didn't dare to look at her more, nor did I dare to make eye contact with her.

  I closed my eyes and sat in the chair where I usually eat, and suddenly I was asleep.

  For the next few hours, I was actually wide awake and didn't fall asleep or enter a meditative state. However, I didn't open my eyes, nor did I take another look at Ying'er.

  The atmosphere in the room gradually became very oppressive, I felt as if I was trapped in an airless underground space, even breathing had become difficult.

  I really couldn't stay here any longer, so I opened my eyes and prepared to get up and leave.

  "You go out now, and someone will definitely see you. Newlyweds don't live together, do you want the whole world to know that our marriage is fake?" Ying'er's voice sounded in my ear, she appeared in front of me like the wind, stretched out her hand and pressed me down.

  I saw some bloodshot eyes, and I knew she hadn't slept either: "I... I just wanted to take a walk..." I started telling lies unconsciously, and I didn't know what was going on. To my surprise, I didn't dare to argue with Jing'er anymore.

  Ying'er is younger than me, and I shouldn't be so cautious in front of her... but for some reason, now I'm afraid to tell the truth when facing her.

  Maybe I feel guilty towards her, I secretly told myself in my heart.

  "Go sleep for a while, I...I'll just sit here and won't let others find out our...secret."

  I forced a smile, and suddenly my mind turned around, saying: "Anyway, I couldn't sleep, so why don't you tell me how you cultivated yourself, how did you reach the state of Heart Law Great Completion so quickly?"

  Ying'er let out a soft sigh, knowing I was trying to shift the focus, and said: "Actually, I don't know why I'm cultivating so quickly either. I just feel like I have to catch up with you as soon as possible. If the gap between us remains that big, you'll definitely stop paying attention to me. So I kept cultivating non-stop, and before I knew it, I reached this level..."

  I was taken aback: "You... I still don't understand what you're saying. Your qualifications shouldn't be very good, when I treated your illness before, it was clear that many of the meridians in your body were blocked... You say you cultivated just like everyone else and unknowingly reached this level? This... this is truly unbelievable."

  Ying'er nodded: "Actually, I don't think I'm that great, isn't it just cultivation? Just focus your mind and do it."

  I couldn't help but say: "Perhaps it's precisely because you're so focused, concentrating all your energy, that you've made such rapid progress..."

  "However, you still don't want to talk to me now. It seems that all my previous efforts were in vain."

  I forced a smile, I spent half a day trying to change the subject, but still was brought back to the starting point by Jing'er's one sentence.

  "I had no choice but to say: 'How could you think that? You're my friend, and nominally my wife... No matter what, from now on your affairs are mine, I absolutely won't ignore you...'"

  I myself don't know what I said, but Ying'er was delighted after hearing it, and immediately forgot the unpleasantness before, happily saying: "You really think so? That's great, I was worried that you wouldn't care about me, leaving me to live a lonely life all by myself!"

  It seemed like my mind went blank for a moment, but then I heard Jing Er say: "When we return to the Three Gorges Reservoir area tomorrow, you'll take me to meet... your parents, right? No matter what, I'm your wife now, so I should at least meet them. You... do you think that's okay?"

  I nodded slightly and suddenly thought of something, so I asked in a hurry: "Can you leave here tomorrow? Are you not going to cultivate the fourth layer of Heart Method?"

  Ying'er shook her head: "I can go to the Three Gorges Reservoir area and then cultivate, anyway it's not something that can be cultivated successfully in a short time, and there's no hurry."

  I'm afraid that's when I understood Ying'er's idea: "Well, we'll go to the Three Gorges Reservoir area tomorrow. That place is not far from my hometown and can be considered my hometown too. At that time, I'll take you around and who knows, maybe we'll gain something."

  Ying'er was overjoyed: "I just like going out and about, you'd better not cheat me, or I'll cling to you..."

  I smiled, seeing Ying'er happy, I was also genuinely happy. I don't know if I felt that making Ying'er happy could alleviate my inner guilt, anyway, seeing her happy made me a little happy too.

  I chatted with Ying'er until dawn, and seeing that she was still full of enthusiasm, I couldn't help but say: "You should rest for a while; if I leave now, no one will suspect anything."

  Ying'er's face changed slightly: "Then you can go... when are we leaving this place?"

  I looked at Jing'er and said, "We'll leave at noon."

  Ying'er nodded: "Then I won't rest, let's start preparing now."

  I smiled: "There's nothing much to prepare for anyway, you'd better rest well, it'll be tiring when we take the plane later."

  Ying'er smiled and said: "I should get some gifts for my parents whom I've never met before, right?"

  I was slightly taken aback, and then felt a little moved: "Thank you. Come to think of it, I should go buy some gifts too, it's been a long time since I've gone back."

  Ying'er immediately said: "Let's go together, and by the way, you can also tell me what they all need."

  As I looked at Ying'er, I suddenly felt that if I really married her, it would also be a great thing. It's just that the current me is already taken, and can't have such thoughts anymore.

  Then, I and Ying'er came to a shopping mall. I planned to buy some clothes and the like to take back to my parents, and also to buy one for myself. My clothes were all military uniforms, which would not be suitable to wear back home.

  Ying'er surprisingly had the same idea as me, she dragged me around to look for things and before long, we bought a big pile of clothes, shoes and so on. Even I got some clothes from her.

  I smiled and accepted her gift, then returned to Wudang with her.

  Kong Shou is very busy now, when we left, he just made a phone call and said that he couldn't see us off, asking us to be careful on the road.

  I and Ying'er, as well as Qin Zhenzhen and Liu Mei, returned to my hometown together, and everything went smoothly along the way.

  We didn't go to my place at first, after all we had to report to the goddess first. I am now a person of the goddess, under the jurisdiction of Queen Mother, and have no choice but to come see her first.

  The Queen Mother was very polite when she saw us, letting us settle in first and arranging a position for me the next day. She appointed me as the combat advisor of the Goddess Legion, temporarily.

  The Goddess Organization has joined the government army and has accepted the military's suggestion to officially change its name to the Goddess Legion. It is another legion that I have passed through in Huaxia. The Queen Mother is still the highest commander of the legion, known as the Commander-in-Chief externally.

  She is the first female commander of my Huaxia country, with more than 2 million troops under her command. Among these more than 2 million people, about 1.4 million can go to the battlefield, which is a very strong force.

  The goddess legion has accepted the government's supplies and is now no different from the regular army. As long as they accept three months of regular military training, they will truly become soldiers.

  To put the military at ease, Wang Mu voluntarily divided her troops into three armies, with two of the highest commanders being from the military. This fully demonstrated Wang Mu's sincerity, and the military was very satisfied with Wang Mu's performance, almost without exception helping the Goddess Legion. Professional personnel sent by the military trained the members of the Goddess Legion, providing all necessary supplies, giving as much as needed, without any hesitation or delay.

  I even served as a combat staff officer in the headquarters of the Goddess Legion, which was also the intention of the military.

  To say that the development of the female deity organization in these years is indeed very rapid, it not only has an army of 200,000, among which 140,000 troops can directly go to the battlefield. Moreover, there are also tens of thousands of family members and other personnel, adding up to a small-scale city.

  I didn't think that the goddess organization I reached an agreement with would have such power, and thought it was just a black society-like organization. Fortunately, they had internal conflicts at that time, which allowed me to take advantage of it. Otherwise, during He Ping's era, if I wanted them to join the government army, it would be a million times more difficult.

  Everything went smoothly, and Queen Mother was also very happy. She didn't rush me to help her find the traitor within them, but instead let me rest for two days first.

  Ying'er knew I was resting for the past two days, so she came to find me and said she wanted to visit my parents at home. She also said she wanted to give my parents a surprise and asked me not to tell them in advance.

  For Jing Er's request, Queen Mother also agreed and said that if there is time, she will go with us to visit my parents, which can be considered as meeting the in-laws!

  I didn't want my parents and Queen Mother to meet, so I took advantage of Queen Mother being busy with the Goddess Army's affairs and hastily left with Ying'er.

  The house in my hometown has been rebuilt and is very spacious. The rural environment is great, and when we returned home, our parents were also at home. When they saw us, my mother couldn't help but shed tears. They were really surprised, especially when they saw me bring back three more girls.

  Those were tears of joy, and the best greeting at a reunion after a long separation. I forced myself not to shed tears, but in my heart, I secretly told myself: "No matter how busy I am in the future, I must make it a point to call my parents every week."

  I rarely call my parents in the past.

  My father is still the same, only feeling much older. He laughed and led us into the house, walking and saying to me: "You kid still know how to come back? I thought you'd be like last time, disappearing for three or four years before coming back."

  I smiled and said, "Aren't I a bit busy? Don't worry, I'll come back often. Now I've been transferred back to the Three Gorges Reservoir area, which is close to home, so I can come back whenever I want. If you and mom miss me, you can also go find me anytime."

  "Dad was pleasantly surprised: 'You're back to work? That's great! I was just discussing with your mom, we were thinking of going to where you work and staying for a few days. Now it's perfect, we can go see you anytime, no longer having to think about you when we can't see you.'"

  "Dad, I was too busy before and worried about involving the family... it won't be like that again. Whenever you miss me, just look for me, or I'll come home to see you."

  Father nodded, as if suddenly seeing the Ying'er, Qin Zhenzhen and Liu Mei who came back with me, and said loudly: "You little boy brought friends back? Are they all your girlfriends? Why don't you introduce them to me?"

  I took a glance at Ying'er's bright red face and smiled, saying: "Dad, don't talk nonsense, this is Ying'er, she is..."

  Ying'er suddenly stepped forward and said loudly: "Dad, I'm Wang Ying. I just got married to Jin Cang in the capital..."

  His father was originally joking, but now that he heard Ying'er say she's his wife, he suddenly became stunned and spoke incoherently: "You... you're married? You... what did you just say?"

  He said this, suddenly turned around and left, calling his mother as he walked: "Come quickly, Jin Cang brought his wife back, it's his wife... We have to prepare some gifts for meeting her. Let's see, what can we give our daughter-in-law from the things we bought before? Hurry up and get them out..."