The doctor came, and neither of us spoke. The doctor and nurse chatted about something, but I didn't listen. I just stared at her. Occasionally the doctor asked a question, and she replied with one or two sentences. She felt increasingly embarrassed under my gaze, and when no one was paying attention, she glared at me.
I just kept staring at her.
The doctor and nurse finally left, Tan Jiao was the last one to leave, she lowered her head, closed the door, and now there were only two of us left in the room.
"What did you want to say to me?" I asked.
She sat down at the foot of the bed, sideways to me, not looking at me, but staring out the window that had already darkened. She said: "Ah Yu, whether you kiss me or avoid me, whether you want to or not. In the past, I've been trying hard, wanting to wait for you. Waiting for you to achieve your dreams, waiting for you to put down the thorn in your heart, so that I know you'll definitely be with me. You like a wounded wolf, can't expect him to jump into your arms with his injuries. Thinking of this, I calmed down and was willing to wait. But..."
She gazed at me with those clear and profound eyes: “... That day at the Chen's, you left me alone on the attic. When you left, I made up my mind that if we could make it out alive this time, on the day we get out, I will definitely be with you. I don't want to wait anymore, nor can I wait any longer.” Tears gradually welled up in her eyes: “You don't need to say anything more about grand principles, nor do you need to avoid me anymore. Either you're with me now, or we give up. Ah Yu, I really don't want to wait anymore.”
My heart was like it had been cut by a knife, lightly sliced. The knife was hidden in her clear tears. I wanted to punch myself for making a girl be forced to say such words. I heard my almost hoarse voice saying: "Jiao Jiao, come here."
Her lips were almost bitten through, and she stiffened her neck and said: "I won't come."
I felt a little like laughing, but my eyes grew hot instead. I said in a low voice: "Come here, listen to me say the same thing to you."
She remained silent and still, then got up, walked to the bedside, my wound was just hurt by her, I wanted to sit up but couldn't, had to stretch out my hand to hold hers, but she dodged away, only sat down at the bedside, still turning a sideways face to me.
I raised my hand to cover half of my face and said, "I wanted to say that just now, but you didn't give me the chance. These words should be spoken by a man."
She softly said "oh", her face seeming to redden even more.
I said: "Tan Jiao, I'm sorry."
She remained still, tears falling down.
I said: "We'll be together from today on and never part again."
She raised her hand to cover her face, then bowed her head and buried it in my arms. I held her, and strangely, this moment that I had longed for for a very long time, even thought I was not worthy of having, had finally arrived, yet everything seemed extremely quiet. The black hair scattered on my palms was quiet, the night light was quiet, and the bright red drops of blood dripping down the infusion tube were also quiet.
I stroked her head and asked: "No matter what happens in the future, will you never leave me?"
I know as a man, I shouldn't ask this. But I want her promise. She didn't raise her head, but tears wet my chest, she said slowly: "No matter what happens in the future, I will never leave you. Will you?"
I said: "Of course I am too."
She lifted her head, with tears still on her face, and burst out laughing. I couldn't help but laugh too. The two of us just stood there, face to face, our eyes shining with tears, staring at each other and laughing. Until Zhang Jiong pushed open the door and let out a "holy crap". Tan Jiao slowly straightened up, leaving my arms. But I still held onto her hand reluctantly.
The majestic fish leaned against the door and asked: "So you two... have finally flown together with wings entwined?"
Tan Jiao's eyes were about to curve into a bright moon, I held her hand and replied: "Yeah, I finally have a name."
