Bke Pov

  Bke : " What are you doing , she is no longer able to stand up !!!! You are suffog her with this , 't you see she 't breathe !!!"

  I shout at them making sure they all let go of her grip on the wires letting Lappnd fall into my arms. Feeling the warm blood on my hands a sudden surge of panic makes me put Lappnd down , face to the sky to check her pulse and breathing whiy relief she still has .

  Bke : " What are you waiting for Adam give her antidote , you do not see what is happening to her . !!!! "

  For the first time in a fit of emotion I shout at Adam who looked surprised by my behavior however after looking at Yuma and Trifa . He pulled out a vial of antidote from his jacket .

  I was pletely unaware at the time that the feeling of Lappnd's life esg through my fingers , pletely broke my fidence about my feelings for her . At that moment I was still angry at her nothing would ge the fact of what she did and is doing . However, I have no iion of taking part in her death . I don't want to have Lappd's blood on my hands .... even after what she did .

  Bke : " We were supposed to transport her to a psychiatric hospital not a cemetery !!"

  I say even more angry when Adam at this time approaches me in silence .

  Adam : " I'm sorry Bke this really went too far , I just wao be sure of everyone's safety . Believe me of all people the death of Lappnd would be the greatest loss to me ."

  Adam said before I could say anything more . In his words I really sensed remorse and anger which calmed me down a bit . I saw that Adam really didn't want Lappnd's death and indeed looking at the whole picture of the rea between Lappnd and Adam I know that he never wanted her death .

  Without saying anything else Adam k on one knee o Lappnd's head and theretched his hand with the vial towards Lappnd's mouth when at that time Trifa grabbed my arm with the iion of pullio the side .Taking a few breaths, I got up from Lappnd and stepped aside with Trifa while Adam, along with two other faunus, took care of Lappnd.

  Trifa : " Sorry Bke but you know what Lappnd is like. You've seen her dition she would kill everyone if we gave her even a sliver of an opportunity , the only way to catch her is to leave her in a half alive state. We all want happiness for her, Bke. We've known each other since we were kids so you should know that she's also my friend ."

  Trifa : " Do you really think that Adam whom Lappnd saved years ago from the hands of SDC would want her dead . If it wasn't for Lappnd then Adam would have ended up even worse than just with a scar on his face . Adam owes Lappnd his life ."

  Trifa says pletely soothing my nerves .

  ' It's true Trifia has always been in our little group of friends . And Adam when he was captured by SDC was saved by Lappnd herself . It is true that I had to ask her to do so , however , no matter what Adam owes Lappnd his life , none of them would have the iion of killing her . '

  'Lappnd herself also would not be captured simply , Trifia is right this is the only way to catch her and transport her safely .'

  I think looking at Adam's mask-covered face . I see him staring crouched on his k Lappnd's face from which the rain is slowly washing away her blood and mud .

  In addition to the raging storm in the clearing , there was a calm sileween everyone which was suddenly broken again by Lappnd who opened her eyes after which she grabbed one of the fanus by the neck with her right hand .

  Lappnd : " Do not move , or I will tear out his windpipe " .

  Said Lappnd in a hoarse tohout letting go of the fanus in her grasp . From her movements I could see her fatigue but still no one dared to uimate Lappnd's ability to kill .

  Adam who had the good fortuo be on the left side of Lappnd's body which saved him from her right hand together with the fanus who had previously been at Lappnd's feet got up quickly from their positioreating slowly backwards .

  Without the help of her hands with pain and fatigue Lappnd slowly lifted her torso then bending her knees under herself she struggled to get up from the ground when at that time the fanus she was holding with her hands raised slowly with her .

  With her left hand freely hanging ily at her side and her right hand pced on the bleeding throat of the faunus Lappnd fixed her gaze on Adam . Seeing this I was angry with myself . I realized then that it was my fault that this faunus could die at the hands of this psychopath who despite almost dying a moment ago tio fight . At this time Lappnd with her head gently down was breathing loudly . I khat every inhale and exhale ainful and difficult for her .

  Lappnd : " I said that if you want to catch me you will do it when I am dead . And that will only happen when I take you two with me . "

  Says Lappnd referring to Adam and Trifa . Lappnd with her gently downcast head with her dirty wet white hair stuck to her faly showed her wide grin which showed her white teeth dirty from blood . Looking at her shiver went through my back . Her posture and dition was more like a wild animal lured into a er. However, the feeling she gave off made me feel like a small child in front of a grimm.

  However , even grimms are afraid of Lappnd and this just shows what kind of monster she must be to scare something that has no feelings . Lappnd this psychopath who loves fighting really prefers to die rather than surrender . Even now she does everything to shed the blood of people who want to help her .

  Quickly lifting her head up, Lappnd's white hair exposed her single eye through which her scar passed. The look in that eye reminded me of none of her looks . It was not bored , indifferent , cold , amused , mad , obsessive , angry only serious . She was pletely focused on the ohing , that was to kill the two of them. There were no other thoughts in her eyes , only those two tracted pupils looking at Adam .

  There was a bit of ess in her eyes but not at the level that she generally showed . I only saw that look in her eyes once years ago is kingdom , ihroom when SDC workers wao take us away . I remember every sed of that event until the moment I almost died . I remember the moment Lappnd's sembence awoke and the moment when her eyes gaihat silver glow .

  The rain became more intense being a veritable curtain of water , the ground because of the amount of water practically colpsed under my weight . One lightning strike after another however no one moved . Lappnd not breaking eye tact with Adam who all the time stood still in a position with one leg pced back, one hand on the handle of the katana and the other on the scabbard .

  Lappnd looking at him slowly moved her tongue across her lips , the out a long harsh exhale . Letting go of the fanus in her hand Lappnd dashed forward at Adam who was not far from her . Looking at the situation I immediately moved towards Lappnd who was already in front of Adam who was drawing his katana from the scabbard.

  Before I had time to react Lappnd had already put her foot oip of the hilt of the half-extended katana stopping Adam from using his on . By this time Lappnd's also grabbed Adam's horn with her right hand .

  However, before anything more happened I hit Lappnd in the back of the head with enough force that she let go of Adam's horn and then lost her ban the leg standing oip of the katana handle , causio slip . Seeing an opportunity Adam immediately kicked her in the ribs sending her further away from him and then instead of pleting the drawing of the katana he backed away making it clear that he did not want to kill her .

  For that Lappnd slowly turo me while I in the meantime had already run into her falling to the ground with her . As if in slow motion I saw her face, her gssy eyes full of sadness, anger and envy, her lips on which she had a grimace, which finally after looking at me turned into a smile of relief ?

  I knog her to the muddy ground . As I held her on the ground, I noticed what a ck of resistan her part, which made me look in surprise into her eyes which had lost their look . I was sure of it that Lappnd could have killed me then in many ways from usieeth on my exposed throat or breaking out with the sheer force that I still sense in her body . However, Lappnd did not do this . She simply looked at me as sciousness faded from her eyes .

  " Tag now you're chasing ."

  With these words Lappnd lost sciousness and I lost any self-trol . This stupid game . Our first unfortunate enter at which Lappnd thought we were pying with each other . Feeling tears dripping down my eyes I wao hit her for how stubborn she was but her already blood-stained face stopped me .

  Sitting down on Lappnd's belly I could only wat stupefa as several people quickly ran past me to tie Lappnd up when Adam at that time helped me up and took me further away from it . However, I did not pay my attention to anything but my own thoughts .

  My entire childhood ent with Lappnd. I remember everything about our first meal together her first night in the garden of our house , our first bath together which was very awkward , our first time pying together which my mother forced me to do .

  The first time I introduced Lappnd to the world of books, the first time I read them to her, her silly ents about it that annoyed me so much at the time, the first doctor's appoi I had to go to with everyone else because Lappnd didn't want to go without me.

  The day Lapp up the boy who threw my book ier , the first time I introduced Lappnd to the ideals of white fang , our first work together on signs and funny chasers for protests , the first protest together , the first friends I made because of her .

  The first years spent together with her until our first hit of puberty . Lappnd o of puberty was the most difficult crisis my parents experienced . Our house needed repairs and my father itches on his chest . My first period through which Lappnd did not leave me alone for a sed . But even though it was hard and painful we were in it together , as alweys.

  Our first cigarette , first bottle of alcohol .... First actal drunken kiss . Meeting Adam , my first love . The first time I ran away from home to go on a mission with Adam and Lappnd . The first time I took somebody life and Lappnd who was by my side at the time . The first argumeween Lappnd and Adam . So many memories , good or bad .

  I lived with her for so long but still I know nothing about Lappnd for this reason all the time I had a seed of fear of her in my heart , even more so after her many outbursts of anger . However, even in a rage she never hurt me or my mom it was my dad who always had problems but she ry to kill him . All the time I had this sense of duty to help her in life but now do I still ?

  Since I uood more about the world I read books about psychology , I walked with Lappnd to psychiatrists to listen to versations . I never knew why Lappnd is the way she is I never knew how to help her and I still holy do not know .

  But despite the many times when Lappnd was a headache I could never get angry with her because most of the happy moments of my life were with Lappnd . Lappnd is my whole childhood, it is because of Lappnd that I am who I am now .

  ' So what the fuck happened ? Why did it end like this ? Why didn't she defend herself from me ? Why didn't she kill me when she held me on the ground ? And why did I like that moment so much ? '

  'Why 't I just hate her As much as I'm telling myself ? Why even though I shouldn't care , it hurts me ? Why does it hurt me so much to look at it ? '

  Kali : " Because you love her Bke and Lappnd hasn't done anything you could really hate her for . You were angry at her addis , at her tantrums and aggression you were angry that Lappnd kills . You didn't hate Lappnd herself for being " different " because she's been that way since you've known her . It is in this " different " from others personality that you fell in love . "

  Kali : " You were angry at the fact that Lappnd had fallen as a person , and your love for her did not allow you to accept that . And all this evehis downfall was caused by you , your pride and belief in fighting for the good did not allow you to accept h your choices were and how the very cause you were fighting for became the aggression that Lappnd reflected to you at the time . "

  My mother's ao my inner question pulled me out of my thoughts . For a while I just looked at the s when slowly the awareness of my surroundings came bae then I also uood what my mother said . Realizing the versation I was having, I turned my attention to the scroll s where I could see my mother's face.

  Bke : "You knew ? "