I apologize for the dey in submitting this chapter, I have been cheg and preparing to correct errors in all the chapters I have written so far due to which I did not mao prepare the chapter in time .

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  Bke pov

  Looking at the hotel staff leaving my rht after helping me up the mess that Yang made , I sit back down on the now freshly dressed bed w what just happened .

  'Luckily I saved my dinner .'

  I think looking at the pte of unfinished fish lyio me on the bed . Taking the pte to finish eating I notice that I am alone again .

  ' So I should do it now before Lapps home .'

  I think looking at my scroll lying on the bedside table . Taking the st bite of food I put down my pte and pick up the scroll . Walking to the window with the scroll in my hands I sit down on the window sill .

  ' If I don't do it then my aunt will do it for me .'

  I think while dialing the number for my mom . I was going to call my parents earlier however I didn't want to do it with Yang in the room , I holy thought Yang would stay until Lappurned which would make me have an excuse not to call again . However , now I have no excuse .

  ' Now or never .

  I think while waiting for someoo answer .

  Kali : " Hello ?"

  After a moment of waiting through the speaker I hear my mother's voice . In a moment of hesitation I fell silent not knowing how to start a versation . Sitting on the windowsill I draw my ko me and taking a deep breath I get ready to answer .

  Bke : "Hi mom ?"

  I say uain of my mom rea after all I ran away from home and sihe " disappearance" of Lappnd we have not been in very good tact with each other .

  Kali : "Bke ? Is it you are you okay ? Where are you ? If your disappearance is Adam's doing again then I swear ..."

  Hearing my mom words I am a little overwhelmed by her questions and not a little surprised by her explosion of anger when she mentioned Adam .

  Bke : " Mom calm down, I'm fine . I am in Vale together with .... Lappnd"

  I say stopping my mother from further anger by mentioning Lappnd to her .

  Kali : " Lappnd is with you ? Is she okay ? you give me her to talk to ?"

  Says mom again throwio a whirlwind of questions when she apparently returo an eveer mood than after starting the versation with me .

  Bke : " Lappnd is with me and she is dooing well at least for her . And now she is not with me she left to do something ."

  I say leaving out Lappa's visit to the doctor so as not to worry her .

  Kali : " Why did you run away ? Is it reted to Lappnd ?"

  Asks mom hitting straight on the point . Since Lappnd disappeared mother has always together with father searched for her with the help of many people . But there were not many willing to help them because of Lappation .

  In all of this I knew what had happened but I remained silent looking at the worry of my mom and dad as they tio look for her .Thinking about that day about what I did , I recall the sad state in which I met Lapphan a few days ago .

  'If I wasn't so stupid and selfish '

  Thinking about it, I 't help but cry.

  ' I am a on traitorous whore . Lappnd gave me all her heart and do things that no one should willingly sign up for . It is because of me that everyone sees her as a monster .''

  Kali : "Bke is something wrong ?"

  Asks mom shaki of my thoughts as I gather myself .

  Bke : " No , nothing mom I was thinking " .

  I say trying to trol the tremor in my voice .

  Kali : " Bke what's going on , are y ? "

  Asks mom with worry in her voice . But hearing this makes me feel worse than trash because I remember many unkind things I said to her .

  'More than once I ran away from home to be with Adam on missions . Even though my parents didn't wao be in white fang anymore because of Lappnd I just ughed at them . I don't deserve this worry '

  Bke: " Mom it's nothing I have a cold ."

  I say wiping the tears that have gathered in my eyes. Somehow hearing Mom's voice makes me feel even worse about myself.

  Kali : " Bke turn on the camera ".

  Says mom seriously when a video call request appeared on my scroll .fused with my trembling finger I decided to accept it which made me see the image of my mom who was looking at me with seriousness .

  Kali : " You are n ? "

  Asks mom looking at me through the camera . Looking towards the window I see in its refleyself drenched in tears as the makeup I always try to put on runs down from my eyes .

  Bke : " Bke tell me what is going on ? "

  Asks mom with seriousness in her voice . Knowing mom she is ready without a boat to cross an o full of grimm to be with me now . She has always been like that with that look I knew she would give her life for me , those eyes the same care that Lappnd shows me so oftee her character . At that time I felt the guilt eating me up from the inside ,something inside me broke I felt like I had to tell everything .

  Bke : " Mom I'm sorry .It's my fault .... What happeo Lappnd is my fault ."

  I say fearing my mother's rea when I stopped trying to st .

  Kali : " Bke what are you talking about ? What is your fault ?"

  Asks mom when I don't dare to look at her .

  Bke : " A year ago I ,Adam and others caught Lappnd..... He said he knece .... A ic where they will help her where she won't hurt anyone ....It was me who made Lappnd disappear for a year "

  I say wiping more tears from my face smearing all my makeup all over it .

  Kali : " Bke ..... You."

  Says my mother with disappoi in her voice , to which I could only curl up inside myself yessir tightly drawing my ko my chest .

  Bke : " I believed Adam , I put Lappnd aside even though she was the one who always gave me everything .... I believed Adam , I betrayed Lappnd ."

  Bke : " Mom I .... was ready to kill her for this idiot .... I set her up by sending her a message .... I knew she was injured from the st mission . I believed that Adama would catch her without any problems and transport her but this asshole with others almost killed her...... and I like an idiot looked at it and believed it was the only way ."

  I say fessing the deepest nightmare of my heart . I thought Lappnd would have died that day if I had not stepped in .

  Bke : "But I stopped it ..... hitting her in the back of the head she turned around and I could see the fli her eyes ...... she could not defend herself from me . She did not defend herself when I knocked her down , she just smiled at me .... Her words her tone ..."

  I say uo catch my breath any further I tinued g as I curled up shaking on the windowsill having memories of that night in my head .

  Bke : " Not until ... A year ter when things between me and adama deteriorated I had the ce to look for her . Adama lied ... When I found her ... She was ed up in a dark cell . In the darkness , naked ... Mom ... What have I done ....."

  I say in a whisper without having the strength or ce to say it out loud.

  Kali : " Bke why didn't you tell me about it earlier ? All this time you knew where Lappnd was yet you never mentio ?"

  Asks mom after a long silence from her tone I couldn't tell if she was disappointed or sad .

  Bke : " I didn't kher , I thought I knew , only when Lappnd disappeared.... I started to notice .... What we were doing was not helping anyone .... I started to think and ask .... Then I doubted Adam he said he didn't know anything .... I had to search myself to fihey kept her on the Menagerie ."

  I say , having difficulty in f a sentence .

  Bke : "I didn't know what to do .... I tio believe in Adam I ... I was afraid ... Adama talked about hond is dangerous to herself and others .... He talked about how she almost blew the mission and tried to kill him ...... I ..... I ...I ...... I'm sorry mom ."

  I say trying to calm down . I sincerely regret everything I have done I don't deserve mercy from mom or Lappnd . If I'm ho I wasn't even sure if Lappnd would actually e bae after all this .

  But in her cell in her eyes I saw this joy at the sight of me , this ray of hope in her eyes . I didn't have the ce not to take her with me despite the fact that I ted on insults from her , I wanted her to leave me .

  Kali : "Bke calm down tell me everything that happened , but this time calmly and with details ."

  Says mom in a calm tone however I khat the storm would start and my parents do not five Adam .

  Bke : " Mom I ot , he will hurt you."

  I say knowing that I already screwed up anyway , just looking at mom I couldn't .

  Kali : " Bke Beldona . I love you because you are my daughter however I also raised Lappnd you both are important to me. But I'm not afraid of Adam. Together with your father we started to fight against the whole kingdom. If you think that some kid with a savior plex is able to threaten me in that case I guess you don't know your father and me well enough."

  Kali : " If you don't tell me everything iail I swear I will be in Vale in an hour ."

  Says mom in a tone so serious that I know that holding my tongue is pointless because she will surely keep her word .

  Bke : " Mom just please don't do anything that will endanger you I won't be able to live with the knowledge that something happeo you or dad ."

  I say looking at the picture of mom who only smiled at me . Taking a few breaths I gather my thoughts into words to tell everything as I remember it . At the time mom was listening to me ae the fact that it is memories from a year ago I remember everything as if it was yesterday .