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Chapter 119

  Myra’s heart skipped a beat at the directness of her grandmother’s question and the unmistakable worry in her eyes. "More than friendship? Affection?" Her grandmother's words echoed the very thoughts Myra had been wrestling with, a mixture of concern and a hesitant curiosity coloring her tone. Myra hesitated for a moment, gathering her courage. This was the crux of the matter, the truth she needed to speak despite the potential for her grandmother’s disapproval.

  Taking another deep breath, Myra met her grandmother’s concerned gaze with a steady one of her own. “Yes, Grandma,” she said softly, her voice filled with a quiet sincerity. “My feelings for Freya… they are more than just friendship. I… I feel a deep passion for her.”

  A faint blush rose on her cheeks as she admitted this truth, but she held her grandmother’s gaze, wanting to be honest and open. “It was unexpected,” she continued, her voice a little more hesitant now. “I didn’t intend for it to happen. But… it did. And I… I care for her very deeply.”

  She could see the worry etched more clearly on her grandmother’s face, and a pang of anxiety tightened in her chest. But she knew she had to be truthful, to honor the feelings that had grown so strong within her. This was an important part of her life now, and she wanted her grandmother, the woman she loved and trusted, to know the truth, even if it might be difficult for her to accept.

  Her grandmother’s reaction was immediate and firm. “Myra, no,” she said, her voice ced with a distress that made Myra’s heart sink. “You must stop this. You must put an end to these feelings right now.” Her words were delivered with a sense of urgency, a clear indication of the depth of her concern.

  She reached across the table, her hand covering Myra’s with a worried grip. “My dear child, you don’t understand,” she continued, her voice softening slightly but still filled with urgency. “This… this isn’t right. Freya is… different. She’s always been an outsider. People talk, Myra. They see things. You are part of this vilge, you belong here. She…” Her grandmother hesitated, searching for the right words, her worry evident in her furrowed brow. “She lives apart. Her ways are not our ways.”

  The unspoken hung heavily in the air – the ingrained suspicion of anyone different, anyone who didn’t fit the mold of their traditional vilge life. Myra could see the fear in her grandmother’s eyes, a fear rooted in the unknown and a desire to protect her granddaughter from potential heartache and societal disapproval. The chasm between Myra’s feelings and her grandmother’s traditional values suddenly felt vast and daunting.

  Her grandmother’s grip tightened on Myra’s hand, her voice ced with a deep-seated conviction. “Myra,” she said, her eyes filled with a mixture of concern and ingrained belief, “you are a woman. These feelings you describe… a woman cannot harbor such feelings for another woman. It is not natural. It is not the way things are meant to be.”

  Her words, spoken with the unwavering certainty of her traditional upbringing, nded heavily in the quiet room. It was clear that her grandmother’s beliefs were deeply entrenched, rooted in a worldview that offered no space for the kind of love Myra was experiencing. There was no malice in her voice, only a profound conviction that Myra was straying from a path considered right and proper, a path that could only lead to unhappiness and social ostracism. The weight of generations of tradition pressed down on Myra in that moment, a stark contrast to the liberating love she had found with Freya.

  A wave of conflicting emotions washed over Myra – hurt, confusion, and a fierce protectiveness towards her feelings for Freya. Her grandmother’s words, spoken with such unwavering certainty, felt like a sharp blow. She gently tried to pull her hand away, but her grandmother’s grip remained firm.

  “But Grandma,” Myra began, her voice trembling slightly, “that’s not true. That’s… that’s just what people have always said. How can you tell me what I feel isn’t real? I do have these feelings. For Freya. And they are strong.” Her voice gained a touch more strength as she defended the authenticity of her emotions.

  “It doesn’t feel wrong to me,” she continued, her gaze earnest and pleading. “It feels… right. More right than anything has in a long time.” She struggled to find the words to bridge the gap between her own experience and her grandmother’s deeply ingrained beliefs. “Freya makes me happy, Grandma. She understands me. And I… I love her.” The final words hung in the air, a vulnerable decration that defied the traditional boundaries her grandmother held so dear. The hurt in Myra’s eyes mirrored the fear in her grandmother’s, a silent testament to the chasm that had suddenly opened between them.

  Her grandmother’s grip on Myra’s hand tightened even further, her knuckles now white. Her face, usually etched with gentle lines of worry, now held a starker, more distressed expression. Tears welled in her eyes, blurring their usually kind gaze.

  “Myra, please,” she pleaded, her voice thick with emotion, trembling slightly. “You don’t know what you’re saying. This… this will only bring you sorrow. People will judge you, they will whisper. Your life will be… difficult.” A tear escaped and traced a path down her wrinkled cheek.

  “I only want what’s best for you, my child,” she continued, her voice breaking. “I want you to have a good life, a happy life, with a good man, a family… the things that will bring you security and respect in this world.” Her words were filled with a deep-seated fear for Myra’s future, a future she envisioned along traditional lines. The thought of Myra deviating from that path, embracing a love that defied societal norms, clearly filled her with a profound and heartfelt sorrow. The sternness in her earlier words had now dissolved into a raw, vulnerable plea from a grandmother who loved her fiercely and feared for her well-being.

  Seeing the genuine distress in her grandmother’s eyes, the tears that now streamed down her face, pierced Myra’s heart. The protectiveness she felt for Freya warred with the deep love and empathy she had for the woman who had raised her. Her own resolve wavered, the weight of her grandmother’s sorrow pressing down on her.

  “Oh, Grandma,” Myra said softly, her own eyes beginning to water. She gently disengaged her hand from her grandmother’s, reaching out instead to cup her aged cheek, her thumb softly wiping away a tear. “I know you love me. And I know you only want what you think is best for me.”

  Her voice was filled with a tenderness that acknowledged her grandmother’s pain. “But you have to understand,” she continued, her gaze earnest and filled with a quiet conviction, “my happiness… it lies with Freya. I know it does. And while I understand your worries about what others might say, about what might be ‘difficult’… I can’t deny what I feel in my heart.”

  She took a deep breath, her expression a mixture of love and firm resolve. “I don’t want to live a life that makes me unhappy, Grandma, even if it’s the life that others expect of me. And I truly believe that loving Freya… that will bring me happiness. Real happiness.” The tears in her own eyes threatened to spill over as she stood firm in her truth, even as it caused her grandmother such evident pain.

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