Angle of view

  It was still a very repetitive and chaotic dream. Mixed with scorching, pain and sweat. Dazed I opened my eyes to see the hospital room and doctor. Then fell into a daze again.

  My deep dream, as if it has never changed in a year.

  No, it's still changing.

  At a certain moment, I stood in front of the cliff, the strong wind blew by, but I heard someone calling out my name: A Yu, A Yu.

  From that moment on, my heart suddenly became warm. The warmth gradually spread, like a radiant light, penetrating through my body.

  A Yu, A Yu. She kept whispering softly in my ear.

  Bright and clear.

  I found her name in a sea of confusion.

  "Jing!" I stepped into thin air and tumbled down the cliff, shouting out her name.

  ……

  I opened my eyes with a start, to find myself in a dimly lit hospital room, the sunlight slanting westward. Tan Jiao hadn't even used a chair, sitting on the floor beside the bed, wearing a thin patient's gown. One of my hands was lightly grasped by hers, touching her face.

  My hand slowly exerted force and truly stroked her face. Her whole body trembled, yet she didn't move again, grasping my fingertips. I felt a wetness slowly flowing into my palm.

  "Ah Yu......" She rushed into my arms.

  The room had thoroughly darkened, she wrapped her arms around my neck and pressed my face against her chest. My hands were still numb, I hugged her with all my might. After a while, neither of us spoke.

  Then she slowly lifted her head, very close to me in the darkness. I could even feel her breath, with my lips and teeth dependent on hers. With the hand that had the IV tube inserted, I held the back of her head. In this room, there was only the sound of our short, urgent breathing. I kissed her again.

  We've never kissed so fiercely before. Like we're fighting each other, yet reborn in the flames. Her hands are pressed against my chest. I can only lie there, almost pulling her entire body onto the bed with me. The wound hurts again, but I don't have time to care about it. All I want is to kiss her. Don't think about anything else, just want to kiss her until she trembles all over.

  She was indeed trembling all over, I found her tongue, wrapped it tightly and teased. Her breathing gradually became more urgent, her face very hot. She began to struggle, wanting to push me away, I held her tighter, not allowing her to move.

  "Let me go..." she protested weakly.

  My response was a more ferocious bite back at her. I completely shut her up.

  "Ow ow......" She pushed me away with a hand on my waist, I felt pain and had to let go. Fortunately, the room was dark now, she couldn't see my face. But she fell to the ground instead.

  "Are you hurt?" I spoke, only to find that my throat was hoarse as if it had been run over by a car.

  "No!" she growled, "What do you mean? Wu Yu, what do you mean?"

  I couldn't speak. As soon as I woke up, I saw her, saw her quiet and weak dependence, and thought of our life-and-death companionship at the Chen's house, I simply couldn't control myself.

  I want her, I want her too much. I've endured for too long, so I lost control.

  She suddenly turned on the light in the room, and the bright white light made me squint my eyes and raise my hand to block it. At the same time, I heard her say faintly: "I'll go find a doctor first. Wu Yu, wait for a moment, I have something to tell you."

  It was only then that I clearly saw her face. Her complexion was more haggard than usual, but her cheeks were flushed red. Her lips had the reddish glow of being kissed by me. As we waited for the doctor to arrive, she sat quietly in the chair, staring at me intently. But after locking eyes for a while, she looked away, seemingly a bit embarrassed.

  "Come," I said, "sit down beside me." My voice was steady enough, but there was something in it that quivered faintly: "I have something to say to you."

  Tan Jiao didn't move, biting her lip and saying: "No matter what you want to say, I don't want to hear it for now."

  I was taken aback for a moment. Some words were too heavy for me, and I couldn't bring myself to say them easily. But now that I've finally thought of saying it, she doesn't want to listen.