I apologize for the dey. Due to the rge amount of past history presented in the chapter, I had to make sure that everything matched the information previously provided

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  [About a year ago .]

  Bke pov .

  Bke " Are you sure ? Lappnd won't be able to be alone in a mental hospital for long ."

  I ask Adam as we sit together under a tree on a slope overlooking Kuo Kuan.

  Adama : " They are specialists in this type of case , Bke . I told you this before there is n baow we have to do it for the good of all " .

  Adam : " Lappnd has ged she is dangerous no one has trol over her whether it is you or your mom or even Sienna . We almost got caught because of her , she 't be trusted on missions ."

  Says Adam recalling the story of the mission two days ago .

  Bke : " Have you talked to Sienna about it ? "

  I ask knowing that Adam will be in trouble if Sienna finds out , after all she is the leader .

  Adam : "Sienne instead of reag gave Lappnd a vacation . She ot make a decision on her case as it is too personal for her. She will not expel or sider Lappnd a traitor they are too close together ."

  Adam : "Besides her you nor I want Lappnd to bee a traitor we both know how this will end as far as expulsion is ed Lappnd will remaihreat she was . She reatment Bke you know it I know it everyone knows it but no os ."

  Says Adam in the same cold tone . He has been like this since he returned from the st atta the Ats mines . Apparently Lappnd disobeyed an order by which she endangered everyone present iion , when Adam poihis out to her she shed out at him again endangering them . Something like this be sidered a betrayal .

  If I had heard this two years ago , I would have de and defended Lappnd . But now I her have the strength nor the desire to do so because I know it is true . Lappnd has really ged since we joihe white fang from nid cheerful to cold and sullen . In public she is practically never seen without a mask .When she does take it off she is usually drunk .

  She stopped being sober two months ago when I finally couldn't stand it a her .It had many reasons one of them was the terrible things she did . I don't know why , Lappnd became a monster ht after one mission year ago everyoarted to move away from her ,even the people in her small team.

  If it wasn't for Sienna , mom , dad and aunt I doubt anyone would have stayed with her . heless, I was still able to talk to her back then and make her less violent and peaceful on the mission .

  However, despite the fact that she always listeo me, with time she started to fall bato addis, drugs and alessed up her head even more. Now there is no point in talking to a person who does not uand what is being said to her .

  Until a two months ago, I could somehow influence her however now even for me Lappnd is a wild card . Perhaps if I had pushed harder on her , if I had reacted then Lappnd would not have bee who she is now .

  Due to ck of tact with Lappnd I talked to Trifa my friend who works in Lappnd group . She was the one who gave me information about Lappnd dition , since most of the time on missions it was her group that was around Lappnd.

  It was from her that I learned what she and Lappnd do. In addition to trag people they often killed targets , even though this is not a good path I uand that sometimes you o take someone away from this world to support our cause .

  So I would never be mad at Lappnd for this as she was helping the white fang but acc to Trifa Lappnd was losing herself in this she became too violent and bloodthirsty.

  Even situations that could have ended peacefully with Lappnd turned into fights where more people were ihen everyone had had enough making no one willing to participate in the mission with Lappnd anymore eveeam . All this violend anger from Lappnd was turning into a bigger wave of hatred for our race .

  There were already problems with Lappnd as she attacked ued with other members of the white fang and even attacked some . However, two months ago Lappnd broke all boundaries by killing bystanders civilians after which she did not stop and on another missions other i people were affected by her as .

  I was furious I argued with Lappually breaking off any tact with her. Now I haven't seen or spoken to her but today will be the first time sihat day .

  However, it will not be a happy meeting .I never wahis to happen with Lappnd on one side and Adam and white fang oher . In fact here was never anything to think about simply I did not want to hurt her however this must be stopped .

  The image of a monster in a wolf mask blurs for me with the image of a girl who has been with me most of my life . Lappnd has beore than a friend or sister to me I slept with her and tio do so even though I am with Adam . I know it is disgusting however I will not do it anymore . It's over .

  ' But what would he think of me if he found out ? '

  I think looking at his mask-covered upper face . Notig my gnce Adam turowards me handing me his hand in which he holds the syringe . Receiving it from him I look at its long needle .

  Adam : " It is a muscle rexant a dose enough for a horse .With you Lappnd will not be on guard . It will be easier for you and for us . "

  Says Adam as I look at Kuo Kuan I make sure of my motivation because I know very well that Lappnd may not five me , no she will not five me . However, I have already decided . Today I will make sure that Lappnd doesn't hurt anyone anymore . Now it doesn't even hurt looking at what animal she has bee .

  Adam :" You should go now otherwise you might be te for your meeting time "

  Says Adam leaving most likely goes to get everything ready . Without waiting any longer I hide the syringe in the sleeve of my long loose t-shirt after which I too leave heading to a small hut oskirts of town where Lappnd lives. A one-re hut with a kit , bed , closet and table in the same room at the back of it there is a door with a bathroom oher side of it .

  At some point Lappnd moved out and lived here aloe my mother's protests . Now few people go to these areas . Of course they are afraid of Lappnd who is currently sitting on the bed standing in one er of the hut right o the closet .

  Bke : " How are you feeling ?"

  I ask Lappnd who is looking at me without the top of her clothes showing her breasts under which is a thick yer of bandages going down to her long bck loose pants .

  Lappnd: " I've beeer ,Bke . "

  Says Lappnd in a numb tone looking at me . Looking at her I tell that she is not drunk h which is a difference as this has been her most on dition for the past year . However, it does not ge the fact that o ter lies a pstic bag full of medications and painkillers . Right o that lies an with alcohol .

  Seeing this I don't say anything anymore , I already tried to help her with this , I talked to her I asked her however she doesn't stop drinking. Looking away from this I look at Lappnd who stares at me .

  Bke : " Help you dress your shirt ? "

  I ask looking at Lappnd's left hand which she is holding in a sling tied around the back of her neck .

  Lappnd : " Don't you like what you see ? "

  Asks Lappnd when a gentle smile appeared on her face as if she was hoping for an answer. However, I just sighed and walked over to the closet o her .

  'We just started talking and I already have nothing to say to her .'

  I think as I walk over to her closet from which I pull out a white T-shirt when only now I notice the strange lihat prevails here . Last time I was here there were empty bottles everywhere and the air was full of cigarette smoke .

  Lappnd: " Ms. Kali ed up here after she patched me up ."

  Lappnd says notig that I look around. Hearing her words I am not surprised because generally it is mom who s up here when Lappnd is not here . Of course I told my mother to be careful or not to e here but she always got angry with me saying that someone has to .

  And all this despite the fact that she herself knew how dangerous and uable Lappnd had bee . This is pletely different from years ago , Lappnd grown up and now is strohan her or dad . So her usual tricks to calm her down, now won't work .

  However, even if they used to be able to do it anyway, it is already impressive . I remember a situation from a few years ago when me and Lappnd were still children. A situation that forever ged the image of Lappnd in my eyes , I know that she defended me and herself however .... I will never fet the faces of those dead SDC workers.

  Thinking about it I feel a shiver run through my body . Yet I feel in my bones and in my instinct that Lappnd wouldn't hurt me, but that feeling of her breath on my neck scares me . I never knew what she was thinking that is why I am afraid of her .

  Calming down I choose a white T-shirt and walk up to Lappnd who was already standing in front of the open fridge, with her teeth making a hole in the side of the beer . Watg her drink the beer like water I shake my head in disapproval as I walk closer to her to help her get dressed .

  Suddenly when I was close enough Lappnd released the empty from her hand and then she use this hand to hug me tightly as her white tail wags incessantly with excitement . Such a sudden feeling of having her so ade my heart beat faster however a sudden feeling of disfort covered this feeling making me feel like pushing her away .

  Lappnd: " I missed it . I missed you Bke "

  Lappnd says burying her fa my chest . As much as I would like to push her away from me now I 't bring myself to do it remembering our old days especially si's possible that we won't see each ain . At least until I or Lappy are ready for it .

  Lappnd: " Then why do you want to meet ? If you wanted sex you wouldn't be dressing me ."

  Says Lappnd making me feel awkward after her words because indeed I often came here for that , however, it was long ago whe did it . Sighing I tell her what I have already prepared for this question .

  Bke : " I wao take a walk with you and ask how you are doing."

  I say lying hoping that Lappnd won't se by the pounding of my heart and fortunately she probably didn't sense anything or didn't want to sense anything when with a deep breath she took in my st . Seeing Lappnd's behavior makes me again feel unfortable as I see that it is not healthy .

  Lappnd: " Walk ? Really ? We haven't seen each other for so long and you want a walk ? A walk with Bke . "

  Lappnd:" I remember that our st versation didn't go very well but if that's what you want , what's important to me is that I do it with you Bke ."

  Says Lappnd at first surprised but then this surprise disappears repced by pure joy despite the fact that she recalls our st argument . However, after her words Lappnd notices something and stares dully at it as her pupils tracted . Feeling her grip oighten I look at what Lappnd is looking at and I see that it is a mirror visible through the open bathroom door .

  Lappnd: " Sure why not " .

  Says Lappnd in an irritated tone as she releases me from her embrace . Pulling off her sling I help her dress her shirt as painlessly as possible after which I put her sling ba . Ready we both head towards the exit however at the st moment Lappnd turns and heads for the bed o which her two bdes are lying .

  Bke : " Lappnd we are going for a walk you don't hem ."

  I say trying to make sure that no os hurt .

  Lappnd : " I am not going anywhere without them ."

  Says Lappnd putting the bdes behind the belt on the side of her pants . Looking at Lappnd I see her serious face which turns into a calm smile as she looks at me . Which gives me the impression that she knows what's going on but doesn't care.

  Lappnd: " Let's go ".

  Lappnd says , walking out first while I, after a momentary shock, quickly follow her out because I know that ving her to leave her bdes behind will arouse her suspis, I just hope no os hurt . Closing the door to the hut I noti one of the shelves an old photo of me and Lappnd together which makes me pause in my movements .

  ' It's only for the sake of her and white fang' .

  I think closing the door knowing that Lappnd is uo return to this pce again .