Lately I have been correg some old chapters. There are no plot ges there I simply added necessary things and removed or fixed things that didn't fit me. But it does not ge the plot in any way, so there is o read them from scratch, however, where there are major ges to the chapter with a note ( Modifications) .

  I also decided to rewrite the previous chapter because it was terrible in my eyes, however, tely I have little time, but heless there will be a rewrite of that chapter.

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  Bke pov.

  ' What should I say ?'

  I think looking at Yang whose eyes are red and puffy as she obviously trying not to cry.

  Bke : " Don't worry about it so much"

  I say while looking at Yang face, which she tries to keep without g.

  Yang : " How I not care about something like that?"

  Yang says as a siear flows from her eyes.

  Bke :" Believe me Lappdumb is strange, but if she likes you then no matter how you hurt her she won't leave you."

  ' I speak from experience if Lapps attached then she will not let you go .'

  Yang : " Thanks Bke but I threw up on her, it doesn't affect whether she likes me or not, it affects how she perceives me."

  Says Yang as she bure her fa the b while letting out a hopeless sigh.

  ' I could ig and leave Yang aloh her thoughts '

  ' Yang will probably be too embarrassed to show herself in front of Lappnd again. This way...'

  ' Why this is so annoying. Helping her is the eween me and Lappy.'

  'I decided right?'

  Thinking about it I look at Yang who has knond for two days and is already g for mistakes as if Lappnd has been her love for years.

  Bke : " Even if Lappnd doesn't like you why are y so hard for her? "

  Yang : " I am n".

  Yang says while her face is hidden in the bed sheets which makes her voice muffled.

  Yang is really serious about what she feels. It's hard to tell how many feelings someone has for someoil something happens. Just like Lappnd suffered for me for years and now Yang who really takes it seriously however, she still screwed it up in a big way .

  Bke : "What would happen if Lappnd wasn't ied in you".

  I ask looking at Yang.

  Yang : " Then I would do everything to get her ied in me".

  Bke : "Like some kind of pervert ?"

  Yang : "No, I wouldn't have crossed some boundaries, I would have just been with her trying t us closer ".

  Bke : " What if..."

  Yang : "If she's ued I'll try to befriend her, even though I'll probably need a few days to cool off first. However, even as her friend, I would not st to get her as a girlfriend. But what has happened yesterday must have been disgusting in her eyes and I will be lucky if we bee friends."

  Hearing her I know that she ot fake these feelings. Yesterday I couldn't be sure that she wasn't lying about her feelings however now it's her tears that are her evidence for which I have numents unless Yang is such a good actress .

  Bke : " I will help you with Lappy".

  I say looking at Yang who has pulled her head out of the bo look at me in surprise.

  Bke : "You thought that after what I told you yesterday, I would help you ? "

  I ask, however, looking at Yang's face I see that she thought so.

  Bke : " No, Yesterday I only let you to try win Lapp ".

  Saying this I look at Yang when a gentle smile appears on her fabsp;

  Yang :" Thanks Bke however, what happened yesterday ot be fixed, it was a total destru of my person in her eye."

  Hearing this, I know that it's now my busio help her get through that unfortunate first meeting.

  Bke : " When I first met Lappnd my parents introduced her to me as my pymate. You know I was one of those quiet kids who didn't seek friendships , I had other activities at the time ".

  ' In fact from a very young age exactly from the moment I learo write I participated in the peaceful protests that my parents created, I was so absorbed by it that I didn't see the point in looking for friends .

  Bke :" Wanting to make Lappnd my friends , I told her a joke which, as I think about it now, was terrible. However, she ughed at it. But at the time her ughter frightened me which made me run away from her, but to her it apparently seemed like I ying with her.

  Bke : "When she was chasi the time I actally hit her. Lappnd was very weak as she was directly after treatment, and that hit made her lose sciousness. I panicked and ran away from the yard leavihat day in the rain ."

  I say recalling that first unfortunate enter of ours.

  Bke :" After that I avoided her heless Lappnd followed me like a shadow. She wao py with me, but seeing that I was engrossed in something else she began to imitate me. "

  Bke :" Over time I opened up to Lappnd It was through her that I met my other friends. She gave me more than anyone could give me even though at our first meeting I left her alone . "

  I say as I remember her sacrifices and the time she gave me. I remember teag her how to draw banners so we could go to protests together.

  Hearing my story Yae the sadness in her eyes looks at me with a grateful smile.

  Yang : " You were small then, we are adults, and this situation is so embarrassing. You know I just worry hond will look at me now ".

  Ynag says with a sigh.

  Bke : " Lappnd is not simple even I don't uand her sometimes. She sometimes has outbursts of pletely differeions from ao joy to nervous breakdowns so I 't tell you myself what she thinks about the situation . "

  Hearing my words about Lappnd's emotional vaciltions, Yang looks at me but she does not interrupt me.

  Bke : "However, I saw what happehat day, and while a normal person wouldn't have e out of that car alive, probably even our childhood friend Hazel would have e out with a bck eye after such a situation."

  Bke :" But you? Lappnd didn't do anything to you , or rather she wiped the vomit off herself using your hair but I believe it's not so bad as what might have happened . "

  I say when Yang looks at me with her eyes wide open as she grabs her golden hair with horror on her face . Yang looked thoughtful as she sighed and a wide smile returo her face .

  Yang :" Thank you Bke, sometimes I really do stupid things, like this drinking beyond my capacity, I deserve to have my hair used as a towel "

  Yang says when the cheerful and eic character returns to her.

  Bke : " Don't worry about it because I see that you care about Lappnd however let me warn you ".

  I say when my face bees pletely serious.

  Bke :" Lappnd experienced a lot of bad things, I myself don't know what because my parents didn't tell me anythie the fact that they knew something. Whatever happeo her left her with scars in her mind and body so deep that they have not healed so far. "

  I pause for a moment and look at Yang. What I tell her now is everything I know myself and something Lappnd ells anyone.

  Yang :" That's where her "emotional instability " es from and why she is so brutal ? "

  Asks Yang looking at me apparently, she saw it for herself.

  Bke :" Yes, and it's bad with her so don't ever ask Lappnd about what happeo her, don't ask about her parents and other such things reted to her early childhood."

  Bke :" Because if Lappnd loses her brakes she bee very dangerous. But don't be afraid of Lappnd be afraid of what she hides inside ."

  Looking at Yang some old memory es to my mind. Bodies of SDC people scattered on the floor, bitten, scratche and in all of this I only ten years old looking at the awakening of something terrible .

  ' It was the first time I saw such violehe first time I saw so much blood in one pce, and the first time I sand g .'

  ' In my eyes Lappnd was strong and always defended me from others. She was amazing and this amazing person cried in front of me for the first time'

  That day I discovered a part of who I love. Her sambenc did to kill grimm, Lappnd sambe to kill people this showed me the true disposition of Lappnd which has always been blood, tears and unequal struggle .

  'What everyone sees is my Lappdumb, what I see is Lappnd hidden from the eyes of others.'

  Yang : "Bke are you there ? "

  I am pulled out of my thoughts by Yang who waves her hand in front of my face. Looking at her I see that I must have drifted away.

  Bke : " I drifted off?"

  Yang : "Yes for about two minutes, are you okay? "

  Asks Yang however I don't answer her question and tinue what I said.

  Bke :" What I'm asking you is simple, don't fuck it up. I'm not saying treat her like an egg just be there for her when she needs it, be uanding and be prepared because once you cross the lihere is no way out without hurting one of you."

  I say looking at Yang and I'm not going to lecture her because I fucked it up myself. What I'm afraid of now is that she will screw it up too.

  Yang :" Don't worry I will take care of your friend after all I am Yang Xiao Long. "

  Says Yang with a smirk showing her biceps and it's all as if she's uttering some kind of oath . Hearing her I smile knowing the determination on her face.

  Bke : "I hope so because if you hurt Lappnd I will find you".

  I say pletely seriously to Yang who stopped smiling.

  'Nond has a ce to find the happiness she deserves'.

  Finishing my thoughts my attention is drawn to Yang's outfit which has been uncovered again .

  ' You 't call her a girl she is already a woman'.

  'Lappnd's clothes are mostly too small for me but for her.'

  Bke : " Would you like to ge?"

  I ask because looking at her I feel warmth on my fa probably blushing again.

  Yang :" Yes please"

  Yang says as she covers herself with the b again apparently she is embarrassed too by this situation. I don't prolong and I get up t her clothes but before I go too far Yang asks .

  Yang : " By the way where is Lappnd? ".

  Hearing her question I turn to her and say.

  Bke : " She went to the doctor "